, god itâs been a while. I gotta clean so much shit up,
also try to remember what the fuck my tagging system here was. goddamn.
...would it be easier to just completely redo with a new blog. I think I might just do that.

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let's talk about Bridgerton tea, my ask is open
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, god itâs been a while. I gotta clean so much shit up,
also try to remember what the fuck my tagging system here was. goddamn.
...would it be easier to just completely redo with a new blog. I think I might just do that.
, god itâs been a while. I gotta clean so much shit up,
also try to remember what the fuck my tagging system here was. goddamn.
psa
no one fucking tells you this so here it is:
when signing out forms to apply for disability / filling out a form for diagnosis
youâre supposed to fill it out as you on your worst days
like, I filled out forms that said I could do most things usually
like, my doctor added in the conditions like âyeah, they can feed themselves when not stressedâ âthey can do this when not stressedâ
but how I should have filled it out was more like
âsome days I canât feed myselfâ âsome days I canât leave the houseâ
My doctor didnât even know this, but I talked to someone who had worked with people with both developmental and intellectual disabilities for a number of years, and she told me to write down how it is for your bad days
this should be a thing they tell you, but it isnât
part of the reason I didnât get my autism diagnosis as soon as I should have is because I filled out forms wrong!
This also goes for filling out forms for disabled parking rights. Iâve been rejected multiple times for a pass cause I didnât find this out till recently.
Also youâre generally supposed to fill it out as you are without help.
That throws me too. Because the more help I get, the more capable I get. Itâs easy to forget what happens when the help falls away even partially let alone completely.
Hero Rats
@jitterbugjive
THEYâRE SO CUTE AND GOOD AND SMART AND HAVE JOB
Iâll always reblog hero rats!
this same species is also trained to identify tuberculosis in samples by smell, meaning they can test for TB at a rapid rate with a high accuracy :)
The organization that trains the rats is APOPOÂ
You can sponsor a rat and you will get adorable personalized emails telling you how well âyourâ rat is doing! I did this for my sister a few years ago and sheâs still getting emails about Martok the HeroRatâs mine-clearing successes and called it the best gift ever.
SPONSORÂ AÂ RAT
Here is the page for a pop rat sponsorship!
If you donât have means to a therapist or mental health professional
Check out therapistaid.com. Thereâs worksheets there that you can download for free.
Of course it would be a lot more beneficial if you have a therapist to help you through it but not everyone has access to one.
Itâs a free site where you can have free downloads of worksheets on many things.
If thereâs something there that you think would be helpful, print it out and complete the worksheet on your own.
Itâs hard to be accountable for yourself but at least thereâs a way for you to have some insight and work on yourself.
Also if you use these in conjunction with the app Wysa
therapistaid is great, i get resources from there to use with my clients. here are some others
https://psychologytools.com/
https://www.getselfhelp.co.uk/
https://www.actmindfully.com.au/free_resources_worksheets,_handouts_and_book_chapters
https://www.anxietybc.com/
http://www.cci.health.wa.gov.au/resources/consumers.cfm
http://www.dbtselfhelp.com/
Thank you.
Seconding Wysa. I love that little owl.
Your mental health is important. There are people that can help you, even if you canât help yourself.
In honor of Day of the Dead, hereâs a repost of my comic about the San Francisco Columbarium and the man who spent 26 years restoring it.
This comic originally appeared on Medium at The Nib. Go check out my other work there.
Emmitt and the Columbarium.
fucks sake
god dammit
Okay now which one is clearer? 1?
or 2?
Maybe just take off the glasses!?
This spoke to my soul wth
I feel attacked.
Ripleyâs favorite phrase this week has been âwhatâs this?â which he mostly says about food, but also sometimes just to get us talking about whateverâs in our hands. If he says âwhatâs this?â while holding something in his feet, we tell him about whatever heâs holding.
Just now he started asking âwhatâs this? whatâs this? whatâs this?â while staring worriedly behind the couch. I said âI dunnoâ because I wasnât sure if he was actually asking about anything in particular. Maybe he meant the couch? The darkness behind it? The marimo next to the couch?
Then he said, âitâs wood?â which I figured he was saying because I had been making him a toy from wood blocks a moment ago. So I said, âIâm not holding wood anymore.â
But he kept staring intently over the arm of the couch, so I had to go over and see what he meant.
It was a gourd.
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nothing to see here folks just the SAILOR MOON FANDOM BRINGING THEIR A GAME WITH THE FAN ART AS USUAL
My face is having uncontrollable spasms. Great. It hurts really, really, really bad.
I think part of why I have trouble explaining pain to the doctor is when they ask about the pain scale I always think âWell, if someone threw me down a flight of stairs right now or punched me a few times, it would definitely hurt a lot moreâ so I end up saying a low number. I was reading an article that said that â10â is the most commonly reported number and that is baffling to me. When I woke up from surgery with an 8" incision in my body and I could hardly even speak, I was in the most horrific pain of my life but I said â6â because I thought âWell, if you hit me in the stomach, it would be worse.â
I searched and searched for the post this graphic was from, and the OP deactivated, but I kept the graphic, because my BFF does the same thing, uses her imagination to come up with the worst pain she can imagine and pegs her â10âł there, and so is like, well, Iâm conscious, so this must be a 5, and then the doctors donât take her seriously. (And she then does things like driving herself to the hospital while in the process of giving birth. Probably should have called an ambulance for that one!)
So I found this and sent it to her. Because this is what they want to know: how badly is this pain affecting you? Not on a scale of ânothingâ to âhow Iâd imagine itâd feel if bears were eating my still-living guts while I was on fireâ.Â
I hate reposting stuff, but Iâll never find that post again and OP is deactivated, so, hereâs a repost. I can delete this later, i just wanted to get it to you and I canât embed images in a chat or an ask.Â
This is possibly why it took several weeks to diagnose my fractured spine.
Pain Scale transcription:
10 - I am in bed and I canât move due to my pain. I need someone to take me to the emergency room because of my pain.
9 - My pain is all that I can think about. I can barely move or talk because of my pain.
8 - My pain is so severe that it is difficult to think of anything else. Talking and listening are difficult.
7 - I am in pain all the time. It keeps me from doing most activities.
6 - I think about my pain all of the time. I give up many activities because of my pain.
5 - I think about my pain most of the time. I cannot do some of the activities I need to do each day because of the pain.
4 - I am constantly aware of my pain but can continue most activities.
3 - My pain bothers me but I can ignore it most of the time.
2 - I have a low level of pain. I am aware of my pain only when I pay attention to it.
1 - My pain is hardly noticeable.
0 - I have no pain.
Itâs also really important to get this kind of scale to people who have chronic pain, because chronic pain drastically lowers your perception of how âbadâ any kind of pain actually is, and yet something like this pain scale is extremely user friendly.Â
For example, if someone asked me how much pain Iâm in at any given time, Iâd say hardly any, and yet Iâm apparently at a chronic 2.5, and it only goes up from there depending on the day.Â
Thereâs also a similarly useful âFatigue Scaleâ
I havenât been below a 5 on this scale for 4 yearsÂ
Hereâs the fatigue scale
That exact pain scale is what got me to finally talk to my doctor about what we now suspect is endometriosis (the diagnostic process requires surgery, so as long as birth control keeps working weâre not going to pursue a formal diagnosis.)
I was rating my menstrual cramps around a 3-5 for exactly the reason op describes. âIt could be worse.â After finding this scale, I realized my pain was hitting a 7 nearly every month. Itâs been as high as a 9 on several occasions.
(For reference, now that Iâm on birth control, my cramps are sitting comfortably in the 2-3 range. So itâs not, as I told myself for several years while not seeking help, that I canât handle a normal amount of pain. I just chronically understate it because I always tried to compare my pain to hypothetical worst case scenarios.)
Lifeâs Lil Pleasures Vol. 1 & 2 by Evan Lorenzen
so now Iâm wondering if slight malfunctions in this is what causes deja vu
imma say it. âkung fu pandaâ did more for body positivity and saying that  you can be fat and still be healthy and liked than ANYTHING any beauty companies trying to get your money.
kfp also respects women more than any beauty company too.
It also did âletting go of physical attatchmentsâ MUCH better than certain other franchises did, as @tyrantisterror can clarify.
Well Iâm not really an expert on that subject but people have yelled at me about it a lot so Iâll try my best.
Ok so, as many tumblr Buddhists and Star Wars prequel apologists have informed me recently, âletting go of attachmentsâ is supposed to mean that you donât let your love for others or yourself to become obsessive. Itâs sort of a combination âif you love it set it freeâ and accepting that bad things can happen without dwelling on them - an acceptance that you canât be in control of everything, and that the world doesnât revolve around you.
In Kung Fu Panda 2, Po, compassionate and heroic though he may be, is weighed down by a great deal of anxiety about his life. He still isnât sure if he really deserves to be treated as a hero, he discovers he was adopted and is filled with anxiety about his family, and just as heâs finally making friends with his fellow martial artists a threat rises that is trying to kill them all. Poâs friends, family, and very sense of self are threatened in this story.
His antagonist, Lord Shen, is a perfect foil for him. Shen was born into a wealthy family that was renowned for making fireworks, but wants to use that technology to make canons and guns - weapons that, in the world of this story, are unthinkably powerful - which he can then use to conquer all of China. He is warned that if pursues this scheme that a hero of black and white - a panda, he assumes - will rise to kill him. Rather than pursue a less horrible goal, Shen opts to wipe out all the Pandas in China. Horrified at what he has done, Shenâs parents exile him from their family home, and later die of grief.
Yet despite being given palpable evidence that his current course is wrong, Shen remains committed to his mad dream. He refuses to question the morality of his actions, or accept the consequences of it. He paints his parents as traitors who rebuked his love of him, believing that they were the ones who wronged him by exiling him rather than supporting his ambitions. After all, wouldnât his plan have benefited them as well? Did they not see that he was trying to bring glory to his family, to increase their wealth and status? Did they not see how special and important and perfect he was?
Shen is defined by his attachments. He obsesses over what he feels he is owed, what he deserves, and is incapable of seeing any of his own actions as wrong as a result. Heâs incapable of accepting the consequences of his mistakes, even when they cost him things he loves and values. Every setback he faces canât be accepted as an accident or a result of his own mistakes - it HAS to be a result of other peoplesâ faults, of some monstrous conspiracy to keep him from claiming his rightful place.
He assumes others think like this as well. When Po finally confronts Shen, Shen assumes Po would be furious and vengeful at him for, yâknow, exterminating Poâs race. The fact that Po is unaware of their personal connection is amusing to him, and being the egotist that he is, Shen canât help taunting Po about it.
When Po finally presses Shen to tell him what Shen knows about his family, Shen tells a horrible lie.  â Oh, you want to know so badly? You think knowing will heal you, eh? Fill some⊠crater in your soul? Well, hereâs your answer: your parents didnât love you.â Interestingly, this exact lie is what Shen has told himself to justify his actions - he knows how much it hurts to believe your parents hated you, how much of a betrayal that is, how much you suffer when someone youâre attached to does not share the sentiment, and tries to trick Po into suffering the same way.
Of course, we learn that this is false for both Po and Shen - Shenâs parents did love him, and were killed by the grief of what they allowed their son to become.
By Shenâs logic, Po should be consumed with grief and anger over what Shen has taken of him. Shen expects Po to be just as deranged and vicious as he is - he expects Po to be broken.
Instead, when Po learns the truth, including what Shen has taken from him, Po⊠letâs go. He letâs go of the sorrow. of the anger, of the grief. He letâs go because he knows he was loved and, more importantly, is loved. He letâs go because he knows that while there are bad times, there are also good times. He letâs go because he knows he canât control the past. He canât control what happened to his mother or to his people. He canât control Shenâs actions. The past is history - itâs the here and now, the present, that matters. Po has people he loves and who loves him, and he has the opportunity to act on their behalf now.
Shen:Â How did you find peace? I took away your parents. Everything! I Iâ I scarred you for life!
Po:Â See thatâs the thing, Shen. Scars heal.
Shen: No, they donât. Wounds heal.
Po: Oh yeah. What do scars do? They fade, I guess?
Shen: I donât care what scars do.
Po: You should, Shen. You gotta let go of that stuff from the past âcause it just doesnât matter! The only thing that matters is what you choose to be now.
Even after learning everything that Shen has taken from him, Po tries to heal and teach Shen during their final battle. He doesnât dwell on the grief, he doesnât succumb to hatred, he simply tries to stop the violence by any means, the ideal way would be to change Shenâs mind rather than to kill him. Shen ultimately forces Po to fight back, and in the process kills himself. Shen was the warrior of black and white who spelled his own doom all along.
But Po isnât the best example of a character letting go of attachments in the Buddhist sense that this series has to offer. No, the best, most literal example, would be Master Oogway.
In the first Kung Fu Panda movie, Oogway selects what is, essentially, an heir to his role as the ultimate master of Kung Fu. His choice is Po, which surprises everyone since Po is a big, out-of-shape noodle vender, and has no training in kung fu. Yet Oogway is confident that Po is the correct choice, even though everyone else, including his greatest student Master Shifu, insists it was an accident.  âThere are no accidents,â Oogway says to Shifu, âYou must learn to let go of the illusion of control.â
Oogwayâs final words to Shifu are to accept that, while we can affect important change in the world, we cannot control everything - that we have to work with what we are given, and accept that things will not go the way we expect or want them to. His plea for Shifu to believe in Po is also a plea to try and work with the situation as it is, instead of stubbornly trying to force it back into the plan that Shifu had concocted in his head.
And when Shifu agrees to do so, Oogway lets go in the exact way Buddha intended - he leaves the material plane and ascends to a higher existence.
In Kung Fu Panda 3, Po briefly ascends to the same spiritual realm that Oogway currently resides in, and Oogway explains how he knew Po would live up to his legacy - how he saw the past, present, and future of Kung Fu in Po, and knew that the world would be safe in the pandaâs hands. Oogwayâs last attachment to the physical world was his concern for its safety in his absence, and since Po could and would ensure its safety, Oogway was finally ready to let go completely.
Completely letting go of attachments does not work for a traditional heroâs narrative, because the concept isnât about heroism - itâs not meant to be, either. Itâs a philosophy geared towards breaking the cycle of reincarnation, and transcending the problems of a mortal life. Letting go of attachments is what you do to prepare to die, not what you do to prepare for a fight with the Evil Empire.
But letting go of some attachments can be used in a heroic narrative, which is what the Kung Fu Panda series does. It applies Buddhist and Taoist philosophies to a heroic story in a way that makes sense and stays true to both, because it was written by people who are much smarter than George Lucas.
bro tf most people are snickering about sniddies here you got a full on heavily sourced essay on thisâŠ.hello take my post???
Thank you! Iâm just very fond of Kung Fu Panda.
Anime cliches I miss because they donât really do them any more
The sweatdrop
Liberal use of the V sign, even in situations that did not call for it and does not require a camera to be present.
Falling over because someone said or did something so incredibly stupid it made you lose all strength and will to live.
When they do the anime face thing
Making characters squishy
the dignity laugh
theres a special place in my heart for the dignity laugh
This is the first 100% pure and good post Iâve seen on this hellsite in years
Hello! I saw that sometimes the rank up givesyou 50 dias. Which ranks do give them?
50 dias seem to come alternately with premium medals. I do have notes at home on my netbook but Iâm out right now so I canât check until then. Will update.
We have a list on the wiki!
"The Average Fourth Grader Is A Better Poet Than You, (And Me Too)," Hannah Gamble
While in graduate school at the University of Houston, I supplemented my income by working as a writer in residence for Writers in the Schools (WITS). I was with WITS for three years, during which I visited third, fourth, and fifth grade classrooms, and worked with groups of students visiting the Menil museum of art, the Houston Historical Society, and the Houston Arboretum.
When first hired by WITS, I expected that working to explain some of my favorite poems to fourth graders would result in me becoming a better teacher of poetry. What I wasnât expecting was that (thanks to having my brain blown apart on a weekly basis as I browsed my studentsâ folders of barely legible poems) I would become a better poet.
Here are some lines written by students in grades 3rd-6th:
âThe life of my heart is crimson.â
[Writing about a family memberâs recent death:]
âMy brother went down/ to the river and put dirt on.â
âPeace be a song, silver pool of sadnessâ
âAway went a dull winter wind that rocked harshly, and bent you said, âFather, fatherâ.â Â
[Writing about a terminal illness:]
âI am feeling burdened and I taste milkâŠâŠ I mumble, âPlease, please run away.â But it lives where I live.â
âThe owls of midnight hoot like me shutting the door to nothing.â
[Writing about life as a movie:]
âThe choir enters, and the director screams âSing with more terror!!!ââ
 âI have provisions. Binary muffins. Itâs an in/out/in/out kind of universe. We cannot help you, this is a universe factory. A sound of rolling symbols. Disappearing rocks, screams of lizards. Sanity must prevail. Save vs. Do Not.â
âI, the star god, take bones from the underworlds of past times to create mankind.â
These young writers are addressing subjects that still obsess poets fifty years older: sadness, death, love, responsibility, aging, family, loneliness, and refugeâŠand they are addressing these subjects in language that is new, and thus has the power to emotionally effect a well-seasoned (/jaded) reader. The average fourth grader is able to do this because she hasnât been alive long enough to know how to do it (and by âitâ I mean talk about the world) any other way.
Story time: When I was a child I believed that one day I might be allowed to cross into an alternate dimension by walking through a quilt hanging on my living room wall. As I got older I stopped believing that this was a possibilityânot because I grew to believe that the universe was not an extremely strange place where incomprehensible things could happen on a daily basis, but because I passed year after year after year not being able to enter the spirit realm through a wallhanging.
Anecdote that I hope youâll find relevant: When Jean Piaget began studying the intellectual processes of children, he was not doing so because he had any special interest in children. Piaget was interested, rather, in the intellectual processes of (adult) humans and was seeking a control group. [His first thought was that the best control group would be comprised of martians but, as he did not have access to martians, he decided to use children since children possessed what is farthest from human consciousness.]
So letâs look at what happens to our young writers as they age [I took these lines from poems written by middle-school/ high school students (Italics, mine)]:
 Snacking on this and that my friends and I keep the party going even when it is overâ Â
âWhispers of a secret crush being unraveledâ
âIâm trapped in this hole that I canât break throughâ
âBarack Obama in the White House. I can feel the inspiration Can you feel it?â
âNow I feel secure with my head held high.
Sad times. By middle school/high school, the average student has learned how normal people talk. The resulting language is underwhelming and predictableâthe safe regurgitations of a thoroughly socialized consciousness.
While the average older studentâs poems are heavy with allegiance to a limited view of reality, the average younger writerâs vision of the world is nimble and surprisingâbazaar, yet true.
Last year I spent every Saturday tutoring an extremely undersocialized kid in vocab. When I taught her the word blandishments (âto flatter, coax, sweet-talk, appeal toâ) she wrote this sentence: âThe blandishments of the sugar flowers made the cake so much more inviting.â
The sentence is interesting because the student understood that a blandishment is something that attracts favorable attention without fully realizing that people almost always use the word to refer to a human action.
The poetâs job is to forget how people do it.
(source)
Never has such a short line of text completely broken my heart like âmy brother went down to the river / and put dirt onâ
daystarsearcher
adults often forget how complex and intense the emotional lives of children are. i do too, sometimes. thatâs part of why stuff like this is so important, a reminder that while yes, kids are kids and do kid stuff, their lives are not necessarily easy.