please prepare to be PRIDEFUL! @xaliaver - Tumblr Blog

i have been here for long enough without a pinned post of my own, so awkward as it may be, here we go…

hi! i'm xaliaver, you can call me xali or dorian! i use all pronouns except feminine ones - this includes it/its and any neopronouns you can think of - but my main ones are he/it/star/fae. i prefer masculine or gender neutral terms.

!!! i am a minor !!! so please do not be creepy towards me, i will be sad :( and block you.

i'm on here fairly often, but i sometimes take a while to respond to things because apparently social exhaustion does carry over to tumblr posts. i could be online and reblogging things but not be able to answer you. sorry. i also dont do well in reblog chains, so if you want to have a conversation with me please do so in comments, asks or dms. i'm also sorry if my way of typing doesn't translate emotions well, and if i come off as rude or aggressive. sometimes i don't have the energy. if something i say comes off as rude or is ignorant in any way i am very sorry, please inform me so that i won't make the mistake again.

i do art! and writing! except i’m anxious to post any of it so you won't see it often, and i mostly reblog things and sometimes ramble about my characters (for example in the tag #esmé and elinor in which i talk about my two main blorbos at the moment).

i would love to be friends, even if we don't have much in common. just send an ask :) dm's are fine too but please explain immediately that you are not a scammer or something, a single 'hello' and then nothing will scare me off and i will block you.

i am in many fandoms and i don't really keep track of them, but some of them are tloz, lu, mcyt, epic the musical and slay the princess. i might update this list as i remember more of them, but there's a pretty big chance i won't.

(someone has finally asked about my profile picture - thank you so much for letting me ramble, amy - but further questions are still open and i’m not against repeating myself, especially because the story tends to change from time to time :])

aaaand if you’ve read down this far, congratulations! your prize is a hug :)

#what do i put in the tags for a post like this

thesecondquailry

YOU CANT HIDE || Fnafvs Animation

thesecondquailry

YOU CANT HIDE || Fnafvs Animation

thesecondquailry

YOU CANT HIDE || Fnafvs Animation

paper-mario-wiki

in case you're wondering what the greatest AMV of all time is, it's this one from 2008.

paper-mario-wiki

en-tailsgaythings

y'all need to watch this this pride month

genderkoolaid

Transmasc person here (and fully coming from a place of ignorance here), regarding your addendum to the really sweet post about how the world gets richer with transmen folks, what do you mean by amab transmen? I’m hoping this question doesn’t come off as rude, I’m just generally confused by what that means.

Not rude at all!

“trans men assigned male” can cover a few difference experiences:

Many intersex people have a complicated relationship both assigned sex and gender; there are men who were technically assigned male at some point, but then have that maleness denied throughout their life; for example, someone might be assigned male at birth, only to then be re-assigned female when it is decided that would be the “easier” assignment, forced to undergo IGM (intersex genital mutilation)* such as a clitorectomy/penectomy, and then raised as a girl. Alternatively, a man might be assigned male and raised as a boy, but goes through estrogenic puberty, grows breasts and develops hips, and thus experiences life as a man who is forcibly feminized and denied his gender identity as a man, and so feels his gender is more trans than cis.

Otherwise, many people who identify that way are nonbinary, genderqueer, and gender-non-conforming men who feel their manhood is trans, while also having been assigned male. This can be for a lot of reasons. I can say that I myself was raised as a “girl” (technically) but am multigender, have always felt any womanhood I possessed was inherently trans, and after having gone on testosterone HRT “trans woman” increasingly just made sense on every level. I am sexed by random strangers as male or female depending on the day and my presentation, and I am frequently read as a trans woman assigned male in public. My womanhood exists within the context of me also being a man, and agender and neutrois and maverique, and my body which has been reshaped by testosterone, and so there really is no context where my womanhood is cis (I am also intersex but it doesn’t play as big a role in my womanhood as it may for others). Trans men assigned male can have similar experiences, although they can have many others! Some are be plural, some are be former trans women who now feel “man, but trans” better captures their identity, some are nonbinary people who are more “man-adjacent” or have some connection to manhood (such as being gay men) while still being very much a nonbinary/genderqueer individual, etc etc.

Notably, if someone says “I am a trans man who was assigned male because xyz,” that doesn’t mean they think that being a trans man assigned female requires xyz. When I point to my multigenderedness or my androgynous body as part of my identity as a trans woman, I am not saying “being a trans woman is defined by being partially male or physically androgynous.” Rather, I am a woman who has a trans body and a trans identity, and I am also transfeminized regularly in public, so on both a personal and social level it is something that makes sense to apply to myself, although I don’t talk about it often because people have not historically been the chillest about it. But its gotten a lot more discussed as of late, and people have even started pushing away from using AGAB entirely, so I’ve decided to be a bit more open about it.

Anyways! That’s why I wanted to shout out trans men assigned male <3 I love my brothers in not being defined by what people thought of our genitals at birth, I love my brothers in transsexuality and genuinely for real changing your sex, I love my brothers in nonbinarity and genderqueerness and the experience of being binary in a nonbinary way, I love my brothers in being denied validity in the very category you were forced into because you were a weird little queer from childhood.

*AGAB language was originally coined for use in nonconsensual surgeries on intersex children, pioneered by notable monster John Money. so if this is surprising to anyone, It Really Should Not Be.

the-haiku-bot

“trans men assigned male”

can cover a few difference

experiences:

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

lastoneout

I do actually wonder if part of the reason people start believing ancient aliens type conspiracy bullshit is because they're so divorced from labor they don't understand that a bunch of guys could absolutely quarry a large rock, move it somewhere, and build something with it because that's not actually all that hard or complicated. I've seen people use a simple chisel and hammer to crack boulders the size of houses clean in half, this stuff is a skill that needs to be learned ofc, but the idea that it was impossible for humans to build large, complex, sturdy structures with relatively "primative" tools is so silly I struggle to understand how someone could believe that unless they legit have no idea how labor works.

It's the same beef I have with Fallout. I know they excuse humans being so slow to redevelop society with all "knowledge being lost in the war" but that's just...not how things work. Humans figured out construction and farming very early. There's no way for humans to truly forget how to do this stuff, especially since people survived and could preserve and share what they know. But I just cannot fathom how in 300 years no one's figured out construction or fiber arts or soap making or anything humans have historically figured out super early in the process of being human.

And the only way I can see someone write a world like that is if they either didn't care (fine, it's not real and I get digging the apocalypse vibe) or were so divorced from the process of labor and creation that they actually think those things are way too hard for someone to figure out on their own.

If you think humans couldn't do these things without being taught or helped you have a very warped idea of technological progress and human ingenuity. No one taught humans how to build and create, we figured it out on our own, and it was not just smacking rocks together until something clicked either, ancient humans were just as intelligent as modern ones, they could use logic and reasoning to figure out how to do something new based on what they already know.

Idk it's a theory anyway, but I really do think it's interesting how as a kid I def could believe doing these things is impossible for ancient humans to being an adult who knows things and literally cannot even comprehend believing any of the incredible things ancient humans can do were "impossible" in any way. It wasn't. Humans are incredible, stop underestimating us. And crack open some wiki pages or even youtube tutorials so you get a grasp of how the world works, it's good for you.

towerologia-sideblog

Archeology educator Milo Rossi in his Ancient Aliens debunked video (link under the cut)

lastoneout

You'll never guess what video inspired this post lmao

the-haiku-bot

You’ll never guess what

video inspired this

post lmao

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

graves-yard

Here’s narcoleptic Simon headcanons cause I’m so very tired. I’m so tired man. I wanna go to sleep.

Developed narcolepsy after one too many creative ways Eden and/or the COI forced him to stay awake for days on end with work.

Does not know it’s narcolepsy at all. Doesn’t know what that is. Thinks he’s just always bone dead tired all the time because that’s just what life is.

Can fall into REM sleep in under 15 minutes. He’s still a very light sleeper tho so he is acute to waking up fast. He can take up to 10 little power naps a day.

He can fall asleep doing things. He could be doing some mindless action over and over and then he leaning a little too hard to the left and has to snap himself awake.

If his mind is not being actively engaged at all times, he’s falling asleep. It helps to talk mostly, but doing any activity that requires stimulation is usually enough.

Letting out a sudden scream helps a lot.

Can 100% sleep with his eyes open sitting up straight.

Triggers are usually being warm. Not hot, but just body temp warm. A nice 77f (25c) and he’s fighting to keep his head above water. Another is just any droning motion. Repetitive and same, over and over, he’s out like a light.

For the most part, the only thing keeping him awake on the sub was the constant looming death threatening him. And he did still end up getting pulled to sleep by driving the sub around lmao.

He can’t function at all if he stays up past 10pm. 12 hours of no sleep is too much for him. His filter is gone. He’s just saying nonsense and bumping around.

“My head feels all” weird motion with his hands around his face “muddy. Like mud is in there. My body feels like mud. My mouth tastes like bones.”

Good luck giving him instructions.

Has passed out just fully on the ground before. Probably several times but it always gets foggy and he can’t remember much.

In some other universe where coffee or caffeine would be available to him, it doesn’t work. Gives him heart palpitations and the slightest bit of energy, but he is still so fucking tired.

Bonus bloodymary cause whatever

Grace is baffled by how much he sleeps and figured it was maybe a PTSD or depression thing considering his background. He only figured something else was up when he saw in real time Simon passing out doing something mindlessly boring.

He freaked out the first time Simon passed out. He worried about if he was eating or drinking enough, if he was sick with something, but Simon would come out completely fine. Armando couldn’t find anything on him. Simon would take a nap and be somewhat better when he woke up again.

“Are you always this tired??” A shrug “yeah pretty much. I thought it was normal.” Cue a heavily concerned Grace asking too many questions.

He has gotten really good at spotting when Simon needs to wake up. Talking still really helps which is great because Grace is a yapper first and foremost.

The first time he found out Simon would scream to wake himself up he just about had a heart attack. Just a loud sudden shout out of nowhere as Simon jerks back up.

He likes how silly and weird sleep deprived Simon is but still tries to get him to sleep.

kayla-wasnt-here

C.S Lewis

existennialmemes

Two seemingly contradictory beliefs that we actually must strive to hold simultaneously:

You don't owe anyone anything

Meaning: you do not have to make yourself suffer for the convenience of others

We owe each other everything

Meaning: we could not survive without each other and everything we do to help another is crucial to ensuring our own continued survival

You don't need to be a doormat, but also don't get comfortable slamming the door when you have the resources to extend a hand instead.

saintd0nna

happy pride to him

trollrider1111

Gay broke sober king 🤴

redpandarascal

in conversation about white people who go to Japan and expect their knowledge of anime to culturally carry them, I was once posed with “it’s like if there was a Japanese guy who was obsessed with spongebob and came over here and thought he could get by just communicating in spongebob quotes.” This is a false equivalence because if such a man existed we would crown him king. We’d love him. Americans would fucking love that. sometimes I get sad that this isn’t a real guy I can invite to a party.

hong--zhi--zhu

frustratedasatruar

rainbowgod666

Ok the last one got me laughing actually

redstonebug

realized that if you gave Flightgundo a hair streak for each of celestialmetals it could make the polyamorous flag....

indigobuntings

I can't believe home depot literally produced a wildly successful science fiction musical and we all just pretend it didn't happen. on one hand yes it had a boring white guy main character but like.... home depot just... Made it? And it had shit ton of box office sales? and no one even talks about this. this is like avatar (2009) all over again

indigobuntings

OK so. After a lot of frantic googling I realized this was all a dream. home depot did not in fact produce a wildly successful science fiction musical. I was on allergy meds and took a nap and my brain simply prophesized this. slightly disappointed because I wanted to watch it.