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@trainingfortheapocalypse
Another Year, Another Attempt
It’s 2017 and here I am still trying to be more active and to be dedicated to it. I say the same thing every year. That this year will be different. All I can do is try. I started an online support group for a few friends and I. Maybe that will help.
I’m tired of seeing myself fail when it comes to this..
Definitely time for a change.
Water Water Water
So I had to restart my water app (Plant Nanny) because I fail at life and let my plant die. Now that I understand the app a little better I can keep track a little better.
I have also updated my birth control. I’ve switched from the pill to an IUD. I’m hoping that will help with weight loss, my depression, and just being active. When my depression is at its peak I have no drive to be active.
heres to hoping.
Mini Trip = No Gym
Occasionally I go out of town to see family in West Virginia. It’s nice but it’s exhausting in a different kind of way. It’s a 2.5 hour drive there after being at work all day. I only really get one day of seeing friends, family, and doing things I need to do. It doesn’t leave much time for gym. Monday I start strong again. i think I might gift myself with something once I break 150. I haven’t been under 150 in a long time.
Don’t get me wrong I don’t really care about the number. If I weighted 150 lbs of pure muscle that would be one thing. But right now it’s 150 of flab and that has to change. I found old photos of myself last night from high school. I see how tiny I was and I miss it. I miss how active and comfortable I felt.
I’ve always suffered from ED but I felt more comfortable with myself then than I do now.
Struggles
So I haven’t been as on top on my working out thing. I’ve wanted to be but I’ve had errands to run, dogs that needed to potty, app issues. Excuses I know but since I’m going out of town this weekend it’s more okay. I’ll be busy. Plus mom is making lasagna this weekend.. yasssss.
A Soldier and a Marine just testing out their camo.
lololololol
I’m reblogging this again cause it’s that awesome.
I hadn’t seen the Navy one
That’s the idea
And now the navy is changing their camo color
Why is Food so Expensive
So I’ve been trying to do meal planning, it’s a part of my bullet journal even. For the most part I have been following it. I did mess up for today but that’s because I was half asleep when I left for work this morning. So that’s okay.
I went to start planning the rest of the month and thought, “hey maybe I should try out some new recipes!” 100 tabs of pintrest later, a word document of recipes, and some sheets of paper with plans and ideas. Then I realized that I lived alone so I tried to figure out how many actual meals I would need to make a week, I try to make enough of each meal to have enough left overs for lunch or dinner during the week. I figured out that it would probably take three, maybe four meals in order to have enough food. From there I tried to narrow down my choices of foods. Once I selected some recipes I decided to get an idea of the amount of money I would be spending. I have a goal of at most 200.00 a month spent on groceries (food and anything else needed.) So I started throwing the main ingredients, plus some other things I was needing, in an online shopping cart with my local grocery store. For just the main ingredients...meats. fresh produce, and a few other options. It was over $50.00
While yes $50-60 a week would be well within my budget I really don’t want to spend that much if I can help it. There is no reason I should be spending $200.00 a month on myself.
So I’m going to go home and look at what I have in the pantry, and start the process over with meal prepping and meal planning.
What I’m thinking about doing is maybe try a new recipe once a month or something. That will help with expenses.
Another reason I’m doing this is that I’m tired of wasting food. It’s a waste of money and a waste of our resources. Gotta unlearn some bad habits.
Gym Fail
So I had every intention of going to the gym today. I was dressed. I had my water bottle. I had my headphones. My music. My sweat towel. I pull out my phone because Planet Fitness has an app that has your gym pass on it. So that way you don’t have to carry around the actual keychain. I like it. It usually works.
Today it didn’t. Knowing that I wouldn’t be able to get in the gym without it I just continued on with my errands. Only it threw me off, by a lot. I didn’t get to drink the full amount of water I needed to drink. I didn’t follow my meal plan, which I think I’m going to change up anyway. Instead of saying which leftover I’m eating I’ll just put left overs and then allow myself to pick from the left overs. So that way I’m structured but not for every waking minute.
I later found out that the PF app was having technical issues which have now been fixed.
Tomorrow I will be running late with my cardio I agreed to get beers with my boss and then I have to pick up dog food for the dogs. I think they’re about to murder me with this being fed once a day nonsense.
Tuesday is Cardio Day
Yesterday was cardio day so instead of going to Planet Fitness I went home, let the dogs potty, and then went to the gym in my apartment complex. It was nice and my first time using the complex gym. I got on the elliptical and it ironically overlooks my apartment.
Cardio day is set for 45 minutes of cardio. I got to 30 on the elliptical before I had to stop due to pain in my right leg. So I did the last 15 minutes on the treadmill.
They say the first week starting back up is the worse right?
So I struggle with my water intake. I always have. So I’m trying to be better about it. So at work I took a water bottle and wrote how many cups a day I need minimum. I keep a tumblr with a straw and lid, I find drinking with a straw helps me drink more water. I also use Plant Nanny. It’s a cute little app that lets you water your plants every time you drink. a glass a water. You can select the size of your cup and it keeps track of how many more glasses you need. At the time of this screen shot I was at 5 glasses remaining. It’s cute and fun and I hope it encourages me to drink more.
The only problem I struggle with is that when my ED was at its height I would drink lots of icy cold water to trick myself into feeling full. So I’m trying to keep ontop of snack time and eating time.
I’ve been showing down on these laughing cow Asiago cheese which is delicious. Since I try to work out everyday and I do manual labor at work some days I opted to go with crackers because tasty and because I’ll need the calories.
Gym Time
I’m exhausted but I need to keep updating this, to keep on top of it, to keep me responsible.
I went to the gym today for the first time in a while. The training program I have laid out is just for upper and lower body, alternating every other day. So Monday is lower, tuesday is rest/cardio, wednesday is upper, thursday is rest/cardio etc...
I was able to hit everything on my routine except for the ab cruncher. Guy was on it so I stood for a few minutes since it was cleaning it off. When he hopped on I decided to do the leg press first. Did my three sets of ten and came back. This dude was still on the machine. So I stood a few more minutes thinking he must be close to being done. Nope. He’d do a few reps, stop, change the weights (what?!) start up again. Rinse and repeat, over and over. Since it was the last thing on my list I opted to forgo it for today and go home. I was tired and feeling nauseous.
I had forgotten that I need to keep a snack when I first start working out again. No snack, and I’m about to hurl on everyone. Get all the way home before I realize I had jerky in a work bag. Inhaled that piece and laid down before I started to make dinner.
With gym time starting up again, I’m again trying to use items I have in my pantry already. I had a left over minute rice (really it was 12 minutes) that was steak fajita flavored. And luck would have it I had a frozen steak from when Kroger was having a fairly good buy one, get one deal on steaks. And I had some bell peppers that needed to be chopped up and eaten.
Since I hadn’t eaten the full giant helping of spaghetti for lunch, I didn’t worry about leftovers.
I’m proud of myself that I didn’t eat the whole steak, rice, and peppers. So I do have left overs for tomorrow’s dinner...or maybe I’ll save it work Wednesday so I don’t have to cook. Saving money and trimming down the waist. The adult dream I guess lol.
Dinner! Steak and Bell peppers with steak fajita rice :)
Apocalypse Disappearance
So as you’ve noticed I’ve disappeared off the face of the planet, as one does in the apocalypse. My last post I was chatting about my mental health and how I was struggling. I’m still struggling honestly. I felt, and still feel honestly, overwhelmed with everything I’m trying to get accomplished. I have several social media plans on my plate. I have many ideas running through my head. And also I have, diagnosed, depression. I crawl into myself when I start stressing out over stuff, and it’s easy to stress. Especially when I feel like I don’t have control over a situation.
However with the start of a new month, there is the start of a new opportunity. Recently I started bullet journaling (if you follow my personal you’ll see me chat about it a little bit.) and I find it very helpful. I use mine as kind of a huge list of stuff in one place that looks neat and pretty and documents certain events. I’m also using it to document my working out, which I’m starting up today as well.
I got on the scale last night before bed and it put me at 161. So I’ve dropped weight since my last weigh in but ya know I haven’t been doing anything. I’m also going to be keeping better track of my groceries and meal planning. Which is also in my bullet journal, being documented. I feel like if I don’t keep track I won’t accomplish my goals because I allow myself to get distracted. Anyone else feel this way? Anyone else feel like they struggle with their fitness journey because of their mental health?
So anyway here’s to a new month and a new opportunity to achieve my goals.
While scrolling on my personal tumblr I came across this gif. Recently I have been talking about how my mental health hasn’t been the greatest in my opinion. I have a lot of demons. I have a lot of anger. I have a lot of hurts. There are a lot of people who have hurt me in the past that I can’t....I can’t let go of. There’s one that when I even see their name...let’s just say if I was a cat I would have all my fur on end.
I try to let go. I try to be the better person but sometimes...sometimes I want to be petty. I want to see these people who have hurt me so badly to get their just desserts. To see their Karma come to them.
I’m still trying to process and get to where I need to be mentally. Sometimes I think that is a real issue with my getting healthy goals. I want to be healthy and for that I think I need to do multiple kinds of spring cleaning.
Mentally.
Emotionally.
Physically.
I struggle with it, keeping on top of my physical health. I feel like I’ve been struggling more and more lately. Maybe it’s my anxiety. Maybe it’s my depression. Maybe everything is building until I pop. Maybe it’s just nerves since the boyfriend will soon be in town. Things have been a tiny bit rough lately. Stress, Anxiety. Long distance. Busy schedules. Personal issues. Everything builds. Hopefully this relaxes soon.
Broke af?
But still interested in feeding yourself? What if I told you that there’s a woman with a blog who had to feed both herself and her young son…on 10 British pounds ($15/14 Euro) per week?
Let me tell you a thing.
This woman saved my life last year. Actually saved my life. I had a piggy bank full of change and that’s it. Many people in my fandom might remember that dark time as when I had to hock my writing skills in exchange for donations. I cried a lot then.
This is real talk, people: I marked down exactly what I needed to buy, totaled it, counted out that exact change, and then went to three different stores to buy what I needed so I didn’t have to dump a load of change on just one person. I was already embarrassed, but to feel people staring? Utter shame suffused me. The reasons behind that are another post all together.
AgirlcalledJack.com is run by a British woman who was on benefits for years. Things got desperate. She had to find a way to feed herself and her son using just the basics that could be found at the supermarket. But the recipes she came up with are amazing.
You have to consider the differing costs of things between countries, but if you just have three ingredients in your cupboard, this woman will tell you what to do with it. Check what you already have. Chances are you have the basics of a filling meal already.
Here’s her list of kitchen basics.
Bake your own bread. It’s easier than you think. Here’s a list of many recipes, each using some variation of just plain flour, yeast, some oil, maybe water or lemon juice. And kneading bread is therapeutic.
Make your own pasta–gluten free.
She gets it. She really does. This is the article that started it all. It’s called “Hunger Hurts”.
She has vegan recipes.
A carrot, a can of kidney beans, and some cumin will get you a really filling soup…or throw in some flour for binding and you’ve got yourself a burger.
Don’t have an oven or the stove isn’t available? She covers that in her Microwave Cooking section.
She has a book, but many recipes can be found on her blog for free. She prices her recipes down to the cent, and every year she participates in a project called “Living Below the Line” where she has to live on 1 BP per day of food for five days.
Things improved for me a little, but her website is my go to. I learned how to bake bread (using my crockpot, but that was my own twist), and I have a little cart full of things that saved me back then, just in case I need them again. She gives you the tools to feed yourself, for very little money, and that’s a fabulous feeling.
Tip: Whenever you have a little extra money, buy a 10 dollar/pound/euro giftcard from your discount grocer. Stash it. That’s your super emergency money. Make sure they don’t charge by the month for lack of use, though.
I don’t care if it sounds like an advertisement–you won’t be buying anything from the site. What I DO care about is your mental, emotional, and physical health–and dammit, food’s right in the center of that.
If you don’t need this now, pass it on to someone who does. Pass it on anyway, because do you REALLY know which of the people in your life is in need? Which follower might be staring at their own piggy bank? Trust me: someone out there needs to see this.
Reblogging for all the impoverished students. Jack is the breadline queen. And if you don’t need this - donate to your nearest food bank, stat.
Reblogging for students, working folks, and everyone who’s ever had to choose between essentials at the store because you can only afford milk OR bread, not both.
