Thoughts and paper

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Love is not possession, it's wishing them best even if you know you won't have them ever.

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Maybe someday, our paths will cross again

Heartbeats may sync, or maybe not at all

Time will tell, when the hurt subsides

We'll find love again, or so we hope

Perhaps we'll heal, and move on

Find solace in new arms, new love

Maybe memories of us will fade

And the past we shared, will be just a haze

But now, our minds are in turmoil

Hearts shattered, love turned to pain

We cling to what we had, though it's lost

And wonder, was it ever truly love, or just a balm to heal our scars?

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[wordsofbz]

You can't hide from faith. That's the funny thing about destiny, even if you try to escape it, it will always find you.

-Satan's Affair-

[wordsofbz]

I feel homesick for the person I can depend on, the one who will be my emotional support, my rock, my safe haven. I long for someone who will make me feel protected, someone I can run to on bad days, someone who will be my warmth and comfort. I yearn for someone who will love me unconditionally, despite knowing my flaws, someone I can cry to without fear of judgment. I crave someone who will be my light in the darkness, someone who will help me conquer my inner demons, someone who will give me the courage to face the world. I seek someone who will accept my dark side, even when I struggle to accept it myself, someone who won't make false promises. I dream of someone who will stand up for me, someone who will help me believe in love and fairytales again, someone who will help me heal my trust issues. I'm searching for someone I can call home.

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I don't want to die I just want to disappear as if I never existed

Fade away from the memories of those who care,

or maybe become particles floating in the air,

or maybe just dissolve in the water floating everywhere and getting nowhere,

or just become something with no existence,

I just want to fade away.

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Time may heal like cracks in a wall,

But echoes of hurt in muscles recall.

~bz~

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I have been merely surviving all this time, with no hope of truly living. I don't know when, or if, I will ever be able to escape this desolate existence.

~bz~

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The pain in my heart grows stronger each day as I long to see you again. I know we'll meet again someday, but until then, I'll keep you close in my heart. Please don't forget the love that we shared, and know that I'll be waiting for you.

~bz~

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We all are running after something

We are just prisoners of our desires.

~bz~

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This year I learned a lot, I went through heartbreaks just to learn nobody will love me as I love myself, nobody is going to take care of me as I take care of myself. I learned to appreciate my imperfections. I healed my wounds with my love and compassion. I took care of myself just like I took care of others who only wounded me, left me with scars and pain. I went through several ups and downs just to realize that it's all a part of life, some days will be disastrous, some will be delightful and giving up is never an option. I learned that whatever the circumstances are my happiness should never be compromised. This year I made myself a priority. I learned to be kind to myself. I learned to live the little happy moments and I'm still learning but this year I found myself and every pain was worth it. Goodbye to the year that made me realize my self-worth and I am more than willing to enter this next chapter of my life.

~bz

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"And then I realized the happiness I've been searching for in others, lies within me."

~bz

[wordsofbz]

I notice everything

But I don't say,

they ask why

I always push them away,

I stay quiet,

it's hard for me to open

My heart is a mess,

my head in commotion

It's hard to speak,

when your heart only bleeds

They say they'll stay

But I know they'll leave

I tried to change

But it was all futile

I tried to love

But they were so brutal

They say they love me,

will listen to my words

It was all fake,

they showed me afterwards

I lost all the trust and all the love

Now it's me and my depression

and trapped emotions

I lost myself in all this sadness

I am hopelessly,

awaiting happiness.

~BZ

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All they do is break me up and then ask me 'what's wrong?' Trying to be considerate, but in reality, they just want someone to laugh at, someone to whom they can pass on their critical views, someone weak to have a feeling of superiority, to crush the feelings of the person suffering. These people don't care about playing around with others feelings. So I keep quiet because I don't want them to make a joke out of me. I don't want them to think of me as a vulnerable person. My heart endures all the pain and all the suffering, it wants to talk about all the trapped emotions, but fear criticism of people. I'm drowning in nothingness and hoping for the time when I'll be happy too.

~BZ

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I want to cry and vent but there's nobody who'll listen.

[wordsofbz]

Life gets so tough with a past full of regrets.

~bz

[wordsofbz]

Every person suffers, some people lose the challenge that life imposes on them while some give it all and savour the victory that is worth suffering. After the fall, you will understand the pleasure of going above and beyond, only after suffering will you realize that you are not as weak as you thought, you are strong, you have outlived all afflictions, you survived that days of intense crying while holding your aching heart while covering your mouth so as not to make a noise, while wishing to be non-existent, wishing for the pain to just vanish, wishing your soul to depart from this awful body, but look at you now, are you not the one who has endured all this misery but still subsisting? It's because you are strong, strong enough to exist because a lot of people deteriorate in their agony. Just remember that nothing is insurmountable, you just have to be patient and everything will fall where it belongs. Remember to be proud of yourself even if you are merely existing.

~BZ

[wordsofbz]

You fall,

you rise

it's just a part of life

You cry,

you laugh

feelings cannot hide

You agonize,

then heal

it's just a matter of time

Be proud,

be sturdy

live the way you like.

~BZ