a five year old obsession resurfaces

Liea | they/she | 23 | norwegian || main and ao3: abridgedwriter

[whateverthatgoldsworth]

I experienced my first severely uncomfortable encounter with biphobia today??? Like, I've been called names plenty of times, been glared at, told I'm going to hell by my family members all that shit, and I've managed to just put it past me pretty quick. But I'm at a hotel with a friend to go to a concert later tonight, and apparently her bf was afraid that I'd make a move and take advantage of her, and she didn't see why it would make me uncomfortable or feel like that

[whateverthatgoldsworth]

Heya! It's me! The annoying bitch that comments on every single chapter of Bring Color to My Skies (better known as itsjust_soff).

I just wanted to pass by and tell you again how great the fic is, like, I hope your pillow is cold on both sides, that your clothes are soft and that you have the greatest glow ups in history 🧚‍♀️✨

Um,, that was all, okay bye!

I love your comments, you're not at all annoying! Thank you,,, you're awesome! ❤️

[whateverthatgoldsworth]

if someone could tell me why i can’t put as much effort into my accounting assignments as i do to my fics, that’d be great thanks.

bts from upcoming coffee shop au:)

[dudewithabow]

after you’ve been through like a string of fandoms and you’ve decided your favourite character/s for each one, there will come a day when you will list all your faves from each fandom side by side and look at them carefully and realise

you have a type

[ao3commentoftheday]

tumblr mobile won't let me upload a voice recording, so I guess you're all spared hearing about my thoughts that people (some of them at least) aren't actually desperate for comments. What they're actually missing is community.

[ao3commentoftheday]

screw it. I put it up on drive. I'll try to figure out tomorrow if it actually makes sense or not- and I'll transcribe it if no one else beats me to it

[logicheartsoul]

TRANSCRIPTION:

It's not about comments, it's about community. I'm lying here at 1:36 in the morning and I can't sleep and that keeps going around and around in my head. It's not comments, it's community. I dunno if this is an epiphany or I'm an insomniac and I'm not making any sense.

But I've been running this blog for three and a half years now and seeing the things that spark joy in authors, and seeing the insecurities, and seeing people saying, "I need comments, I want comments, I have to have comments, if I don't have comments then I just feel like I need to give up" -- and I try and understand as best as I can but I don't think I actually get there. And I think the reason why that is, is because I've always had some form of community.

When I joined my last fandom, I knew a couple of people who were interested in it on tumblr, but I threw my first fic out there not knowing what I'd get. The fandom was still small at the time, and...the show was on hiatus, and there wasn't a lot of fic going on AO3, and so...when I put my fic out there, I actually got a response and it was pretty cool. And because I got online in the 90's, when people commented to me, I commented back in a conversational tone, and because the fandom was full of people of a similar age to me -- who also got on the internet in the 90's -- they also responded in a conversational tone. And next thing you know, we're making friends, we're following each other on tumblr, we're having a grand ol' time.

And so...for me, when I go into a stats spiral, it's more about comparing myself against myself, and "why am I not doing better with this story than this other story", and "why do people like that story? That was just a joke. This one that's serious, nobody is paying attention to and why is that"? But it's not so much about people and the comments or the lack of comments, it's more about me and, you know, trying to understand my own writing and you know, what works and what doesn't and relying on other people won't tell me that and I know that.

And then I remembered the one time when I actually was upset that I didn't get comments. And it was...I had organized this fandom event type of thing -- not really an event -- I was doing this thing, and anyone who wanted to participate or support me or encourage me was welcome to do so. I wanted to do a thing. I did...I, um, called it a ficathon, it was a March Madness kind of thing, where 64 prompts went in, and 1 prompt came out. And I was writing 64 fics at the same time and people were voting on them and it was great. And when we got to the final fic, and I wrote it and posted it on AO3, after -- I dunno, a month? -- of fanfare -- I was getting 50 votes a day on these things, so like people were reading. I didn't get comments. I barely had hits or kudos and it was a huge let down. And it wasn't about the comments, even though I remember I wrote some kind of post and put it on tumblr that I was upset and whatever, and I remember writing about comments and kudos and hits.

But that wasn't why I was upset. I was upset because I had created a thing for my community and it felt like my community ignored it. It wasn't the case and everything was fine, and you know, I had posted it on a Tuesday afternoon or something stupid and nobody saw it. It was, you know. I...probably overreacted, I dunno. But that was how I was feeling at the time. It was an intense disappointment for me.

But it wasn't about the numbers, it was about the relationship and the community.

And when I read some of the asks that I get or the tags on posts -- oh my god, the tags on posts -- when I see these things so often, it feels like what people want isn't a comment, it's a connection. They want people to talk to about their writing. They want people to talk to about stories or about the canon, the characters they love, they want to have a conversation. And for whatever reason, the way social media is set up, we expect that conversation to happen in a certain way or we don't realize it can happen in a different way, and...I dunno. AO3 isn't even social media. But it looks like it in a lot of ways. And so I think...I dunno, people look for community in their comment section. And it's hard to build a community there.

If you have friends on tumblr, or twitter, or discord, or wherever else, if you have relationships with people outside of your fic, at least for me, the comments are less necessary but also, the comments come because -- I mean, god knows, I was not the best writer in my fandom by a long stretch -- but I knew a lot of people. And I liked them and they liked me, and I think that really helped make people want to read my stories. Because again, it's that community piece. I'm looking for connections with them and they're looking for connections too. And if they know me as a person, and they see a story with my name on it, they might think, "Oh, I really like Pi! I'm going to click in and see what her story's about."

And so, it's...it comes down to community. Like am I crazy here? Am I wrong? I mean, obviously this isn't the case for everybody, not everyone is looking for this community, but...yeah. That's...just...it feels like it comes down to that. For me. That's the piece that's missing. That's the piece that people crave, the thing they're looking for. It's not about the comments, it's not about the numbers, it's about connections and relationships. And that's the part that's missing.

[whateverthatgoldsworth]

so uh, home is where the heart (and kitchen) is, does anyone still want to read that or uh no

[whateverthatgoldsworth]

:)

[thisiseverydayracism]

https://www.thedailybeast.com/state-department-to-lgbt-married-couples-your-out-of-wedlock-kids-arent-citizens

[thenerdyanthrohistorian]

Watch the white gays start to give a fuck now.

[roughstar]

First it was the Mexicans, legal citizens born here from immigrant parents, that were claimed as non citizens. Now it’s the children of gay parents. Don’t you see what’s happening? Disenfranchisement. Classic fascism. We’re heading towards a totalitarian regime folks. Trump is a white supremacist and him and his administration won’t stop until they’ve recreated Hitler’s Nazi Germany.

[injuries-in-dust]

Hitler didn’t start as histories greatest monster, or he wouldn’t have gained the power he got. It was only after he became too powerful to be removed that he revealed his true nature. You have to look for the warning signs and there are a lot of them with the Trump administration. Like, big red flags with glowing flares.

[misterdoctorironstrange]

The worst thing is that Hitler had to put some effort into gaining his power, while Trump has been waving his red flags as high as possible since the start and no one seems to care…

[immortalcheesewedge]

What. The. Fuck.

SPREAD. THIS. SHIT. NOW. DO. NOT. SCROLL. PAST. DO. NOT. SCROLL. PAST. DO. NOT. SCROLL. PAST. DO. NOT. SCROLL. PAST. LOOK. AT. THIS.  SPREAD. IT.

[sea-anon]

Ten steps to genocide (we are at number 8 now with the ‘detention centers’ by the way. Next step is literally extermination. Just thought y’all would like to know)

Also see poem “First they came”

I’ve been saying this since 2016. I hope you care now that it might affect you.

[whateverthatgoldsworth]

I sorted through all of my documents the other day and I have SO much unfinished standrew fics in there.. What do you want to read? Smut, a Marvel AU, a Brooklyn 99 AU, Home is Where the Heart (and Kitchen) is, something entirely different? 

[fancybois]

It’s been 84 years but Worth It food is back babeyyyyyy!!!

wow they really they really hit you with that cover image didn’t they jesus

oh god oh god im sad cause only six episodes but

THEY FILMED WITH STEVEN IN GLASSES FOR REAL AND IM SCREAMING

Ah! megan!!!!!!

“Can you imagine me on ecstasy?” “uhhh, are we going there right now?” idhwieufhiruhf SAME???

i literally had to pause and cry cause i missed them SO DAMN MUCH

STEVEN LOOKS SO GOOD

ANDREW IS WEARING HIS CLASSIC STRIPED SHIRT

okay but they’ve gone back to the season two thing where they figure out who is who in the dish

S: I’m not saving any for Adam

Adam: fuck you *steals burrito*

yall were only like 5 minutes in and look how much ive written

oh….. oh….. Heart Eyes Ilynyckj is back……. dont do this to me

look guys going to a latino bakery and getting pan dulces is an ideal date for me and im getting super emotional

Annie’s like, why are you like this XDDDD

Steven, baby,,,, breakfast foods in a burrito is a breakfast burrito, honey smh

WUMBO SIZE WOW FDKJDKJ

Adam really went for the food porn shot by ripping the burrito in half, what a bold man

I love how they casually stopped by a historic site during a road trip, if that isn’t my whole goddamn mood every day of my life

omg im so happy for these people with the anaconda burrito, they really succeeded by selling giant foods people cant get enough of, good for them!!

any one else getting a phallic vibe cause im a little uncomfy by them cheersing the ends of the burrito

steven is really competitive, im not surprised he won eating the most

I would pick Low Key too, I love me some breakfast burritos

Guys, they’re really back, my heart is glowing, my body is tingling, i feel alive <3 <3 <3

[coffin-promptsoriginal]

1st Day Of Christmas Prompt List

Oh my God, the dog has an ugly jumper! My life is complete!

Why is there a throwing star on top of the tree?

I’ll drag this goddamn tree in the house if it’s the last thing I do.

Die Hard is a Christmas movie and I’ll fight you if you say anything else!

Is this supposed to be a subtle hint that I need to brush my teeth more?

I’m sorry for anybody who will have me as secret Santa, you’ll absolutely only get alcohol

I’ll burn all your gifts if you keep throwing the mistletoe at me.

Let’s watch some Christmas porn!

“You can’t force me to go outside!” “Either you put something on willingly or I’ll throw you in the snow without your pants.”

The only reason I’m willing to dress as a Santa is the cookies. The absolute only reason.

If you want to invite my family over for Christmas, be ready for somebody get stabbed.

Stop eating all the marshmallows, I want them too!

This is the ultimate Christmas drink! Eggnog and hot cocoa. Feel welcome to throw up!

These jokes are not Christmas friendly!

“Why don’t you like ice skating?” “Have you not seen the videos of Zednik or Malarchuk getting their throat slashed?! This is dangerous!”

You are not allowed to touch the tree anymore!

You can’t be drunk on Christmas Eve!

I’m like a Grinch. I hate Christmas and people.

“Merry Christmas!” “You brought me Trump Vodka? Are you serious?”

You are not dressing the cat in a reindeer costume!

[whateverthatgoldsworth]

Hey, guess what? I want to write! Wow, amazing, right? Let me know what you’d want to read. Home is Where the Kitchen is? One-shots? Some shyan? Tell me <3

[incorrect-worthit]

We NEED an extra person to help run this blog

We’re currently two people running this blog (@shouldbestevdrew and @laimerrylin), but I (shouldbestevdrew) am going through a lot of stress in my life after a major life change, and will have to prioritise myself before this blog. It’s exhausting to run something like this alone, so if you would want to help, please send us an ask, or send one of us a message! Thank you.

[whateverthatgoldsworth]

so uh, home is where the heart (and kitchen) is, does anyone still want to read that or uh no

[peelingmandarins]

me replying to messages 10 days late and blaming it on my busy schedule to hide the fact that my depression has me thinking simple correspondence is an actual workload:

[incorrect-worthit]

Want to be a part of this blog?

Hey guys! We’re already two people working on these quotes, but lately we’ve both been busy and we really need one more person. Either send an ask, or send me (@lieasobsessions) a message! Thank you! <3

[criminal-minds-fanfiction]

Fanfiction Writer Asks

Most of the writer ask posts I come across are only like ten or so questions long so I thought I’d try to make a longer one because we like talking about our writing! Feel free to reblog!

1) How old were you when you first starting writing fanfiction?

2) What fandoms do you write for and do you have a particular favourite if you write for more than one?

3) Do you prefer writing OC’s or reader inserts? Explain your answer.

4) What is your favourite genre to write for?

5) If you had to choose a favourite out of all of your multi chaptered stories, which would it be and why?

6) If you had to delete one of your stories and never speak of it again, which would it be and why?

7) When is your preferred time to write?

8) Where do you take your inspiration from?

9) In your xxx fic, what’s your favourite scene that you wrote?

10) In your xxx fic, why did you decide to end it like that? Did you have an alternative ending in mind?

11) Have you ever amended a story due to criticisms you’ve received after posting it?

12) Who is your favourite character to write for? Why?

13) Who is your least favourite character to write for? Why?

14) How did you come up with the title for the xxx? - You can ask about multiple stories.

15) If you write OC’s, how do you decide on their names?

16) How did you come up with the idea for xxx?

17) Post a line from a WIP that you’re working on.

18) Do you have any abandoned WIP’s? What made you abandon them?

19) Are there any stories that you’ve written that you’d really love to do a sequel to?

20) Are there any stories that you wished you’d ended differently?

21) Tell me about another writer(s) who you admire? What is it about them that you admire?

22) Do you have a story that you look back on and cringe when you reread it?

23) Do you prefer listening to music when you’re writing or do you need silence?

24) How do you feel about writing smutty scenes?

25) Have you ever cried whilst writing a story?

26) Which part of your xxx fic was the hardest to write?

27) Do you make a general outline for your stories or do you just go with the flow?

28) What is something you wished you’d known before you started posting fanfiction?

29) Do you have a story that you feel doesn’t get as much love as you’d like?

30) In contrast to 29 is there a story which gets lots of love which you kinda eye roll at?

31) Send me a fic recommendation and I’ll post it for my followers to see! (The asker is to send the rec not the answerer)

32) Are any of your characters based on real people?

33) What’s the biggest compliment you’ve gotten?

34) What’s the harshest criticism you’ve gotten?

35) Do you share your story ideas with anyone else or do you keep them close to your chest?

36) Can you give us a spoiler for one of your WIP’s?

37) What’s the funniest story you’ve written?

38) If you could collab with any other writer on here, who would it be? (Perhaps this question will inspire some collabs!) If you’re shy, don’t tag the blog, just name it.

39) Do you prefer first, second or third person?

40) Do people know you write fanfiction?

41) What’s you favourite minor character you’ve written?

42) Song fic - What made you decide to use the song xxx for xxx.

43) Has anyone ever guessed the plot twist of one of your fics before you posted it?

44) What is the last line you wrote?

45) What spurs you on during the writing process?

46) I really loved your xxx fic. If you were ever to do a sequel, what do you think might happen in it?

47) Here’s a fic title - insert a made up title. What would this story be about?

48) What’s your favourite trope to write?

49) Can you remember the first fic you read? What was it about?

50) If you could write only angst, fluff or smut for the rest of your writing life, which would it be and why?

[whateverthatgoldsworth]

Steven: Small creatures are way more vicious. It’s because there’s less room to contain their anger.

Andrew: That’s ridiculous. Name one example of this.

Adam: Wasps.

Niki: Spiders.

Annie: Terriers.

Shane: Ryan.