Last night I went to volleyball, it was pretty fun. Shelby, Trevor, Mikey, and Jordan were all there and we were all on the same team so we pretty much kicked butt. Nothing super special happened, Mikey probably won’t be back until Christmas and that was sad, he hugged me which was a first but I love Mikey, he’s a sweetie pie. When he was leaving he said” Bye, team.” which was cute. Right now I’m trying to remember anytime I made Trevor laugh because that is always my goal. I remember on Christmas break, we were all playing football at the park across from Destiny’s house and we were playing Schpoople, I think. It was Tommy, Troy, Tristan, Trevor, and Carter and maybe Luke I don’t remember and Tommy said something like “And what are we spelling?” after everyone made it pretty clear it was a three-letter word that started with A and I said “Take a guess, Tommy.” in a dead pan voice and Trevor just cracks up. I love when I can get him to laugh, it doesn’t happen often but when it does, it was a good one. We are so alike, honestly, it’s scary. I would never want a relationship with him because he annoys the heck out of me and we don’t have the same goals in life but I think we’ll always be pretty close friends. We have like the exact same sense of humor and we just get each other whenever the other one says something that is funny or just an observation about something. I feel like I get him better than Shelby but maybe that’s just how he acts in front of people. I’m not too sure how the private Trevor acts, I think I’ve caught glimpses of it, whenever he’s drunk or around his closest friends, he’s a little looser, like I am. I like him like that, relaxed, funnier than normal. It’s nice, he’s so serious when he plays volleyball that his goofy side always takes a while to show up. I sometimes caught him when we had those talks in his car, I will forever wonder about the meaning of those. I will forever wonder if we liked each other at the same time but who knows honestly. It doesn't really matter to me anymore, not like it matters with Logan. But I always want to stay friends with him, which I think is definitely a possibility. He means a lot to me even if I don’t mean as much to him. It’s understandable. He has a girlfriend and we only see each other a couple of weeks at a time. But I’ll always be connected to him. I’ll always remember him as the shy kid in middle school who was so embarrassed to change in gym class that he wore his gym clothes under his normal clothes and as the boy who told somebody’s neon yellow pants to shut up.
