When will i ever stop feeling like shit... like its all i feel and its become the norm. I don't know what the hell I'm doing with my time, with my days.. with my life. I'm really starting to doubt that there's something wrong with me, up there in my head. I'm never satisfied with my any of my accomplishments, i don't even consider that I've ever accomplished anything worthy of that title. Just about to graduate and feeling the least excited I'm actually dreading it.. i don't know where the hell to go. to go from myself. . I thought i wanted to get away from everyone, but its me whom i want to get away from. i don't know anymore if I'm being too hard on myself, or maybe i am an actual brat who cant make up her mind about anything. Im just about to turn 24 tomorrow and jeez that sounds like its going to be awful day tomorrow. Like seriously what is my problem and what the hell am i even doing. I feel awful, about who i am and what I'm doing my time. And knowing deep down that nothing matters, makes me question my choices even more. I just suck thats really all it is to it, can't i just get that?
