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Nancy▸ twenty-seven. I just want to become healthy and as pain-free as possible. HW: 299 CW: 211 I wish you the best of luck in your journey as well, ♥️🍀

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Baby Update:

Wow I haven’t updated this blog in forever. I’m sorry yall! For anyone who cares, it’s been a rollercoaster ride to say the least. Due to medical issues on my end - gestational diabetes and ultimately gestational hypertension - baby came early at 36 weeks. I got to experience about 3 extra bonus weeks with babe before his due date. He is so stinking cute yall, I’m in love. 😍🥰

I also got to experience what it’s like to be diabetic - which reaffirmed I DO NOT want to let myself get to that point. Though it turns out when push comes to shove I can totally do the finger pricks…

As far as weight, my total weight gain from pregnancy was about 70ish lbs. I ended up being induced at 283 lbs. About two weeks postpartum I weighed myself and was at 258. I’ve been doing super well with maintaining that and sticking around there.

I do not plan on actively trying to lose weight due to breastfeeding. I do not want my supply to plummet due to a calorie deficit. If I happen to lose, great, but I’m not going to be overly worried about it. Ideally I want to just work on maintaining.

Pics of baby for the update:

Edit: I’m not sure why this is labeled mature? lol but sure pop off tumblr

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So I haven’t posted in a while

The biggest reason is I had to put my weight loss journey on pause because I got pregnant! A few weeks after my mom left (from my last post), I found out I was pregnant. Naturally, my maintaining weight/losing weight diet is not conducive to fetal growth. So I had to completely change my diet again. I’ve since gained about 45 lbs from what I’m considering my pre-pregnancy weight. It’s been very hard mentally, especially since I’ve always been in a “gaining weight is bad” mentality. Though my OB does say you apparently lose 18-20 lbs when you give birth so that’s my only saving grace on my mentality. I keep thinking that I can always go back and fix my weight once he’s here, but until then I have to focus on eating frequent and eating enough for him to grow. I’m not positive when exactly this blog will go super active again as far as personal posting for losing weight. But I appreciate y’all’s patience in the mean time ❤️

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So I like kinda knew already but now fully convinced with proof.

My mom is an enabler like none other.

Weighed myself when she got here to visit: 215

Weighed myself yesterday (she’s leaving today): 224

+9 lbs. in 10 days.

Granted, I know I’m in charge for what I put in my body. But she knows I’m a person of convenience and if it’s in the house, I’m going to eat it. Hence why I typically don’t bring in fast food, nor candy or anything like that. I typically only buy food I know I’m allowed to eat within my diet. And she got so much takeout, so much pizza, candy, cake, etc.

And I’m supposed to have a 3 month check in with my doctor on Monday where I’m supposed to have lost 9-15 lbs, and instead gained weight. I should be low 200’s or under 200 at this point.

I’m so disappointed in myself. And mentally, part of me adds her to the blame. I know I shouldn’t but I do.

I’m disgusted with myself. I can see the weight on me too. My face doesn’t look as slim, double chin poking out more.

Doesn’t help halfway through my moms visit, my husband came home from work and was like (completely jokingly) “the way you’re sitting makes you look like you gained 5 lbs” I had weighed myself earlier that day and at that point it was just 5.0 exactly I gained.

So disgusted with myself. Gotta get back on track 💪🏻

Wish me luck y’all, I sure as shit need it

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Ah just wanna mention again how supportive my husband is yaaaallllll

So 4th of July, right, water park cause why not. I was feeling super not great about the bikini (it happens). Had a mini-breakdown/meltdown. Hubby convinced me to go begrudgingly.

I came clean what the cause of the breakdown/meltdown was from. He told me I looked great in it and asked where all my confidence went from the last few times I wore it. I told him I didn’t know just wasn’t a good mental state lately.

Saturday, repeat of it. He gave me a kiss, said I looked great, and was super handsy all day.

Sunday, repeat again. He told me to look at the other people in the water park. He guaranteed me I wasn’t the only not stick thin girly in a bikini and told me he thought I was the prettiest one there. Again, all day handsy. Even went so far as to whisper in my ear any shot he got about how he thought I looked sexy, how my butt looked great, etc. I did keep his words in mind and saw a girl bigger than me in a bikini and I (subtly) pointed it out. And he was like “see, told you you’re not alone. It isn’t any different.” I told him but she looked so great and pulled it off and his only response was “and you don’t?”

All weekend he also tried to get the baby to tell me how “mommy’s so pretty” and how I’m a “pretty mommy”.

Guyssss… never underestimate how crucial it is for a great support system. I honestly wouldn’t have made it without him by my side squashing all my negative thoughts this weekend.

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Y’all ever feel like body dysmorphia hits you HARD for like a few weeks straight?

Starting to get to the point where if I look at ANY part of my body for more than 3 seconds I start to hate it.

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Left is November 2020, right is May 2023.

The difference is INSANE.

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I keep almost losing my shorts. I desperately need to buy new shorts….

These used to be so dang tight it felt like it was cutting into me.

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The picture on the left is at my heaviest weight - or around it. The picture on the right was taken just now upon finding the left picture. 

Of course the hoodie still doesn’t fit as nicely as I want it to. But compared to the picture on the left? I’d much rather how it looks on the right. 

Can I also point out how the hoodie can actually be pulled down towards my thighs now? Whereas before it’s barely able to be pulled down that far?

Also, ignore my post-workout hair

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Holy crow, neither of these look like me now. I wonder how that hoodie would fit now? I might need to see if I can find it after we get done with the move 😂 I also am wondering what my weight was around either of those times… 🤔

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Also, hubs doesn’t smile worth shit in pictures, but I wore the damn bikini in public! Was hella nervous but I wore it! Look yaaaaallll

Also wanted to apologize to anybody at hurricane harbor I may have accidentally flashed half a butt cheek and butt crack to! My 2 year old was not diggin’ the cold water and I almost lost my bottoms while trying to wrangle him!

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Also got my wedding set back after wearing a size 7 ring for a bit and a 7.5 is so loose now!

Ugh it took 8 weeks to fix last time, I don’t want to send it right back for another 6 to size down!

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Yaaaaallllll blood work update!!!

I’ve finally gotten blood testing done again (last round was before starting Mounjaro in October).

My A1C’s and glucose were in a good range (high end but still in range) beforehand but are now lower to low/middle of the range for both. But my insulin is where I had issues that prompted all this. I was 48.0 even before mounjaro (weighing around 290). My range should be 2.6-24.9 - so I was around double what I should’ve been at the high end of the range. Now? I’m down to 5.1 (and weighing around 212)!

Granted I’ve done a major overhaul on what I eat since learning my insulin is awful, but this is the best blood work I have had in my entire life (doctor tested lipids as well).

The proof is in the pudding yall! I’m thoroughly convinced if this was caught earlier I wouldn’t have even gotten to the point I was. My new saying is I was never meant to be fat 💁🏻‍♀️😂

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Double Transformation Tuesday?!

In honor of our local hurricane harbor opening up this weekend, figured I’d look back at swimsuits. Last year I ventured into bikinis - so this is a neat comparison.

Left is 3X top and bottom; right is 2X top and 1X bottom. I tried on XL top and it fit but the girlies just weren’t sitting right - they looked like a can of busted biscuits spilling out the top.

I had to get a new size because the bottoms of the one on the left are indecent to wear now (and have been since at least January). The top still fits and isn’t crazy big so I can throw it on with the XL bottoms (thankfully they’re black).

These are crazy to see… like where was my neck? And my shoulders - just look at that difference!

I honestly was debating not getting another bikini this year, but I kept reminding myself - I wear clothes for me, not for others. If I like it, I should wear it. If others don’t like it, well they can look away. Every body is a swim suit body. Every body is a bikini body.

Wear the damn bikini, babes! ❤️

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Transformation Tuesday!

You know it’s super wild when you can do before and afters, on your before and afters! Here’s something neat I found out the other day!

Left most I was fitting most comfortable in 3/4X. Middle I was wearing 2X. Right most I can fit comfortably in XL.

It’s so insane to see how clothes fit on me now. It’s truly a wild experience.

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Aye been trying to post for forever, but tumblr wouldn’t let me. Had to uninstall/reinstall.

Quite a few updates to come soon! ❤️🍀

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One of my biggest NSV’s to date:

So my wedding set is in the shop again - this time missing diamonds, bent prongs, and just overall beat to death over the past 3 years (hey I warned my husband I’m rough and clumsy and I hit my hand off everything)

While it’s in the shop, my hand felt naked. My old “backup” ring to wear when my wedding set is in the shop is a size 9 - but was a cheapy from Walmart that can’t get resized.

My husband said let’s fix that, let’s get you a new backup ring to wear on your ring finger that fits.

I was able to pick out a ring, from the case, and it actually fit nicely. JCP has all their case rings at a size 7. So that means I’ve officially gone from a size 9 to a 7 (well my highest ring size was 10, but I was a 9 when I started mounjaro). I was able to get a ring, and not have to immediately send it off for 6-8 weeks.

I knew I was getting close from where my late grandmothers rings are starting to fit (range from sizes 6.5-7). So far only one of hers fit completely the rest are close but no dice.

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So I took measurements, and holy crow.

I couldn’t help but make the measure tape show what it used to be and just hold it out and see how big it compares to now I am. Truly insane.

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So yesterday, this badass bitch was able to knock out the last 3 rides at Six Flags that I couldn’t fit in since I started my membership in 2020.

Screaming Eagle, American Thunder, & Batman all knocked off the list! Each ride I was able to get on, get in, get buckled, get checked no issues, no double checks, no struggles!

Also got to ride Catwoman Whip again but this time with my husband! It was such a good NSV day!

Also, officially down to 217 making a total of 82 pounds lost! I’m creeping close and closer to that big 100 gone!

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