Whispering Willows ྀིྀི

18 Lost in life, constantly chasing after a feeling and missing who I was before everything ♡

[xoxo-herr]

Hellow there, recently turned 18, and haven't stopped crashing out since. I love reading, baking,animals, black cats esp, halloween, scary movies, listen to a bunch of different artists that I'm too lazy to type out.

Dead poets society, goodwill hunting, a series of unfortunate events, on my block, American horror story, hocus pocus, The conjuring, Insidious, Monster High, teenwolf, Sabrina...care bears ♡.

Love everything to do with the moon, stars and our forever expanding galaxy 🌌🌚.

I'm constantly chasing after a certain feeling I experienced once and unfortunately never again- so far, and am trying to find my place in this disgusting world.

Free Palestine, fuck Israel. If you disagree with this opinion, I wish I had a time machine to personally go back and perform a coat hanger abortion on your mom who was pregnant with you.

To the rest of you beautiful angels, Mwah Mwah Mwah! My Dm's are always open to girls, men get out of here.

Adore y'all the most ♡

xoxo-her💋

[softva]

it’s scary to me how temporary everyone is

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Posted myself for the first time after being terrified of people from irl discovering me- now I’m terrified of the pervs of tumblr that apparently are attracted to fit pics. Goddamn hate men.

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Today’s fit <3 🍂🍁

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Finished Off Campus at 3am. Felt like my 12 year old self, grinning ear to ear, with absolutely no worries. They did amazing with the show 🥹🩷

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“Distance makes the heart grow fonder”- I disagree wholeheartedly. I block the person out of my life, even without meaning too. The first day, I feel their absence, crying, gagging from the emotions clogging my throat, I feel like I could die from missing them. Then the next day, it’s like a switch flips. I remove them from my entire being. My replies get shorter, scarce, until it stops all together. I miss them with every breath, but it’s like my brain shuts down completely, shoving the love and memory of them so deep. I’ll remember them though. When the sun shines in a specific way on a summer evening. Or when the Marias play. Or when I drive past their old house knowing they’re not there anymore doing mundane tasks. I miss them. But not enough to let it consume me.

Because that’s all I know. I can’t feel emotions without them consuming me. So my brain just minimised it. To most this will seem like a gift. But it’s just a curse. To love so much and so hard, that you have to shove the feelings inside a box so they don’t destroy you. Losing people because you simply cannot stand the distance. Losing them before they choose to leave you. They live their lives thinking that you abandoned them. Which hurts, knowing you’ll carry their memory and love far longer than they’ll carry the love they had for you, before it turns into bitter hatred.

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I wish depression actually took your life without making you do it. Like cancer. I wish it didn’t drive a person to kill themselves, but did it on its own. I wish it were a true disease. I don’t want to kill myself, but how I wish it killed me. Everyday I hope. That my lungs will give out. Or my heart will stop. Or my brain will shut down. It never does. You’re just in constant pain, with the knowledge that only you can end it. But I don’t want to go to Hell. I don’t want to do it. I just wish it did it for me, you know?

Don’t know if that makes sense.

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No one talks about how hard it is to unlearn hatred towards your own self because it was taught at a young age. “Why are you insecure”- my parents hated the way I looked, therefore my siblings learned to hate it, therefore I learned to hate it as well!

[scarlet48]

I Might

MIGHT Have a Thing For Snipers

[cornishpixiedreamgirl]

ugh I miss having a girl bsf

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This genuinely might be a weird post to some. But I genuinely wish it was more normalised to talk about intimacy amongst females. Maybe it’s just the people I’m surrounded by. But everything is so taboo. Like can’t we all talk about it without being shamed. Men have it so easy, just wank to every fucking thing. I know nothing about my body

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I feel so fucking restless all the time. Like something big is supposed to happen. Like I’m supposed to be part of something MORE than what my life has led me to be.

Goddamn kill me.

[mvrdockss]

second person to pull his hair btw, he definitely likes it 👏👏

[angelluvs19]

this is the best a man has ever looked

[margottenenbaum222]

these pictures went platinum in my bedroom

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Nothing appropriate to say

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I get so immersed into certain things, people, hobbies, until one day I just snap out of it, and start hating it.

#whattheflipiswrongwithme