Heavy Hurt, Heavy Comfort

The Tumblr of Not-Poignant / Pia Foxhall: queer, disabled, auDHD original fiction (Fae Tales) and fanfic writer Writes queer heavy hurt & heavy comfort, angst, trauma, taboo/problematic, BDSM, with consistent happy/hopeful endings and growth through healing across multiple genres Fandom lover, multi-shipper and epic rambler. Won't say it in 10 words if I can say it in 100 TERFs and purity wank (antishipping) unwelcome. Inbox always open! (he/they)

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Hi! Welcome to Pia Foxhall’s Tumblr! (Also the Tumblr for my AO3 not_poignant / thespectaclesofthor names too) If you're here to ask about a reading order, check out this post!

I'm a queer writer in Western Australia who writes queer m/m fiction across genres like romance, fantasy, science fiction, omegaverse, contemporary, and literary. Almost all my fiction is FREE to read.

Feel free to scroll, look through the tags, and ask any questions you might have. This is where I'm most active online, and am happy to talk about writing, editing, upcoming stories, I also frequently share excerpts, talk characters, and more.

You can find my original and freely available Fae Tales series and Rise of the Guardians fanfic here at not_poignant, and all the rest of my fanfic over at thespectaclesofthor

I’ve published books as Pia Foxhall, and you can find the Perth Shifters series here:

Blackwood (Perth Shifters #1) - Buy links The Gentle Wolf (Perth Shifters #2) - Buy links

Please feel free to support my AO3 original serials here at Patreon or Ream (these are identical mirrors of each other, pick the one you like more!) or at my Ko-Fi account!

This (subscription) is my main writing income, and the Patreon and Ream account are what allow me to write freely available serials for everyone. If you want to see these stories continue to exist and get access to extras in thanks, please feel free to sign up!

If you sign up to the Gary+Efnisien tiers or higher, you also get access to the exclusive, complete m/m romance e-book/novel Tradewinds, which is a Fae Tales Verse romance story featuring an entirely new cast of merchant trader characters!

You can also join my mailing list here! (It’s not very active, I will – at most – bother you 2-4 times a year, but at the moment it’s much, much less).

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Underline the Silver - 02/? - Augus/Corbyn

Summary: Forced into retirement from being an alpha companion – someone who helps rehabilitate traumatised omegas – Augus languishes with a new heart condition, facing an uncertain future. While at Hillview Rehabilitation Facility, figuring out his next steps, he meets an independent older omega – Corbyn Prince – who visits his nephew on an irregular basis. To the surprise of them both, a relationship kindles between the two older men, who both are unfamiliar with what a normal relationship is supposed to look like.

Tags: Hurt/Comfort, "Old Man Yaoi", Chronic Illness and Disability, Tragic backstory, Angst with a Happy Ending, Historic Child Abuse, Omegaverse, Mind Control, No Mpreg Universe (Biologically Impossible), Dystopian Omegaverse, Nesting, Past Captivity, Trauma Recovery

Underline the Silver - Chapter 02 - Clouded Out Disguises - on AO3

In this chapter, Corbyn visits Augus again and has an intriguing offer for him. Corbyn tells Augus he knows about his history as an exploited child on a controversial reality television show, and Augus is shocked at how vulnerable he feels around Corbyn and craves to return the favour.

EARLY ACCESS: Underline the Silver - 05 - Cross My Arms to Shield My Heart: on Patreon and Ream:

Underline the Silver 05 on Patreon

Underline the Silver 05 on Ream

In this chapter, Augus discovers what Corbyn has been hiding and is shocked. He realises Corbyn has likely never found anyone who has respected his past and his privacy, and is determined to be better than the alphas he’s had previously.

– Thanks to all the Patreon and Ream supporters for making this (and my other writing) possible!

[meanbuddhist]

*turns my attention inwards* mmmmm. no *turns my attention back outwards* oh god

[darkandstormydolls]

I was talking to my mom about John Green today and I mentioned that “he’s still on tumblr” and she asked why that would be weird and I said that no one is on tumblr these days, “except him and I guess me”

So

I don’t know what all of you guys are doing here, because clearly this website is occupied only by me and John Green

[sizzlingsandwichperfection-blog]

just the two of us / we can make it if we try.

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Daily excerpt from chapter 5 of Underline the Silver:

‘How long do your heats normally last?’ Corbyn shrugged. ‘How long is a piece of string? Three, four days usually. It used to be longer. I’m given to understand that is likely because the heats weren’t being satisfied well. But I’m older now, I care less about how perfect an alpha is.’ Augus wondered if Corbyn’s response veiled that he cared less about transgressions against him if the alpha was broadly respectful. If he had grown resigned to being constantly disrespected. There would be time in the future, perhaps, to introduce Corbyn to all the things Augus really enjoyed doing. For now, he would start with simple connection and go from there. He turned his head and pressed his mouth to the top of Corbyn’s head. He placed his palm flat on Corbyn’s chest. His heart raced, but it wasn’t as bad as Augus expected. ‘I’m going to kiss you,’ Augus said, and Corbyn didn’t tease, didn’t fight back, didn’t interject with some snappy quip.

[not-poignant]

how long have you been writing for and what got you interested in writing? is there any general advice you have?

Hi anon,

I have been writing on and off for over 30 years, but in the way I do now, with serials, probably about 13-14 years.

As for advice, I sure do! I have a giant tag devoted to giving folks advice over that 13-14 year period, which is the Pia on Writing tag. There's also:

Pia on Worldbuilding

Pia on Characterisation

Pia on Dialogue

Pia on Erotica

Pia on BDSM

Pia on Publishing

Pia on Editing

Pia on Writer's Block

All of these have more than one ask response in them and some of them have well over 100 posts. There's a ton of advice I've written, pick what works, discard the rest :D

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In the middle of a re-read of all Under The Rainbow books. Question though. Is every time an alpha speaks with italics, even randomly within dialogue, is it always alpha persuasion? Or is it sometimes just for emphasis?

Sorry if this is too vague. It is 780k words after all

Hi anon!

Italics isn't always alpha persuasion with the alpha, that's why there's usually very specific wording around it and/or it will be an entire sentence (usually). If it's a single word in a sentence, it's less likely to be persuasion, and it's more likely to be emphasis etc.

But the easiest way to tell is how immediately the other character reacts to what's being said / the use of "alpha persuasion" or "persuasion" as a descriptor / the emotional intent of the scene (for example Efnisien uses a lot of persuasion with Henton, even though it's hit/miss) / often when someone like Efnisien is yelling "stop" etc.

When it's just general emphasis, it's going to look a lot more like a single word in a sentence! And most of the above will be missing.

[stitchthesewords]

its rude to reblog things from people you arent mutuals with fyi. :/

💀 my brother in christopher

[basuralindo]

it's true and you should say so louder

[dubiouslynamed]

I don't know any of you, hitting the reblog button.

[xiaq]

One of the best things about being a writer is thinking of something small you can add to your work that’s just. Devastating. Like you’re sitting there going. Oh. That would be diabolical. People would get really riled up about that. Exquisite. Let’s do it.

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Chapter Update - Underline the Red 28/?

Title: Underline the Red

Pairing: Caleb Crawford/Faber Castle/Kenneth Leone

Notes: An Underline the Rainbow story

Summary: Faber, an overworked beta with a major case of omega envy, meets alpha Caleb one evening in a bar in the little tourist town of Margaret River in Western Australia, after a day of stressing over a bushfire coming dangerously close to the facility where he works. On a whim, he decides to seduce and let himself be seduced by an alpha, only to realise he’s definitely bitten off more than he can chew.

Rating: Explicit, with tags including: sex marathon, overstimulation, dubious consent, under-negotiated consent, somnophilia, crying during sex, multiple orgasms and painful sex. Things pick up real quick in this one, lol. General tags include one night stands, and omega envy.

Underline the Red - Chapter 28 - Rotten Mood - on AO3!

In which Faber spends more time with Efnisien, opens up about Caleb, and Lucien is about to graduate. Faber’s depression worsens.

– Thanks to all the Patreon and Ream supporters for making this (and my other writing) possible!

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my brain, the absolute rude fucker that it is, just dropped a near fully-formed idea in my head for a new series (i do not need!!! another one!!!!!!!) with a new magical world and new magical system (I D ONOT NEED!!!!!! ANOTHER ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) and I had to write it down because I had character names and a title and everything and sometimes it's just

/clenches hands into fists/

universe stop

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Excerpt from chapter 28 of Underline the Red:

‘Have you slept with an alpha?’ Efnisien asked. ‘Goodness, that’s where we’re going?’ Faber said, and laughed sharply, smiling tightly. Not a chance. Not today. Not with Caleb about to graduate Lucien. Faber wasn’t interested in talking about his disastrous personal life today, where he rarely saw a random man in Perth to be tortured, and yearned for another random man he’d only slept with once, because he didn’t know how to have relationships or do anything functionally, except hack into Efnisien’s family’s business undertakings and try to stop Hillview from falling apart. ‘Are you mad at me?’ Efnisien said, and Faber frowned. ‘I beg your pardon?’ Where had that come from? ‘You are,’ Efnisien said, continuing to stare at him, like he was reading Faber’s mind. ‘Why?’

[disneyprincessdxminatrix]

being late getting into a piece of media or joining a ‘dead’ fandom is not that bad actually cause even if it seems like the party is over there will always be people still celebrating and the decoration is still up and there’s a piece of cake reserved especially for you in the fridge you just have to come and enjoy it.

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Underline the Blue (Nate/Janusz - Omegaverse)

Title: Underline the Blue

Pairing: Nate Prince/Janusz Bodanowicz

Notes: This is another story in the Underline the Black universe! Set prior to Underline the Black.

Summary: Nate, an omega, has been sent to Hillview by his alpha partner who doesn’t believe he’s good enough to claim or bond with, and wants him trained up at an omega rehabilitation facility to be a better partner. Nate is paired up with the alpha Janusz, who soon realises Nate has been micromanaged and ‘trained’ already to the point of having his soul shattered, and a journey of slow recovery and rehabilitation begins.

Underline the Blue - Chapter 35 - Breakthrough on AO3!

In which Nate has therapy with Bennett, where they try something new. Nate, feeling confronted, lashes out, and has an unexpected breakthrough that signifies both how far he’s come, and how far he has to go.

Underline the Blue (early access) - Chapter 37 - Bad Omega @ Patreon || Ream

In which Nate has a panic attack after questioning whether he’s been wrong all his life, or whether the people around him have treated him unfairly. Janusz spots the downward spiral and puts a stop to it, and Nate and Janusz have a conversation about the direction Nate’s life might be going in.

Early access chapters are released in the Augus & Gwyn tiers and higher on both Patreon and Ream. :D

– Thanks to all the Patreon and Ream supporters for making this (and my other writing) possible!

[lizardsfromspace]

Hi, I noticed your story has conflict in it, and I was wondering why you didn't just write people who are right doing everything correctly with a note saying "I enthusiastically co-sign everything in this story"? Must be some kind of mistake haha

[animentality]

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Daily excerpt from chapter 37 of Underline the Blue:

‘Are there things that made you feel a bit disconnected from your folks sometimes?’ Janusz asked. ‘Yeah,’ Nate said. ‘They just…knew who I was supposed to be. And I didn’t feel like I was who I was supposed to be. I thought they were right to think that way, though. And then today it was just- What if they weren’t? Even if they were doing their best?’ ‘That’s just it,’ Janusz said, shrugging, reaching out and stroking his other hand through Nate’s hair. ‘That’s the struggle. Sometimes we meet malicious dickheads, and feeling hurt by their actions makes more sense. Sometimes we just need our parents, or friends, to do something different for us, and we don’t know what it is, and they don’t know any different anyway, so hurt still happens.’ Nate stared at nothing for a while, thinking that over.