The cancer didn't kill me but this feeling of loneliness might
Fai_Ryy
almost home
occasionally subtle
Today's Document
Sweet Seals For You, Always
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Monterey Bay Aquarium
"I'm Dorothy Gale from Kansas"

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shark vs the universe

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Cosmic Funnies

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DEAR READER

Product Placement

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trying on a metaphor
wallacepolsom
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@totalblargness
The cancer didn't kill me but this feeling of loneliness might
it hurts to let go of what you’ve grown, of what you’ve known. when you’ve nurtured something—whether it’s a relationship, a dream, or even a belief—there’s a natural attachment to it. letting go often feels like a loss, stirring up fear and uncertainty about the future. it’s easy to get stuck in that fear, thinking that clinging to the past will keep you safe. but try not to resist this change. let go, even when it feels uncomfortable, because holding on too tightly only stifles what’s meant to bloom next 🍂🧸🍄🟫🌅🫧
The disconnect and fading of my smile, that was not on my 2025 bingo card
Don't be the person to set the world on fire when you mean to only burn bridges. True colors have been shown and I am disappointed in the person that once was part of my life. I'm saddened that she didn't even fully think things through and made decisions that put someone in physical danger. Then she has the audacity to call it "growth" and "repotting."
To that person, no you didn't grow, no you haven't healed. You have "transformed" into the thing you said you hated, and I'm disappointed in you. You set my safe place on fire and didn't even think about the consequences. Shame on you for letting your shadow take over. You need to get your mental health checked.
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lets get personal.
1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?
2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
4: What do you think about most?
5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?
6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
7: What’s your strangest talent?
8: Girls… (finish the sentence); Boys… (finish the sentence)
9: Ever had a poem or song written about you?
10: When is the last time you played the air guitar?
11: Do you have any strange phobias?
12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
13: What’s your religion?
14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
17: What was the last lie you told?
18: Do you believe in karma?
19: What does your URL mean?
20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
21: Who is your celebrity crush?
22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
23: How do you vent your anger?
24: Do you have a collection of anything?
25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become?
27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?
28: What’s your biggest “what if”?
29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.
31: Smell the air. What do you smell?
32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to?
33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?
34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
35: To you, what is the meaning of life?
36: Define Art.
37: Do you believe in luck?
38: What’s the weather like right now?
39: What time is it?
40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
41: What was the last book you read?
42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?
43: Do you have any nicknames?
44: What was the last film you saw?
45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?
46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?
47: Do you have any obsessions right now?
48: What’s your sexual orientation?
49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?
50: Do you believe in magic?
51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
52: What is your astrological sign?
53: Do you save money or spend it?
54: What’s the last thing you purchased?
55: Love or lust?
56: In a relationship?
57: How many relationships have you had?
58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
59: Where were you yesterday?
60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
61: Are you wearing socks right now?
62: What’s your favourite animal?
63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
64: Where is your best friend?
65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr.
66: What is your heritage?
67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?
68: What do you think is Satan’s last name?
69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?
70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?
73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.
74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?
76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?
77: How can I win your heart?
78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?
79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
80: What size shoes do you wear?
81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone?
82: What is your favourite word?
83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.
84: What is a saying you say a lot?
85: What’s the last song you listened to?
86: Basic question; what’s your favourite colour/colours?
87: What is your current desktop picture?
88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?
89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?
91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
96: Do you have any relatives in jail?
97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?
98: Ever been on a plane?
99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?
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Ask me things
Lmao called out
tiktok is really the worst place to be a system right now
people are fakeclaiming over things that are known did/osdd symptoms and traits, and theres so much fucking misinformation spread around.
so here's a thing
-systems can be of any size
-headspaces can be of Any Size
-alters can not get along, and even disagree politcally
-alters can be Absolutely ANYTHING and have any job within the headspace
-it doesnt always take years and years to get a diagnosis. sometimes it's a super long process, and sometimes it's really Not. it really just depends on your doctor.
-alters can sound Different from each other when fronting
-alters can be co-conscious, and switch rapidly, without distress or headaches, especially if it's just Two Alters.
-DID makes gives you Amnesia for the purpose of you not remembering your trauma, so you think you have never been through trauma
-Dissociation is very hard to pinpoint if you have dissociated all your life. it just seems normal, and so some people may think thay they don't at all.
-your brain can also convince you that the traumatizing stuff you went though, Wasn't Traumatic
-alters can have Relationships with each other. healthily.
-the estimated number of people with DID/OSDD is 1%, and that is just people with diagnoses.
-it is well known that alters can exhibit Different Physical traits. such as having different symptoms of the same sickness or other mental disorder, some alters having all the symptoms of one disorder while others don't, some having light allergies while others don't. sometimes they can need Different Eyeglass Prescriptions, and sometimes some can be deaf or HoH while others aren't. and yes this includes neurological disorders. there are other ways they can differentiate, but these are the most notable ways. trauma does Physically Change your brain, and alters use different neural pathways within the brain.
TLDR: Get your information from actual medical professionals, papers, books, and studies, instead of the internet. And for the love of fuck, you Can Not diagnose or undiagnose someone based on what they tell you ON THE INTERNET. Not only are you not a doctor, you are only viewing a very small window of how that person actually is. All you're doing is enforcing your own identity through Bullying and Gatekeeping someone else.
Okay but like why is this me
Hey, it's been a while since actually posting personal stuff here and I'd just like to update you all. I'm in a much place than I was a couple years ago. I let go of an extremely toxic ex and am now in a polyamorous relationship with 2 wonderful humans whom I truly love. I have my own apartment with a decent job. I am an eclectic choas witch with a focus in protection and sigils. I have a support system. (My family doesn't know because it's not time for them to know just yet.) I really enjoy my life and time. This were hard at first but with counseling and the right medication and diagnosis, I've never felt better. Life does get better my dudes, so please hang on. You got this! My dms are ALWAYS open for any questions, comments, concerns, and no judgment. You life your life and you're doing a great job! I love you all!
Doing some manifestation tonight
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"You are no longer licensed to use the software," Adobe told them.
Friendly reminder that GIMP does pretty much everything Photoshop does, and it’s 100% free. Fuck DRM and the license culture, we have plenty of open source options available to us as a consumer.
Lightworks is a freeware video editor on par with Premiere
Blender is an excellent freeware 3D renderer,possibly better than After Effects
Lightzone to replace Lightroom
Inkscape to replace Illustratr
Audacity to replace Audition (I also received a free version of Pro Tools with my Scarlett Solo audio interface)
If Adobe is going to be greedy shitheads, then fuck ‘em. Don’t use their stuff. Freeware can be just as good, if not better, than Adobe CC.
reblog to save a digital arts major
Reblog to save an artist.
oh jEEZ
For music:
Audacity as mentioned above (for sound editing and recording, pretty sure it can do more stuff)
Voloco: iOS - android (mostly for sound recording, effects and key correction on phones and can work with external microphones from my experience, and you can use an android emulator if you want to install it on PC)
Bandlab (for sound editing, composing and recording and is the app I use the most for my musical projects)
Bonus: I use Canva for my music video lyric project stuffs
Linktree. Make your link do more.
Soooo I did a thing. I also made a spicy page sooo check that out
Reblog this if you think DiD systems are valid.
Gonna show this shit to my dad and gonna punch him in the face with how many agree with us.
We are valid!!!
Things I wish people understood about systems
- If one alter knows about a trauma and another alter doesn’t, do not tell them about the trauma. Ever. There’s a reason they don’t remember.
- If you’re close with an alter and they suddenly stop fronting for a while, understand that it’s likely not your fault. Even if they want to front, sometimes they just can’t.
- If you hurt a little in any way at all, expect a protector to come and promptly get angry. They can’t help it, it’s their job.
- LITTLES ARE CHILDREN
- If you wouldn’t do/say something to an actual child don’t do it to a little
- Understand that not all alters will have the same feelings for you
- alters are people not just personalities
My alters aren’t living rent free in my head.
Every part of this system paid their dues by surviving our childhood.