Virgil's Spins

(CURRENTLY ON A HIATUS) My name is Virgil and this is dedicated to my Spins, aka my special interests. It is also for any content related to my autism, especially my stims. (Profile pic: close up of Jaws Pop figure box.)

[72sinkingships]

made by me: @72sinkingships

do not repost!! reblogs welcome:3

[guardianspirits13]

I've gotta say that there is no better achievement as a neurodivergent person than hyperfixating on a character for so long that you are known as "the 'insert character name here' person"

[vampireopossum]

@fecto-forgo

[speedlimit15]

you haven’t even begun to breach the depth of my ability to say things that don’t matter at all

[autistic-dragonkid]

neurotypicals: why are you so weird? you’re really weird

me: I’m autistic

neurotypicals: but then why are you so normal? you’re really normal

[kollector-of-stims]

@deviledeggi YESSSS SQUEEZE CHEEZE GANG!!

🧀SQUEEZE CHEEZE SUPREMACEEZ!!🧀

[batsandboba]

every once in a while i learn some wild new piece of information that explains years of behavior and reminds me that i will never truly understand everything about my ridiculous adhd brain

[paradise-sys]

ok what the fuck who was gonna tell me this isnt normal

[resetium]

what the fuck you mean to tell me that the way that i comically slide around things wasn't just me naturally shitposting

[paradise-sys]

maybe the neurotypicals are just trolling us

[positively--speculative]

THAT'S WHY I DO THAT?!?!?

[lifewithchronicpain]

I have done that exact thing to my nephew lol

[nevermind2024]

autism affects more than just children! autistic adults are not just grown up children!

infantilizing autistic people isn't cool and if autistic adults acting and expressing themselves in a way that makes you uncomfortable then maybe you should reevaluate your own biases

[nevermind2024]

i feel like there's not a lot of talk about how hard the social stigma of autism is for so many individuals. personally, i find social situations not only quite difficult, but frustrating bc my autistic traits are seen as "unfriendly" or at work they can be seen as "unprofessional". sometimes i feel like there's no escape from masking and it's a recipe for a meltdown

i love being autistic. i love autism. i love autistic people.

but neurotypicals don't more often than not. and it's frustrating when they see your autism as a challenge you need to "overcome" or else everyone will see you as weird forever

that or people not believing i have it bc i'm so "normal" 🙄 (whatever that means) and it can be difficult to make my needs really clear to others because they look at me and see my needs or accommodations as "no big deal" and then get upset with me when i meltdown.

sometimes it just feels like there's no winning with the neurotypical world.

[getbettercrayon]

source

[jackhammerhim]

I dont CARE if the rules make the game less fun (i am autistic), there are rules for a reason (i am autistic), the game being fair is very important to me (i am autistic), it needs to be fair so everyone has fun (i am autistic), if you wont play fair im leaving (i am autistic) and if you dont follow the rules it wouldnt be fun for me (i am autistic), and that wouldnt be very fair (i am autistic)!

[jewfrogs]

autistic anger issues are So Much. i have my temper more under control now in that i rly dont yell/lash out anymore but i do regularly boil inside with incandescent uncontainable rage over something inconsequential and then it evaporates in the span of ten minutes. incomparable

[doubleca5t]

Autism:

[kyahcomic]

(Transcription) Parallel Play and Autism [my experience; everyone is different] Parallel play is when people do separate activities with each other, not trying to influence each others behavior. I like socializing and I get lonely; I like company even though I don’t like group activities, group conversations, group games, small talking, or large groups in general… I prefer being in someone’s company while doing my own activity. It is much less mentally taxing. With parallel play, I can be myself and communicate when I want to.

[treemice]

Sensory issues are so funny. No I can't eat the spaghetti you bought a slightly thicker spaghetti than usual. And today isn't a spaghetti day! Oh nevermind today I don't care. I have so little texture related sensory issues I'm so glad. Nvm I can feel all of my seams and I'm wearing the good pants and also please get me scissors I haven't cut the tag out of my new shirt yet. Oh my sensory issues with sound are nonexistent. Nevermind this hurts so bad. Nevermind it doesn't hurt anymore.

[summerstims]

Left Over Stims- Stim Toys

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[your-autistic-girlfriend]

I hope you are all well

[pendragyn]

[image id: an infographic titled "Signs of autistic burnout" by @adulting_with_autism_ (probably from Instagram? ). It has 9 small images to illustrate each point and reads;

nonchalance / flat mood

low attention span

exhaustion

scared to make commitments

irritability

overwhelmed and/ or underwhelmed

special interests unappealing

low capacity for socialising

unshakeable and constant anxiety

/end id]

[virgils-spins]

Okay y'all.

I have ARFID, it's something I just live with. It's a part of my life, and I Cannot change it. No matter how much I wish I could it's not something I Can or Want to change.

I know the literal spelled name for it is Avoidant Restrictive Food Intake Disorder. But I hate calling it an eating disorder.

Calling it an eating disorder implies there's something about it I can change if I just tried harder and worked on it. And that's bullshit I've been told for my entire life.

I can't change this. I can't change the fact I can't eat a significant amount of foods. I can't change that some days I can't eat anything that isn't my safe food because it makes me genuinely nauseated to the point I start feeling the before effects of throwing up. I don't want to change this either.

Yes I wish I could eat more foods and that I didn't have such a large restriction on my diet. If I could there's so many foods I'd would love to be able to eat.

But I can't. I simply am not capable of it without damaging or traumatizing myself. It's just not possible.

Rather than call it an eating disorder and make me feel ashamed for the way I exist, I'd rather folks just respect that I am this way. I'd rather not be shamed for being a "picky eater". I'd rather people close to me consider what I can eat into dinner plans.

I have more stress because of how other people react to my ARFID than how I feel about it. Other people's reactions are more distressing to me than the ARFID itself.

Anyway that's my personal rant for the day.

[chaotic-queer-disaster]

me: ok how am i feeling. i'm going to look into my brain and figure out how i'm fe--

alexithymia brain: static

me: what?

alexithymia brain: you feel the way radio static sounds

me: well that's extremely fucking unhelpful

alexithymia brain: it's the best i can give you

[chaotic-queer-disaster]

#don't know what alexithymia is but mood

@approximately20eggs alexithymia is a trait in which you're unable to describe and/or recognize your own emotions! Anyone can be alexithymic and it can be a very prominent trait or milder, but it's much more common among neurodivergent people than neurotypical people.

Personally I struggle pretty badly with telling what i feel (i use mostly physical cues to figure it out) and am even worse at expressing it in words, but it varies from person to person.