Hi Im Loshi

Hey so im Loshi and this is my tumblr! so welcome! This is the only place you my comment on my life and hear my actual thoughts.. my rule here is BE HONEST! Disclamer: I dont own any of the photos i post unless stated.

[whosloshi]

So lately I’ve been thinking about all the moments that made me fall deeper and deeper in love with you. It started on that first day when I saw you smiling at that old lady that was the first seed of love for me. I always keep thinking about our first date because out of all the dates that I’ve been on that has always been the best and most satisfying. Our conversation, the way you served me food, walking in the rain, and us singing that song together in your car always resonates with me. From that day on I knew that you were mine.

I think about our car rides when we would take long drives; laying on your arm as you drive singing songs with you and listening to your favorite songs makes me feel like If it were possible to drive to the end of the world I would be able to do that with you.

I think about the first time that you played a song for me, and how excited you were to show me a song that you made. Though at first I did not believe you could be so talented but in those first couple days you made me feel so loved and adored and it showed that that was what drove you to write such a beautiful song for me. I still watch that first recording at least once month.

I think about how we would play with each other, like when you would tag me and run away. You ran so fast that I would never be able to catch up with you so eventually would just have to stop running. I think I caught on pretty fast that you would eventually stop running so I would just stay in place till you came back to me.

I began to fall in love with you the first time that we met. You’re the most amazing and talented person that I’ve ever met and some how you chose me. But how I loved you then is nothing compared to how I love you now. I love you with everything inside of me.

So here I lay in Vacaville California while you are in Washington waiting till you come back to me.

I wish I had the talent to paint the way I feel about you, for my words always feel inadequate. I imagine using red for your passion and pale blue for your kindness; forest green to reflect the depth of your empathy and bright yellow for your unflagging optimism. And still I wonder: can even an artist’s palette capture the full range of what you mean to me?

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Something that I’ve learnt from my many years of struggling with depression is that it’s never really gone. Even at times when I feel good and healthy, I’m still always at risk of relapse. So far, I’ve experienced relapses every couple of years and one of the many reasons that happened is that I didn’t take my depression seriously enough. No one likes being mentally ill, so once depression doesn’t feel too present, I tend to ignore it. I quickly put myself under a lot of pressure, because everyone else does too, and since my depression isn’t acting up in that particular moment, I don’t feel like I have an excuse to take things easy. I feel like a liar and very disrespectful of other people’s hard work, so I push myself all the time to keep up with everyone. I don’t want to cause trouble because of something no one can see. While every single time seems still manageable to me, those situations keep stacking, until I can’t deal with the amount of stress anymore. Then I fall apart. This is a reminder to me and everyone else who’s in a similar situation: by accepting your depression and keeping it in mind, you’ll be able to live a healthier life in the long run. It’s difficult to miss out on certain things or to say “no” to friends because of something that isn’t an immediate problem. But every time you decide to take care of your needs, you will keep depression away a bit longer.

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As a depression sufferer myself I appreciate this and it reminds me of Mr Johnson’s Cat

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How to be Yourself

1. First, and most important, see yourself as a valuable, likeable and worthwhile person – someone who is worth knowing and loving. If you find that hard, then you are likely believing lies about yourself. (And that may be something you want to explore, and work through with, a counsellor.)

2. Recognise that your thoughts, ideas, views and beliefs are as important as anybody else’s. You are your own person. You are not just a clone of somebody else. What you think is worth hearing – and you don’t have to apologise or change your views in order to please, or be acceptable to, others.

3. Stay away from people who are trying to change you, or who want you to think and act as they do. Don’t allow yourself and your personality to be swamped or dominated by others.

4. Surround with people who encourage you to be yourself, accept you as you are, and bring out the best in you.

5. Resist the urge to emulate or copy people you admire. At the end of the day “they are them and you are you”. That’s the way it should be. Each of us is unique. The world is a richer place by you expressing who you are in your own way.

6. Don’t compare yourself with others. We each have different experiences, and are evolving in our own way, at our own pace. There’s no one formula or recipe for becoming or being. Trust your intuition, and follow your own path.

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A little piece of magic happens, When he says my name. It generates a spark in me, That sets my heart aflame. And when his lips press down on mine, It fuels the flame some more. The fumes intoxicate me, Captivate me to the core.

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