Words

Hello! I have started writing the words that come into my head and I’ll be posting the the sacred few that rhyme and make sense.

[wordsalotofthem]

First time in a medical ward as a doctor and all I felt was guilt. Pure guilt. How do I get to have so much and these people are suffering and struggling for everything? How come their problems comprise only a couple of hours of my day but are their whole life? The only thing I wish for is that the way I know the world would end. The way things are meant to be, designed to be, strategised to be.

[wordsalotofthem]

falling

breaking

shattering

collapsing

drowning

dissolving

[wordsalotofthem]

how did I become my mother’s fears?

[wordsalotofthem]

they tell me you don’t love me

they tell me you don’t care

so tell me this

why are your eyes telling me something their words aren’t?

[wordsalotofthem]

I am sick of everything being my fault.

[broken-depressed-hearts]

I know I've said it a thousand times but I'm so lonely that it hurts. The kind of alone that weights on your chest and makes you wanna cry even though you have no energy to cry anymore so you just lay in bed and wonder how can your life mean so little to everyone and even to yourself

[st-a-y]

[wordsalotofthem]

“ Cause you weren’t mine to lose”

-T.S

[wordsalotofthem]

“I am happy. I am so happy right now . Take a picture of me so when the walls close in again, when the tower shatters again and the castle crumbles again, I’ll look at this picture and remember that there was a moment when I was happy. And what is life if not a collection of such moments?”

[wordsalotofthem]

I didn't love you then and I don't love you now but I thought of you then and I think of you now.

[wordsalotofthem]

Loneliness is a void, a vacuum. It can never be filled. It pulls and pulls and you’ll forever be left feeling empty. And alone. So alone. Even if you spend a few hours with people, you’ll return to it. Always. Ironically, it is your most valuable companion because it never betrays you. It is persistent and indispensable.

[wordsalotofthem]

I wish I had realised it was love, when it was love.

[wordsalotofthem]

How can we forgive people for the words they meant?

[wordsalotofthem]

I feel like I am falling

I fall and fall

In my past, in my future

Everyday, every moment

Every few months I feel like I am better again

I feel like I have started recovering

I feel joyful, I feel hopeful

Most importantanlty; I feel

But it all ends

As it always does

And I find myself falling again

Because I was never not falling

I slowed down but didn’t stop

But it’s okay

Because falling is just like flying

Except there is a more permanent destination

[wordsalotofthem]

- The ministry of utmost happiness

P.s The stanza or “shair”, as it is called in South Asia, is actually Mir Taqi Mir’s who was a poet who lived in the era of British occupation of the subcontinent.

[wordsalotofthem]

- The ministry of utmost happiness

P.s The stanza or “shair”, as it is called in South Asia, is actually Mir Taqi Mir’s who was a poet who lived in the era of British occupation of the subcontinent.

[fuckthisbloganditscurses]

Happiness Will Come To You.

[12goblins]

when tho

[fuckthisbloganditscurses]

When You Least Expect It. Probably Late March

[wizardshark]

reblog for happiness to come for you in late march!

[wordsalotofthem]

can’t do March now. Gotta reschedule