James stops at the sight of Peter cradling Harry.
They’re both sitting by the fireplace, golden flames illuminating the dark room. Peter’s got one hand wrapped around Harry’s back, the other behind his head, the sounds of Harry’s quiet breaths filling the room.
“Thanks,” James says; he’s rarely ever seen Peter like this, holding Harry with such care. It was usually Sirius or Remus who did it - Peter was much more of the awkward cousin than the protective uncle. Still, there was something beautiful about the way he was holding Harry, as if it was the last time he’d ever see him.
Peter gives him a small smile; he seems almost melancholy, something like regret pouring off him in waves. James reaches over, brushes Harry’s head gently and leans back against the couch.
“You okay?” he asks. Peter jumps, as if he had been startled.
James shurgs. “I don’t know. You just seem...sad tonight.”
“Ah.” Peter lets out a small chuckle. Harry burbles in his sleep and he gently cards his fingers through the wispy strands of Harry’s hair. “No. I’m fine.”
James nods; he knows not to push. They all had different ways of dealing with the War; Sirius’ rage, Remus’ quietness, Lily’s tears. He scrubs a tired hand over his face, his throat aching slightly. “God,” he says. “Just wish this whole war was over.”
Peter nods - he doesn’t look at James, his eyes fixed on Harry’s sleeping face. “Maybe you should go,” he says abruptly. “Take a vacation or something. Relieve some stress.”
James frowns. “Pete, what are you talking about. The Fidelius - “
Peter seems to deflate almost, his hand dropping down to curl around the arm of the chair. James watches as his fingers go white; Peter seemed tense in a way he had never looked before. “Are you alright?”
Peter shrugs. He looks at James, then looks down at his feet. “What would you do?” he whispers. “What would you do, to protect your family?”
“Anything,” James says immediately; he doesn’t even have to think. “Anything. Torture, death, whatever. I would do anything for you guys.”
Peter sniffs. His eyes look wet in the firelight. “You guys?”
“Harry. Lily. Remus. Sirius. You.” James smiles. Peter hardly ever cried anymore, though he used to all the time in First Year. “You guys are my family. I love you more than life.”
“Oh,” Peter says softly. His face twists, just for a moment, full of something anguished and sad. James bites his lip; he’s not sure what’s troubling Peter tonight.
“So,” he mutters, looking down fondly at Harry. “Halloween. His favourite.”
Peter cracks a smile. “Wonder how they’re doing without us.”
“Hogwarts?” James laughs. “No charmed floating pumpkins, or bats - “
Peter looks almost wistful. He stares back down at Harry, then back up at James. “Will Sirius and Remus be here tomorrow?”
“Yeah,” James says, and he could have sworn that same anguished expression crossed Peter’s face. “You sure you can’t make it? We have enough food and Harry would love it - “
“No,” Peter says. He slowly gets to his feet - it’s late, the clock striking 11 in the corner of the room. “I better go,” he says, gently handing Harry to James.
James nods. He cradles Harry against his chest, smiling as he yawned in his sleep. “Bye. Thanks for coming, Wormy. And for...for everything. I don’t know if I said that enough. Thank you.”
Peter nods. He reaches out, pulls James into a hug, brushes his fingers over Harry’s face.
“Goodbye, James,” he says, and then the door closes behind him.