too much heart was always the problem

bea 🐝 spn sideblog for art and fic and crying. 🔞 follows as shadefalls. also on AO3. writing tag is #vaudwrites

[qqchurch]

[vaudelin]

at what point of pet ownership does it become a hoarding situation? asking for a friend (serious)

[ankhegs-in-my-salad]

I can't believe my brother spent all this time trying to get me to watch Letterkenny but failed to mention that the only reasonable person in the whole town is Super Autistic Man and also Evil Gerard Way is there.

[femmedummy]

the tragedy of distance is simple I want to sit on the couch with you and do nothing sometimes

[fruitypieq]

Quick what are you doing RIGHT now (besides scrolling Tumblr)

[kisskisscantfallinlove]

"people are allowed to be grossed out"

ok. keep it to yourself. it's the polite thing to do. if i'm not enjoying food someone made, that i get to eat for free, i'm not gonna shit all over their cooking and personal tastes

[moonflower-rose]

My mother used to make a gorgeous chocolate mousse from scratch, and it was something she brought to every family event, and made for events we had at our house. She got the recipe in like 1989 and so it was upwards of six mousses per year and the whole fam looked forward to them.

Then one year at Easter something went wrong and the chocolate separated and the mousse was weird looking and a bit odd tasting (not inedible, just odd) and my cousin (who was only about 12 to be fair) ate his bowl while loudly proclaiming MY GOD THIS IS NOT GOOD AUNTIE D and WHAT DID YOU DO and THIS IS HORRIBLE and on the one hand we all laughed (inc mum) because it was so unfiltered and rude and he kept eating it even as he proclaimed it an abomination, and 20ish years later we still have a laugh about it.

But mum never made mousse for a family event again and didn’t even want to do it just for us kids or dad. She was really embarrassed and she lost her confidence.

My cousin didn’t need to say it. Mum knew it hadn’t turned out right. She brought it anyway because we’d told her she should and she didn’t want to disappoint anyone because this was so looked forward to by everyone. Maybe he was only 12 and didn’t know how to have any tact.

PLEASE CONSIDER THIS before you provide your ‘feedback’ on fanworks. You could be the reason some poor person never makes anything again, or at least never shares it with the community. Don’t whatabout the people who invite concrit me - just fucking have a think before you comment, okay?

Also fuck you Danny, I could’ve been eating mousse for 25 years if it weren’t for you!

[inthetags]

Reblog and put in the tags the last full album you listened to

[vaudelin]

living in a tiny town is so funny sometimes. monday i’m stopping by the town office to ask about a house for sale on the main street (formerly owned by an eccentric alcoholic who drowned in a lake), and from that interaction involving precisely one (1) non-me person, word spreads that i’m looking to buy property, and one week later someone’s offering to sell me the former bank for 250k

[cottaegecore]

when you start reading again and it's like oh. oh . the sun actually does still shine.

[seven-winged-liar]

everyone start posting your favorite vegetable unless its peas

[vaudelin]

had a couple kids shoplifting in my booth at a trade show this past week, one kid especially egregious - every third thing she touched went into her pockets. so I picked up one of the bigger things she had put back, approached her and asked if she liked it. she did, so I offered to give it to her in exchange for everything she’d put in her pockets. at first she denied having anything, but when I could name each of the items one after the other, she sheepishly agreed to the exchange.

She gave me the things she took, and I gave her the item I’d offered. she apologized and I accepted, and then we chatted for another ten minutes or so about different animals she liked and words she was was learning in school, how her older sister liked writing and was the one looking after her and her brothers that night at the show. that they might get a ferret if their mom agrees to it, and that they call the birds by their window ‘cheeseburgers’ on account of the sound their birdsong makes. all very sweet kids, even when, an hour earlier, her brothers stole half a dozen further items after I’d given them some freebies too.

I don’t know the point of this. just that it’s hard to know what’s the right things to do, when my livelihood is thrown into the mix. security said I should contact them next time i see it happening. but my gut doesn’t want to. take this summer, for example, at a show in the rougher end of the city. there was a woman who came to my booth while clearly under the influence. and she hung around by herself for about twenty minutes, picking up item after item from my tables, whispering to each knickknack and clutching them in heaping armfuls to her chest. she wasn’t okay, but she wasn’t hurting anybody, and none of us at the event were equipped to help her in any way that might matter. but then security caught sight and starting coming over. I tried to intervene and say it was okay, she was harmless. but when they confronted her anyway, she panicked and ran before they could take back all my items, and she lost security down the block. and that could’ve been the end of the story, but! she came back five or so minutes later and gave back everything she’d unintentionally taken with her, going to security herself and passing them over, all to make sure I got back these little knickknack-nothings I sell for five bucks apiece

i dunno. just i don’t believe that most people are out there meaning to harm you. they are just in their own situations, and it doesn’t hurt anyone to show a little grace. and it’s hard to find space for grace whenever greater systems get involved

[kholexcx]

Bitch “I’m” On 12 Ego Deaths

[pansyfemme]

wanting is deeply humiliating so ive decided that i dont need anything ever again

[eternalgaylord]

collecting tweets

[snazzycicada]

[valtsv]

big fan of characters with abandonment + attachment issues so profound that they leave claw marks in everything they touch but would sooner gnaw off their own leg than admit they just want someone to stay for once. in a totally normal well adjusted and not at all projecting way of course.

[taviacoolcat]

ilyaaaa ☺️<3 ... concussion >:[ and a fractured collarbone :/ out for the playoffs but 🤗 could have been worse 😌☝️ ... i know 🙄 part of the game 🙄 we all get our bell 🔔 rung eventually right? 😊 ... heyy:) heyyyyyyyy:))) ... yes<3 bet-ter🥰🥰 ... i'm sorry i didn't text you last night 😔 ... i was excited about last night ☝️ i'm mostly mad 😠 at marleau for fucking that up 🙄😏 ... you know i had a whole plan to ask you something❗️... i was gonna ask you ☝️❗️ Will You cometomycottage this summer? 🥰🏡 ❌️don't❌️ go to russia🇷🇺 come to my houseee 😤💞 we'll have so much fun :D it's so private :D no one will knoww :D ... mmmwe could have a week💕 or even two✌️💕 we'd be completely alone 👯‍♂️💞 ~✨️together✨️~ ... oh no 🙄😒 ... ok bye bye 👋☺️ ... 🫡see you next season🫡 ... thank u😊<3 i appreciate it😤<3 ... hellooo😁