I'm sick of people making Jeff out to be a narcissistic, self-absorbed bastard who hates everyone and everything, and then calling it "realism" and "originality."(And I'm not even mentioning the fact that they're turning him into something that even remotely resembles a human being; or rather, they're extracting from him all the factors that would allow him to live without discomfort.)
1. His eyelids. It's so funny even in the original story, because even if he spit in his eyes to wet them, he'd only be delaying the inevitableâblindness. People who demand realism in art, but in fact do not take such obvious things into account, are funny, honestly.(But his appearance is a small part of what worries me.)
2. And now regarding his "narcissism" and "self-love", which, it seems, was largely attached to the character by the fandom. If you try to take apart a terribly written story and put everything on the shelves, the fandom is unlikely to accept attempts to fill in the holes in the story with parents who did not keep an eye on their own child and what is happening in his life(bullying and shit), pre-existing mental problems that began to flourish more brightly due to bullying.
But what am I getting at?
Before I begin, I want to say that I am not presenting anything below as canon, or making any diagnoses about the character: all I want is to dispel the typical perception of him, and turn a blind eye to his potential problems with mental health.
Killing someone, especially one's parents, is very unlikely to be a personal desire. If we analyze his case, it could be a sign of emotional dysregulation and impulsiveness as a personality trait. When talking about impulsivity, we can lean towards bipolar spectrums, more specifically mania and hypomania(When his mood suddenly rises, he experiences impulsive outbursts, spontaneous and hardly controllable ideas.) But again, I don't give him any diagnosis.
Anger outbursts and dissociation are linked, they may be the result of the same mechanism. Let's take for example the moment when he fought with his offenders: a fight based on Jeff's counterattack - an outburst of anger, and then dissociation. Dissociation is a disconnection of the human psyche from unbearable emotions (anger), as a result of which a person may experience memory lapses, dulled emotions, and a feeling that "I am not myself."(It can also be caused by other strong emotional outbursts.)
Unstable self-esteem/distorted self-perception. In his story, the hospital episode is a turning point, where his self-esteem takes a turn. Based on the supposed "original" version of the story, he liked his new appearance â white skin, black hair (in some versions he lost the tip, or even the whole nose, but I won't rely on any of them completely, because there are many things that are illogical even in the supposed original,) Overall, he liked his new appearance. We know little about his self-esteem regarding his "old" self, so we'll leave that aside and just leave it as unstable self-esteem. But if there seems to be no compelling evidence to support this, it's likely a misconception. Bullying can lead to self-hatred and self-loathing, For others, it's the opposite: radical changes in appearance can be a protest or a way to express pain, emotions, or trauma.(From this point on, the focus goes to the moment where he carved a smile into himself, but not something he could control.) It can also be a consequence of the desire to recreate/destroy oneself.
Let's chat about his parents, shall we? The story is really confusing, because I donât remember a single moment when his parents somehow intervened to stop the bullying, discrimination, or even banal attempts to find out what was going on in their son's life. This can be seen as the child being left without parental protection from aggression from offenders, which may be a consequence of complex trauma or the formation of an unstable personality. Consider the lack of parental protection. Jeffrey presumably adapted to living in a constant state of threat, with bullies on the street and no parental protection at home(â Hypervigilance, trust issues, temper tantrums, dissociation.) Having analyzed the case of an unstable personality, emotions play a role in the personality here, which, as we already understood, are unstable in the boy, and it is difficult to take control of them.
Believe me, there is much more that I can say about him, but I have already said too much, so it is better to move on to the conclusions.
Psychological consequences may include sudden emotional collapses;
Strong guilt or, on the contrary, complete detachment;
Problems with trust, attempts to trust are often given;
Poor self-image after episodes in which he may have done something destructive to someone/something;
Recurrent self-destructive desires;
The desire to recreate a new self, or vice versa - to destroy;
Identity crises and splits.
Insulation.
Please do not take the text seriously and do not take similar traits as a diagnosis for yourself.
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