The Field In Which I Grow My Fucks Is Barren

Amethyst. Alabama. 36 years old. She/They // Pansexual Demiromantic // Married. Writer, artsy fucker, animal lover. Currently stuck on a Star Wars hyperfixation.

[fori-the-fool]

Ten People You'd Like to Know Better

Thanks to @unconsciousxreality, @tobyig, and @greatcrestednewt for tagging me :D

Last song(s): Her - Jvke ft. Annika Wells / Neon Odyssey - The Midnight & Avantris / Never Love an Anchor - Crane Wives Currently watching: Tornado/Storm Event studies on Youtube and various Star Wars things (Animated, Live Action, just whatever tbh) Current obsession: At this EXACT moment? That'd be Fi and Jesse lol But also Kes and the Batch/the long fic I'm writing of them, as well as the DnD AU of them. Currently reading: Fics. All the fics. Been on a ObiMaul kick tbh Currently working on: The Kes/Batch long fic (Working title is Blur of Consequences), a one shot of when Kes and Echo met before the events of Blur, and I'm currently in the planning stages for Fi/Jesse fic (ᵕ ó ᴗ ò) Last Google search: How to un-fold our electric lawnmower lol

And some no pressure tags :D

@tiwaenriel @cyarex @jetii @onedeadlurker @onemass @vimse @ct7567329 @daidrm @isaut @vaderxvibes

[tiwaenriel]

hi, hi, tysm for tagging me!!! ^^

Last song: “Dark Angel” by Lalleshwari (Katie Jane Garside)

Currently (Re)Watching: Pokémon and ATLA!

Current obsession: still clone wars, but specifically my ocs. They haunt my thoughts 24/7 lmfao.

Currently Reading: “Alas, Babylon” by Pat Frank

Currently working on: getting better at art (digital and traditional), and writing a fic about Mustang and Vermillion!

Last Google search: pink haired girl from Ponyo (it was Gran Mamare I was looking for; I wanted to inspire a character after her).

Aaaaand tagging (no pressure):

@tobyig @sequestered-jester @t4ckie-j4ckie @suborbitalrailgun @jesuswarriordaughter @drowninginmytbr @docilechagrin @sleepyyecho @monoetr @elealovesstarwars @riaheatsdrywall

[t4ckie-j4ckie]

:> :3 :} thanks for the tag :}

Last song: Not by Big Theif Currently watching: Rainworld lore videos on YT, specifically on the Watcher DLC Current obsession: Star wars,,, specifically Mandalorian culture + my ocs Currently Reading: Started the Republic Commando novels, halfway through Triple Zero Currently working on: Tattoo 'map'/showcase for my oc Roscoe Arazu, as well as worldbuilding for mandalorian culture again Last google search: "raptor tail dinosaur" - I was doing some creature design and needed a good ref aha

Tagging (no pressure !!): @ladyknight33 @whoops-junk-drawer @dick-djarin

[whoops-junk-drawer]

Last songs: I Want To Know What Love Is - Foreigner, Everybody Wants To Rule The World - Tears For Fears, Time - Pink Floyd

Currently Watching: nothing in particular. Mostly tornado videos on the ol ‘tube

Current Obsession: STAR WAR!!!! TAR WARS!!!! CLONES!!!

Currently Reading: my own writing! I’ve passed the “writing spree” stage and entered the “reread your own fics and then kick yourself for not finishing them” stage.

Currently Working On: Various outfit/set design pieces for my ocs! I’ve finally pushed myself to flesh out the places these people are visiting/living. I’ve had them for almost three years and I’ve only just gotten around to it. But hey! I’ve gotten round to it! Yay!

Last Google Search: Ehlers Danlos Syndrome (I may have it, I was googling symptoms, lmao). And the one before that was “normal blood pressure by age group”. So I guess I’m more of a hypochondriac than I thought i was?

Tagging (first time, kinda nervous 👉👈)

@t9909-gk @qalanthe @mistycatt (can I tag people who aren’t my mutuals?? What is etiquette) @eobe (oh no I don’t have ten. Send me to the plinko or something)

[eobe]

Ou, hi @whoops-junk-drawer 🤩 Thank you for tagging!

Let's see 🤔

Last songs: Brave New World / Kalandra 🌅

Currently Watching: Frieren – Beyond Journey's End ❄️

Current Obsession: Active life architecture and selfhacking 🌱🧬

Currently Reading: fellow artist's Star Wars writing & art about our OCs to make a neat art & writing reaction ✨

Currently Working On: ... *drowns pathetically in wip* 🫠

Last Google Search: Hollerkiacherl! (Bavarian recipe for elder blossom dipped in dough and fried dank farrik it's so delicious asrfxnejxljskdfjjlflllmmm 🤤)

10 People I'd like to know better – no pressure of course 🫶:

@eclec-tech @wings-and-beskargam @fuzzyenthusiastnelket01 @feralferrule @talesfrommedinastation @raevulsix @rooksunday @cyber54prime @erisvalgen @foxika

[cyber54prime]

Thank you @eobe for tagging me. I don't really participate normally but I decided I will :)

Last song : moonlight rendez-vous by Beast in Black 😃

Currently watching : Dorohedoro s2 / Star wars rebels.

Current obsession: good question, I don't know. Halo, clone wars, resident evil, Dorohedoro.

Currently reading: Halo: Broken Circle

Currently working on: drawing art I had in mind, participating to summer of clone 2026 and working on my Kix cosplay.

Last Google search: how it is call when you are colorblind but with shade?

I hope I answer it well haha.

Tagging 8 people I'll like to know more:

No pressure :)

@featherquilt1988 @petiolata @laemperatrizmariana @mariahmaru @leenathegreengirl @whyamismall @returnofthepineapple @clonethirstingisreal

[whyamismall]

Thanks for the tag @cyber54prime! Last Song: I don't know if it counts, but i'm listening to freezeezy peaks from the n64 game, Banjo Kazooie as I type this! Currently watching: I'm rewatching Maul: Shadow Lord with my brother, who I finally got to start watching it hehehe Current Obssession: Star wars and Batman, my two hyperfixations since childhood lmao Currently reading: Uhrmmmm, book wise... nothing? (I think) But i'm making an effort to read through my backlog of fics, my current one is called The Collection by Ruposa on AO3. Currently working on: I don't have anything planned besides putting the finishing touches on a RM project. Maybe if I return from retirement, I might write one of the Kal/Walon ideas that linger in my brain 😍 Last Google Search: Mcdonalds menu and types of lavender and where they grow 😂 NPT tags: @ladylucksrogue @loulines @ahsokathegray @tealmist55 @ladysongmaster @julijuli77

[ladysongmaster]

Thanks for the tag @whyamismall 🥰

Last Song: I don't think I've listened to a song today 😬 That's so unlike me.

Currently Watching: The West Wing

Current Obsession: Star Wars

Currently Reading: Paladin of Souls by Lois McMaster Bujold (second book in the Curse of Chalion series)

Currently Working On: a Clone Wars/Lockwood and Co. crossover. It's more of a spiritual crossover, since the characters and setting are The Clone Wars with a Lockwood and Co. twist.

Last Google Search: uh . . . I think I Googled the definition of a word (writer problems).

NPT tags: @ghostofskywalker @ghosts-and-blue-sweaters @violet-tinted-world @kanerallels @winterinhimring @singswan-springswan @cats-inthe-cradle

[violet-tinted-world]

Thank you got the tag, @ladysongmaster 💜

Last Song: Dying to Love - Bad Omens

Currently Watching: Will Trent. We're about to start catching up on Marvel things soon, though.

Current Obsession: my always obsessions are TF141/CoD and Star Wars (clones specifically)

Currently Reading: Not much, sadly. Not a lot of focus for it lately.

Currently Working On: Surviving 🫠 and finding aw wfh job.

Last Google Search: hysteria. hubby and I were debating the meaning. I won. lmao

NPT: @prowlingthunder, @feralferrule, @dystopicjumpsuit, @bring-backup-99

[fellshish]

a lot of writing is sort of watching the film in your head like oh sorry can’t write the chapter yet i have to repeat hallucinate the dialogue first

[purr-in-ink]

A small moment of gentleness in the middle of everything. 🐈‍⬛🤍

[azaablue]

the best fanfiction you've ever read was written by a woman in her 40s before she made dinner for her kids. it was written by a teenager after school when they should've been studying for a history test. and a barista came up with the idea while they cleaned the espresso machine and busser fact-checked it on their break and the post-doc edited between writing grant proposals and the nurse apologized for typos in the notes after a long shift and behind every drabble and one-shot and multi-chapter fic there is a person with a wonderful and interesting and chaotic life and it is such a privilege that we get to be apart of it because they decided to do this thing we all share, for fun.

[sequestered-jester]

Tag yourself if you’re a BLOB #totalBLOB #BLOBINGitup

[dragongirlsweetie]

it's kind of insane how disasterous of an effect it can have on your psyche and development as an adult if people thought you were annoying when you were 8

[quasi-normalcy]

I've reached the point where cynicism is a major turn-off for me. You're not smarter than idealists, and you're not helping.

[quasi-normalcy]

Funny that the stereotypical cynic is an idealist who aged out of it. In my experience, the reverse is true. I was an extreme cynic as a teenager and then I noticed how profoundly limiting it was, and also that "cynics are cool and smart" was a message that was being constantly reinforced by corporate media for some reason.

[quasi-normalcy]

#yes! cynicism reads as very juvenile to me#and yes prev often stemming from teen pain

Yeah, like I see black-pilled people on here and my default reaction isn't "oh, these must be world-weary old warriors who've lost their faith in humanity", it's "these people are in their 20s and need a hobby"

[quasi-normalcy]

I also think that the present era has proven that authoritarian leaders don't actually want a population of wide-eyed idealists, they want a population of jaded assholes who are convinced that everyone is lying, any resistance is either a scam or doomed to failure, and nothing can ever get better.

[sizzlingsandwichperfection-blog]

I think bread is a super underrated invention. I am very grateful to the ancestors for bread. I bet it was a lot of work to figure it out and everything.

Everyone's always like, "The wheel! Masonry!" But what about fucking bread, you know? 15,000 years old and arguably better than ever.

[uwingdispatch]

Y'all know what time it is? Time for a new clone trooper round-up!

I've added a bunch of funky little guys and I'm always looking to add more! Who's your favorite clone? And remember you can use code TUMBLR15 for 15% off most accessories! Shop is here.

tap below for more!

Not pictured: Fives by himself.

Shop is here. Love y'all!

[should-be-sleeping]

You are 60% water and every lake, river, pond, swamp, creek, and ocean you encounter wants to reclaim it desperately. Be careful out there.

[should-be-sleeping]

[should-be-sleeping]

Good, I hope it haunts everyone about to enter a body of water so bad that they wear a life jacket. 🙌

[should-be-sleeping]

Every single person I knew (past tense) who has drowned was "a strong swimmer." Water in the wild does not care how good you are at swimming.

[should-be-sleeping]

I mean this with all due respect:

You are not going to pass a skillcheck against a rip current once it has you.

Waves will not bow to your physical prowess no matter how impressive.

Shock does not care that you used to be on your school swim team.

If you hit your head, being good at swimming isn't going to turn you face-up while you're unconscious.

You may be unable to return to shore. Rescue may be unable to find you quickly.

[joanthreatt]

Scheduling this for when weather starts warming up. Be careful swimming this summer

[adelineriley999]

simon accidently yelled at you

The apartment had gone unbearably quiet after he yelled.

Not the comfortable kind of silence either. Not the kind Simon liked after long missions where the world finally stopped demanding things from him.

This silence was wrong.

You stood by the stove with your back turned, shoulders tense, blinking rapidly like if you just tried hard enough the tears would disappear before he saw them.

Too late.

Simon stared at you like he’d just watched himself pull a trigger he couldn’t take back. His chest rose once. Heavy.

“...Fuck.”

The word came out under his breath, barely audible.

You wiped quickly at your face. “It’s okay.”, you whispered , hurt and embarrassment blooming in your chest.

It wasn’t okay.

And Simon knew it immediately because your voice did that tiny shaky thing it only did when you were trying very hard not to cry.

He felt sick.

The kind where the person you love looks hurt because of you.

Simon took one cautious step forward. Then another.

“Love.”

You shook your head without turning around.

That hurt more than the tears.

Usually when he came home, you gravitated toward him automatically. Hands on his chest, arms around his waist. Soft little smiles like he was something worth waiting for.

Now you were standing as far away from him as the kitchen allowed.

Because he yelled.

Because he came home carrying all his anger and dropped it right at your feet.

His jaw clenched hard enough to ache.

“Don’t do that,” he said quietly.

“Do what?”, you mumbled, trying to smoothen your voice.

“Stand there acting like you deserve that.”

You finally turned a little at that, eyes glossy. “Simon-”

“No.” He scrubbed a hand down his face harshly. “No, don’t excuse it.”

You went silent. He looked wrecked now. More wrecked than when he first walked in.

Rainwater still clung to his jacket. His shoulders sagged with exhaustion, but guilt sat on him even heavier.

“I came home to you,” he said, voice rough. “Warm flat, food on the stove, you waiting for me.” He laughed once bitterly at himself. “And first thing I do is bark at you like some miserable prick.”

Your lips parted slightly.

Simon looked away, jaw flexing.

“Spent two bloody weeks thinking about getting back to you.” His voice got quieter. “Then I walk through that door and make you cry inside five minutes.”

The tears you were trying to stop spilled over again.

The second he saw them, he looked genuinely devastated.

Not angry. Not frustrated.

Devastated.

“Oh, sweetheart…”

He crossed the room immediately then stopped himself halfway, hesitating.

Simon Riley, who would walk through gunfire without blinking, suddenly looking uncertain about whether he was allowed to touch his own wife.

“You don’t have to comfort me,” you whispered.

That nearly broke him, his eyes shut briefly.

“Christ.”

He finally stepped closer carefully, like approaching a wounded animal. His hands settled lightly on your arms, almost tentative.

“I’m sorry love,” he said again. “I shouldn’t have spoken to you like that. Ever.”

You looked down, vision blurring, “I know you’re tired.”

“That’s not an excuse.”

“I wasn’t trying to annoy you-”,you huffed ,choking slightly on the tears.

“I know.” His voice cracked slightly then steadied. “I know you weren’t.”

The guilt in his expression got worse somehow.

“You were taking care of me,” he murmured. “That’s all you were doing.”

You tried to look away again but Simon gently caught your chin before you could.

“Look at me.”

You did. Big mistake.

The second he saw how hard you’d been trying not to cry, his entire face softened into something painfully guilty.

“Didn’t mean to scare you.”, he murmured ,gently cupping your face.

“You never yell at me.”, you sniffled.

That one hit directly to the ribs.

Simon actually flinched.

His thumb brushed carefully under your eye, wiping away a tear with absurd gentleness for a man built like a concrete wall with emotional constipation.

“I swear to you,” he said quietly, “the second it came outta my mouth, I wanted to take it back.”

You could hear how honest it was.

Simon wasn’t good at pretty apologies. He wasn’t poetic, wasn’t smooth. But guilt made him painfully sincere.

“I hate that you looked at me like that,” he admitted softly.

“Like what?”

“Like you were trying to figure out if I was angry with you.”

His voice nearly disappeared on the last part. Because that was the thing eating him alive now. The fact that for even one second, you’d looked at him uncertainly instead of safely.

Simon pulled you against him suddenly, firm and desperate, burying his face into your h.air.

“I’m sorry,” he repeated quietly against your temple. “I’m so fucking sorry.”

You felt the way he held you tighter after every apology, like he was trying to physically make up for it.

“I missed you,” he admitted in a low murmur. “Missed you so bad it felt wrong sleeping without you there.” His arms tightened. “Then I come home and act like that.”

Your hands slowly curled into his shirt. Simon exhaled shakily at the feeling.

“There she is,” he whispered, relief and guilt tangled together. “Thought I fucked this up properly for a second.” he mumbled ,inhaling the scent of your hair.

“You didn’t.”

“Nearly did.”

And judging by the way he kept pressing little apologetic kisses into your hair like a man trying to repent for his crimes against domestic peace, he was going to spend the rest of the night making absolutely sure you knew he regretted it.

lol yeah i'm procrastinating my long fics TT

[krill-joy]

PBS just set up a youtube channel where you can watch full documentaries!!

https://m.youtube.com/@pbsdocumentaries

[mckitterick]

PBS Documentaries

Welcome to the PBS Documentaries channel—presented by PBS Digital Studios and Independent Television Service (ITVS), dedicated to documentin

^ live link to their channel! looks like it's been live since 2012, and has 213 videos plus tons of playlists

[fruchtfliege]

NFB (National Film Board of Canada//ONF in french) is also a great place to find free documentaries + lots of animation movies. Their youtube channel is here but they also have a website thats wayyy easier to use. They even have an app!

National Film Board of Canada

Watch quality Canadian documentary, animation and fiction films online

[annabelle--cane]

"the thing about paranoia is well what if I'm right" no actually I'll do you one better. what if it's the fourth wolf-crying incident in a row and I successfully manage to talk myself down and convince myself that I'm imagining all the ringing alarm bells bcuz that's what I did the last four times. so I ignore it and look away. and then. specifically due to me relaxing and turning around. The Fucking Wolf.

[shattersaurus]

Hello everyone!

Last year I started designing a series of Coat of Arms, themed in the spirit of Pride Month and using different mythological creatures as heraldic animals. I now aim to turn these designs into wearable pins and will be running a Kickstarter in July to fund this endeavor! I have found a very trustworthy local manufacturer, who has already shown the quality of their craftsmanship with the first batch of test pins I received, just look at the detail they were able to produce!

Since I try to support local manufacturers, which produce pins with fair wages and are more ethical than outside of Europe, the pins are more expensive to create than through the usual pipeline via Asia.

I therefore seek to crowdfund the expenses since they would be more than I can afford. If you are interested and look forward to support this little endeavor, please follow the link below to sign up for a mailing list. People who signed up on the email list and pledged during the campaign will receive an exclusive sticker set by the end of a successful launch consisting of the following designs:

SIGN UP ON OUR PRELAUNCH WAITING LIST TO GET THESE LITTLE GUYS FOR FREE

[riotd]

i’m very self aware. which unfortunately hasn’t solved anything

[highgroundanimations]

✨ Happy Star Wars Day Week everyone! (a bit late to posting this here 😅) ✨

Time to finally give you some updates on the Tukk Tales project and introduce one of its new characters:

Commander Faust of the Coruscant Guard.

More on him soon, but for now I'll let this animation speak for itself. 🫡👀

But why new characters? And where's the short film??

First of all I'm sorry I haven't been great with keeping you all updated in the past! Juggling the project with my freelance work and private life hasn't been easy and I wanted to wait until things have developed further until I make any new announcements, but here's basically what happened:

After the announcement teaser trailer in 2023 completely blew up and I got to see how much love and support there already is for Tukk, his company and the project, I got motivated to push both my storytelling skills and the film itself a lot further, going back and rewriting the whole thing to let us spend more time with these characters and tell a more impactful and memorable story.

Instead of a little one-off 6 minute short (which at the time was still mostly in rough previz stage), it evolved into something closer to a full Clone Wars episode, which I've eventually decided to separate into three mini-episodes, inspired by the beautiful "Tales of" shows from Lucasfilm.

With that expansion also came the need for a lot more characters, designs and assets. And since I'm making all of those from scratch, with hand-painted textures, animator-friendly rigs and screen-accurate details that have to hold up in all kinds of close-ups, I've spent a LOT of time on that part of the process while simultaneously setting up some of the previz animations for the new story.

But an end of that step is in sight and once it is complete, updates will become way more frequent as I'm much faster when it comes to bringing shots from previz to a final stage.

I still can't give a release date yet as it's a no-budget personal project that is happening between client jobs, but it's still going full steam ahead and I'm extremely excited about the new direction it has taken on a while ago.

I'll also be looking for other character animators to bring onto the project later on and help out with some shots, so if you're interested in volunteering, feel free to send me your reel (mail address in my linktree)!

That's it for now, more character reveals soon (and no, they won't all be clones 🗡️🥸)!

May the force be with you all!

[color-palettes]

i have no name for this - submitted by jellyrainboots

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