Torin Love

38. transmasc. they/he. disabled. writer of trans masc smut and other desires.

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Welcome to the blog of Torin Love; writer of things smutty, dark, taboo, and horror.

Here you will find insights into Torin's mental health and hyperfixations, behind-the-scenes thoughts and feelings about whatever is going on with the world, and other endless possibilities.

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It's terribly imperfect, but I finished it and I'm proud of it.

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PRE-ORDER NOW - LINK IN [BIO] https://buy.bookfunnel.com/zq4rqtznoa Adrien Wilcox spent his childhood isolated in the wilds of the Pacific Northwest. His father, seemingly paranoid, kept him from living a typical life of friends and adventure. So when he is finally allowed to go off to college, he does not pass up a trip to New York City with some new college friends. A city he has always wanted to visit. Little does he know, there is someone waiting for him in the Big Apple. Someone who wants revenge on his father. Papa's Toy is part of a Dark Transmasc Multi-Author Series, featuring in*est and dark romance. For a list of CWs/TWs, click here. Release date: NOVEMBER 18TH

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I joined a guild on The Elder Scrolls Online... one of their rules or whatever is to not be sensitive. Makes me think they say problematic things and don't want to be called out for it.

[vagabond-pinky]

In Memory of Big Demon-Birdy Stolas

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Daily excerpt from chapter 130 of Underline the Black:

‘You were gracious today,’ Gary said, his voice so quiet, the thrum of the ocean and the winds of the forest surrounding them. ‘I don’t know about that,’ Efnisien said, pressing his fingers to the scab on Gary’s collarbone, finding it automatically. The bites were slow healing. They’d stained a reddish-black, and would fade to a dark red, more vivid than the bite marks shared between alphas and omegas. ‘I’ve never said it, but there’s room for James and your love for him in whatever this is. This relationship.’ Gary bowed into Efnisien and pressed his lips to the top of his head. ‘He belongs here too, right?’ Efnisien said. He thought of the way Temsen once bluntly said James was dead, like he was angry Gary was still so attached to him. Hell, even Efnisien had been furious about it for such a long time. But James lived on in his family, and in Gary, and in that way, he existed in this home; he was carried in Gary’s heart wherever he went, a permanent mark left on his body even if it wasn’t a bite mark. ‘Efnisien…’ Gary’s voice was strange. He said nothing else. Efnisien opened his eyes and saw nothing but shadows, dim shapes that resolved into nothing. Gary’s body was so close to his. I love you. Not yet. Soon, maybe. But not yet.

[stuckinapril]

Has anyone figured out what’s so viscerally wrong with this woman yet

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She’s so one dimensionally evil you guys 😭😭 how is she real

[mintedwitcher]

read this and remember it. read this and remember that she is going to use the profits of her fucking ego-stroking reboot to decimate trans rights. read this and remember that every time you pay into her IP, you are emboldening her to hurt us more.

our lives matter more than your fucking nostalgia.

trans lives matter more than your fucking nostalgia.

[wolfertinger666]

I want my art to be about black transmasc femininity through fatness and body positivity

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I hate that transmasc femininity being expressed can only be done through white and or skinny dudes and it makes me very upset because I see fat bodies as absolutely Divine in every shape and form. and they should be allowed to be soft and femme too. especially ESPECIALLY if they're black bodies.

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it's time for beautiful fat boys

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Erotic short. An English teacher in a boarding school destresses with the head of maintenance.

Rated E, cis M/M, 3.1k. Barebacking, creampie, anal, rough sex, size kink, age difference, spanking, voyeurism.

God’s Word

Erotic short. An English teacher in a boarding school destresses with the head of maintenance. Photo by Chester Zhao via Pexels. Rated E, ci

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Starting next Thursday, Sept 4th, I will be releasing weekly shorts featuring cis M/M+. That means I need some beta readers! All the info needed is on the Google Form I have linked on the top right of my website: torinlove.com If you love dark/horror/tab** er*tica with various kinks (mpr*g, n*ncon, monsters, bugs, inc*st, bad endings, medical malpractice, and more), then please sign up!

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The coupon for the new shop on my site is still going until Tuesday! Get 25% off Daddy's Open Arms (or pre-order my next book, Papa's Toy)!

DISCOUNT code: p2kjym2g

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#mmromance #queerromance #darkqueerromance #tabooromance #taboobooks

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ANNOUNCEMENT

I will be releasing my next book in November. This time I am part of the Dark Transmasc Multi-Author Series, with four other authors. I am looking forward to sharing this story with everyone!

Adrien Wilcox spent his childhood isolated in the wilds of the Pacific Northwest. His father, seemingly paranoid, kept him from living a typical life of friends and adventure. So when he is finally allowed to go off to college, he does not pass up a trip to New York City with some new college friends. A city he has always wanted to visit. Little does he know, there is someone waiting for him in the Big Apple. Someone who wants revenge on his father.

Papa’s Toy is part of a Dark Transmasc Multi-Author Series. Click here for a list of CWs/TWs and tropes.

Release date: NOVEMBER 18TH

Other stories in the series: Our Home by Nez Our Secret Desires by Cael Fox Their Little Brother by A Frack

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Straight culture’s orientation toward heteroromantic sacrifice is also influenced by socioeconomic class. Respect for sacrifice—or sucking it up and surviving life’s miseries—is one of the hallmarks of white working-class culture, for instance, wherein striving for personal happiness carries less value than does adherence to familial norms and traditions. Maturity and respectability are measured by what one has given up in order to keep the family system going, an ethos that is challenged by the presence of a queer child, for instance, who insists on “being who they are.” Queerness—to the extent that it emphasizes authenticity in one’s sexual relationships and fulfillment of personal desires—is an affront to the celebration of heteroromantic hardship. As Robin Podolsky has noted, “What links homophobia and heterosexism to the reification of sacrifice . . . is the specter of regret. Queers are hated and envied because we are suspected of having gotten away with something, of not anteing up to our share of the misery that every other decent adult has surrendered to.”

For many lesbian daughters of working-class straight women, opting out of heterosexuality exposes the possibility of another life path, begging the question for mothers, “If my daughter didn’t have to do this, did I?” Heterosexuality is compulsory for middle-class women, too, but more likely to be represented as a gift, a promise of happiness, to be contrasted with the ostensibly “miserable” life of the lesbian. The lesbian feminist theorist Sara Ahmed has offered a sustained critique of the role of queer abjection in the production of heteroromantic fantasies. In Living a Feminist Life, she notes that “it is as if queers, by doing what they want, expose the unhappiness of having to sacrifice personal desires . . . for the happiness of others.” In The Promise of Happiness, Ahmed argues, “Heterosexual love becomes about the possibility of a happy ending; about what life is aimed toward, as being what gives life direction or purpose, or as what drives a story.” Marked by sacrifice, misery, and failure along the way, the journey toward heterosexual happiness (to be found with the elusive “good man”) remains the journey.

Jane Ward, The Tragedy of Heterosexuality

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Nothing in the world feels as unjust as the fate of the Disco Elysium developers.

Imagine you build this in-depth fictional setting over the course of decades with your friends, and then decide to turn it into a game for fun. You end up creating one of the most celebrated and well-written RPGs of all time and become celebrated for reviving a dying genre.

A few months later, you're fired from the company you founded for criticizing the new direction its taking. The company has the copyright not only to the game you made, but literally everything in the world of the game, which spans decades of lore you built for no profit with your group of friends.

Like, this is a nightmare that I didn't even know existed before I ran into it. To have, what is essentially a passion project that branched off from a TTRPG campaign, be pulled from your hands by a corporate entity that only yearns to abuse your creation for maximum profit. I couldn't imagine myself going on creating anything after that.

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I am once again reminding people that the only thing that can steal an original work from a creator is IP Law.

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129/132 - Underline the Black (omegaverse)

Title: Underline the Black Rating: Explicit Pairing: Efnisien ap Wledig/Dr Gary Konowalous Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Darkfic, Disturbing themes, Age Gap, Omegaverse, Alpha/Alpha, no Mpreg, Medical experimentation, Medical trauma, Dominance/Submission, Dystopian universe, Forced bonding, Forced relationship, Imprisonment, Nonconsensual medical procedures, PTSD, Flashbacks, Nightmares, Chronic illness, Mating cycles/Heats, Knotting, Miscommunication, Trauma recovery, Mind control, Child Abuse, Hope, Hopeful ending.

Summary: Efnisien ap Wledig is an omega born into an all-alpha family. Abandoned by his birth mother and raised by his aunt, he is subjected to a lifetime of medical experimentation and brainwashing and believes himself to be an alpha. But the experiments begin to fail, and he is abandoned yet again to an Omega Rehabilitation Facility, where the family expects he will be retrained into the ‘perfect omega’ and placed in an arranged marriage, or be eliminated if this is no longer possible.

The Facility don’t know about the experiments, and Efnisien doesn’t even know why he’s in there in the first place, since he’s an alpha…isn’t he? One thing’s for certain, he definitely doesn’t need an alpha companion, no matter what the staff at the facility seem to think.

Underline the Black - Chapter 129 - A Comfortable Celebration - @ AO3

In which Efnisien spends time with Faber and wants to find out what really happened the night Faber met Lludd. But Faber holds back, visibly scared, Efnisien realises doesn’t have to rush the process at all.

– Thanks to all the Patreon and Ream supporters for making this story possible!

Those who join the community get access to - depending on the tier you pick - early chapters, polls, chapter commentaries, a special Discord channel where more excerpts are posted, even merch, an unpublished Fae Tales novel, and personal thanks in novels depending on what tier you sign up to!

There are currently 9 early access chapters and they include -

3 chapters of Underline the Red (Augus+Gwyn tier or higher) 1 chapter of Underline the Gold (Augus+Gwyn tier or higher) 3 chapters of Second Star to the Right (Gary+Efnisien tier or higher) 2 chapters of Underline the Blue (Augus+Gwyn tier or higher) (as well as 3 edited chapters of Game Theory, one with significant new content! - Gary+Efnisien tier or higher)

So, want another way to support my writing so I can keep doing it? // I have a Patreon account! // Come check out REAM! (Patreon mirror) // Buy a Ko-Fi!

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Lessons in Magic and Disaster by Charlie Jane Anders

In the vein of Alice Hoffman and Charlie Jane Anders's own All the Birds in the Sky comes a novel full of love, disaster, and magic.

A young witch teaches her mother how to do magic--with very unexpected results--in this relatable, resonant novel about family, identity, and the power of love.

Jamie is basically your average New England academic in-training--she has a strong queer relationship, an esoteric dissertation proposal, and inherited generational trauma. But she has one extraordinary secret: she's also a powerful witch.

Serena, Jamie's mother, has been hiding from the world in an old one-room schoolhouse for several years, grieving the death of her wife and the simultaneous explosion in her professional life. All she has left are memories.

Jamie’s busy digging into a three-hundred-year-old magical book, but she still finds time to teach Serena to cast spells and help her come out of her shell. But Jamie doesn't know the whole story of what happened to her mom years ago, and those secrets are leading Serena down a destructive path.

Now it's up to this grad student and literature nerd to understand the secrets behind this mysterious novel from 1749, unearth a long-buried scandal hinted therein, and learn the true nature of magic, before her mother ruins both of their lives.

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I've been going through my email inbox and working to delete/unsubscribe and just get everything better organized...

I have neglected it too long 💀