Re: new hit or miss chapter.
Genuinely can not fathom what was going on in Shaneās beautiful mysterious mind to make him ask Ilya for help hooking up with other men WHILE IN BED with Ilya lmao. Dude I fear that is almost unforgivably dense š. My sweet baby Ilya constantly flighting for his life against the jealously.
Also Iād give my left kidney, first born, and entire 401K to know what Shaneās reaction to waking up and finding out Ilya had emergency surgery without him knowing. I think David and Yuna may never get forgiven for not waking him up lolol.
the answer is that shane was feeling snuggly and comfortable and fond and relaxed and content
but thinks that this is because he is Doing Casual Sex Wrong
shane feels guilty because being in bed with ilya feels so good, and he thinks he feels more about it than he should, and he feels like he's getting away with something because ilya doesn't know he feels attached. (shane, for the love of god.)
so what can he do? practice casual sex. obviously. women he knows how to find (he gets numbers.) (he doesn't call them, but he gets them.), but he doesn't know how one picks up men. you know who does, though? ilya. ilya who is clearly a professional when it comes to casual sex.
and maybe it's even a good thing! ilya will see that shane is also interested in other people and isn't getting attached! he'll understand that shane is also SO fucking casual about this! just bros who fuck helping a bro find another bro to fuck. so bro. so casual.
and also the great irony of it is that shane internally is SO nervous about it. like i think a few comments (courtesy of the chapter being only ilya pov and ilya looking through Jealousy Glasses) think shane is just going buckwild and doesn't care and isn't anxious, but he is. like he wants to go specifically *with ilya* because this is something that he doesn't know how to do and is nervous about doing wrong, and ilya makes him feel calm and has experience in this, so double whammy of emotional support hookup and Certified Expert At This Thing. he goes out with ilya because if it goes wrong, ilya is there to have his back if needed. he trusts ilya implicitly and gets a lot of security at having him there if he fucks up at this.
but ooooh noooooooooooo. no one interested. so sad. just had to fuck ilya. oh no definitely not totally fine with this happening.
shane was under the impression that they were both looking to pick up. he would have been killing that person with his mind it would have been good practice of being chill with the fact that he and ilya both fuck other people. and it's so chill.
(and yeah, shane was not happy to wake up and half of the people who were there when he went to bed are Suddenly Gone.) (and then even more !!!!! after finding out WHY they're suddenly gone.)
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