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| alexis • 21• she/her | ｡･:*:･ﾟ★ • scorpio • sad, petty & kinda gay • nana osaki stan • i relate to hachi komatsu a little too much • struggling college student

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Hello & Welcome!

I’m Alexis, a somewhat mentally ill, emotionally unstable teenager with mild adhd and likes drinking copious amounts of tea or water- there’s no in-between. I’m a graduate senior and soon to be college student and i have issues i don’t really acknowledge, and instead attempt to hyper fixate on comforting movies, shows and fanfiction.

First off, this blog is my safe space for my rants, discussions (more like complaints honestly) related to my mental health, my only success to my achievements: procrastination and has mentions of eating disorder related things (especially in the tags of most posts). I have a self identifying binge eating disorder. To make this clear: i’m not pro ana for anyone but myself. Pro recovery for everyone! Recovery is important and please seek help, please don’t do what I do.

Secondly, there’s some talks on political issues (mainly from the standpoint of a black american) such as blm as well as other political issues and important issues in general. Other than that my blog is a mess of everything listed above. No hate or anything i’d tolerated so please don’t spread it on my blog, thanks.

This blog is mainly to vent and to push myself to deal with my problems and also acts as a diary of sorts for some things. And serves as a way to keep me focused and somewhat sane especially in the current climate.

Thanks for reading!

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overthinking and pondering (what’s new) and i’ve come to the conclusion that i might potentially be a lesbian and i’m currently in crisis bc everyone knew but me

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kinda starting to realize that being friends with shitty ppl isn’t good for me

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i left them and became friends with ppl who like actually are like cool?? and nice?? and don’t test me like an afterthought??? crazy 😭

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after finals my new goal is to actually post my fanfics instead of keeping them in the drafts bc it’s been a while

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every time i come back to my little corner of the internet i question (and flip a coin to see) if its bc of a hyper fixation or bc i’m like yeah let’s share my problems bc no one i know irl will see this and honestly still don’t knw but i feel like harvest dent sooooo it’s a win or sorts

[thecollectibles]

Princess Mononoke - Fan art by Julia Tveritina

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there’s just something about having a therapy session after three weeks and like having nothing to talk about because you’ve already discussed it with yourself and like it’s an issue. but then your therapist asks how your anxiety is and like then you can talk and who knew anxiety could be an ice breaker? like that’s crazyyyy…

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But if I gave up on being pretty

I wouldn't know how to be alive

I should move to a brand new city

And teach myself how to die

[xtiitaniia-deactivated20240122]

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saw a tweet yesterday that was basically blatant biphobia. like it’s literally the first days of pride month and the biphobia is already in full swing :/

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like how are you gonna make a tweet very clearly abt wlw and then exclude bisexuals?? it’s literally pride month and like so unnecessary 🫠

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saw a tweet yesterday that was basically blatant biphobia. like it’s literally the first days of pride month and the biphobia is already in full swing :/

[teathattast]

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i’m not cut out for college bc why have i pulled all nighters over the course of a week so i study for my exams like wdym i have to do three more years of this??

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just wondering if i was a bit of a strange child w my interests (hyper-fixations) or like if it was something more

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i feel like i use my blog the way i want to use my twitter but don’t bc i don’t want ppl to find my twitter bc yk judgement yet i’m totally fine w ppl finding my tumblr bc i know they probably won’t see me differently (at least until they get to the ed stuff)

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i think it’s funny how i said ‘oh no i forgot my birth control’ and my friend said ‘don’t worry ur not getting any dick anyways’ like that kinda hurt- she’s not wrong tho- but like i need it to manage my hormonal imbalance soooo

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Ke Huy Quan wins the Oscar for Best Supporting Actor for Everything Everywhere All at Once