Because I’m Not Meredith Grey

secretly two duelling braincells in a trenchcoat i write sometimes: ao3

[synne-i]

Now the latest chapter of this had me in a CHOKEHOLD. Thank you @wildhaus for the indulgence.

[wildhaus]

omg omg omg i am literally screaming???

but i can’t TELL anyone because that involves the “i write gay fanfic” convo???

trust i am MELTING

[zombies-sold-cheap]

edit I made for the real ones

[wetchickenbreast]

if i was in a time loop i’d deadass lose count after like 4 days

[wildhaus]

@saltieredhead does Addie take notes and get frustrated when they disappear

Addie unsure if it’s the ninth or tenth loop and getting frustrated she can’t remember

[that-house]

partially-managed mental illness is so fucking funny i'll be sitting around doing my job and suddenly think "wow i hate myself" and immediately get confused because, like, that's not TRUE! i love myself so much. who are you to talk to me like that

[lesbiantahani]

i think i WILL sexualise that 50-60 year old woman today thank yewwww

[starcut-sand]

loveeee characters who think they're likable but not lovable. characters who know they have surface-level admirable or alluring traits and so make sure to highlight those traits so that nobody looks closer to see what's underneath. characters who know they're hot or clever or cool and use that as a suit of armor so that no one ever gets close to them, because when they strip bare and show their vulnerability they're not any of those things, which means they have nothing left to make up for who they inherently are

[wildhaus]

Ya know what?? I like the way you think. Once more, Zola doesn’t apply to ANY ivy’s. Instead she chose Stanford (and got a full ride scholarship)

Yesss I love this!

Imagine Zola throws a little party to reveal her choice to her moms and aunts, who are stunned into silence—even more so when Cristina makes an unexpected visit, smug that Mer’s kid is going to her school.

Addie and Mer begrudgingly wearing Stanford gear, Amy chiming in that “Stanford’s red, which makes Zola’s choice closer to Harvard crimson than Yale blue or Dartmouth green”, much to their annoyance.

Addie saying “there’s always med school”, and the group playfully arguing about which of their alma maters’ med schools are the best fit for Zola (but beneath the childish rivalries they like to have fun with, they all truly want Zola to flourish and succeed and grow in a place she enjoys).

[senatormellies]

One of my favorite Addison/Meredith headcanons is that they like to playfully argue over which Ivy is better. Addison obviously says Yale. Meredith obviously says Dartmouth. To the point where they get the kids involved. One year for their Christmas card photo, Zola, Bailey, and Ellis are wearing Yale gear and Henry is wearing Dartmouth gear.

[wildhaus]

The fact that Addie went to Yale and Amelia went to Harvard and they don’t get into any (playful and fun) arguments about it is criminal tbh. Actually all of the Grey sisters, plus Addie and Amelia, went to Ivy leagues for some of their education.

I’m imagining Amelia dragging Addie (and Mer too) to “The Game” (annual Yale/Harvard football game). She tries to get the others to wear crimson, and Meddison and kids are all wearing blue (Mer is willing to put aside Dartmouth/Yale rivalry for the purpose of riling up Amy. Her hat still says “Dartmouth”, though.)

Amelia giving all the kids Harvard shirts that year for Christmas as payback, Addison poking fun at the navy attendings’ scrubs they all wear as “proof they all acknowledge Yale is superior”, Mer replacing Addie’s generic travel coffee mug with a Dartmouth one, etc. Just domestic shenanigans that eventually end up with both of their undergraduate degrees hung up exactly the same height in Mer and Addie’s joint study at home.

Just to spite all three of them, Zola goes to MIT or Brown (any prestigious college that isn’t Yale, Harvard, or Dartmouth, really).

If Lexie was still around, you bet she’d be chiming in with her own Harvard support. Mer and Addie joining forces against their Harvard-educated sisters.

(The Grey’s wiki says Maggie went to Yale, too, so perhaps Mer ends up the odd one out and gets ganged up on by the duos from Harvard and Yale. Addie solves this by telling her that green works better with blue than red, anyway, and a kiss. Mer hates that this works so well.)

[koiagain]

im going to fix my entire life

[fruitcakebro]

When?

[koiagain]

Like Um. later

[cremecheesebagel]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Happy national lobster day to all those who celebrate please accept my bullshit

[justwalkiingthedog]

“You are my Lobster”

[wildhaus]

@cremecheesebagel

[wildhaus]

the warm gooey feeling you get when someone leaves a heartfelt, positive comment on your fic, or makes fanart

the absolute joy i get in knowing this thing i’ve created resonated with someone else, that they liked it enough to leave a comment or create something based on it

idk i just think it’s neat :)

[wildhaus]

the true writer’s experience:

oscillating between “this is amazing, i just wrote 3k words, this fic is writing itself at this point” and “i am in hell. writing is like pulling teeth. i keep getting stuck and wanting to drill into my own skull to hopefully get the thoughts out.”

[jadeseadragon]

🎥 credit: @kathleen_ash

[wildhaus]

they're just babies cute lil fluffy babies

[spltlvlhous]

[wildhaus]

@cremecheesebagel look, Addie knit LobstMer a sweater!

[hambter]

[wildhaus]

@cremecheesebagel call upon the lobstMer

[001x456]

do you even like your blorbo if you don’t like them pathetic and half dead