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I expected my cpap machine to make a dramatic difference right away but after waking up from my first night on the machine I think the experience can be described as I woke up and thought âwell I donât think I feel dramatically different but it also definitely feels like something in there has been uncloggedâ
Itâs like uh like when you finally remember to clean the hair out of the shower drain after a while. But with my general vibe.
According to my app which no is not called cpapp unfortunately I only stopped breathing 1.7 times per hour. Which might sound weird but during my sleep apnea test I stopped breathing 23.5 times per hour so as you can imagine breathing is generally better than not breathing
Iâm not talking about my health just to overshare btw. I think thereâs probably other young people out there with sleep apnea who might need to hear someone in their 20s discussing this.
Donât feel ashamed to get tested if youâre tired all the time or someone has told you that you gasp for air in your sleep. Get your shower drain unclogged.
I'm 35 and I got tested for sleep apnea in the fall and I was having OVER 50 EVENTS PER HOUR.
Got my cpap and holy shit the difference. I am actually rested when I go to bed at a reasonable time. I no longer need daily 2-4 hour naps just to function.
And I also suspect that it might be helping me not get as many colds, because that nightly airflow clears things out.
I'm really glad I have my cpap now and everything is better, but also wish I had got tested earlier, because maybe if I'd caught this sooner I wouldn't have developed some of the other health issues I deal with. But I thought I was so tired all the time because I'm a parent and autistic.
So yeah, even if you think you know why you're always tired, get tested just in case.
As someone who is chronically tired how do i go about getting tested? Do i just ask demand it at the front desk of my walk-in clinic? Or do i call someone?
Depends on your situation but a primary care doctor might know where to point you if you bring it up with them. Or if thereâs a sleep clinic near you thatâs within your insurance system you may be able to call them to ask about the process
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Dahling you simply must read this book! Itâs all about this devious little caterpillar who simply gorges himself on all manner of divine things
Heterosexual relationship culture is so alien to me and I donât know if itâs the fact Iâm not cishet or the fact Iâm autistic but I hear so many things that make me go âAm I insane or are they?â
Thereâs a lot of hate on widowers and I saw a woman say âYou cannot compete with a dead woman.â which is perhaps a reasonable statement to say if heâs constantly comparing you to his dead partner but that wasnât what the post was about. And I realized âOh my God, these people genuinely feel like theyâre constantly in competition with their spouseâs exes and the ex being dead makes them feel insecure that they cannot best her.â
Thereâs also been an uptick in the âmen and women cannot be âjustâ friendsâ rhetoric which I feel like is extremely dangerous and reflects the rise of fascism and sexism. Some of these stories of women feeling threatened by their husbandâs female best friend have some merit and others are like âI feel angry that my husband still talks to the girl he grew up next door to and she and her wife are invited to family gatherings and included in family photos sometimes. Am I right to be suspicious?â No. No youâre not. I cannot imagine being you and living with that high level of stress and paranoia and constant torment and jealousy about your husband having a positive relationship with anyone who isnât you.
okay look i know this isn't relevant to this post past the second paragraph but. here's the thing. the facts of the case are as follows:
1) I am widowed. my Beloved Wife of Blessed Memory(tm) died in 2019
2) I got together with my current partner about 18 months later
3) when I am committing acts of Foolishness my current partner loves to gesture at the sky to my dead wife, like "do you see this shit, my liege" and regularly says to me things like "[wife's name] was right about this" when my Foolishness inevitably comes back to bite me in the ass
4) this happens. all the time
more importantly:
5) my current partner is on tumblr
6) they love to incessantly send me posts
WHICH MEANS:
7) they just sent me this post with this commentary:
8) they really, really are ganging up on me with her. god help us if there's an afterlife and those two ever actually meet. "eternal rest" my ass, i will never know peace again
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Lying to themselves
Simply misinformed
Not paying attention
Has weird priorities
Assumed you knew
Hates you personally
Bad at communicating
Easily sidetracked
Will believe anything
Has weird prejudices
Just kind of dumb
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Interpreted this initially not as shelves, but as your cat having erected defensive fortifications
Neil has a habit of slowly slipping lower until his face disappears into the crook of Andrewâs neck or against his chest. he doesnât even try to hide the deep breath he draws in, filling his lungs with Andrewâs scent as though searching for the one place where nothing else in the apartment can reach him, where thereâs only Andrew. âYou smell like yourself,â he murmurs, his lips never leaving Andrewâs skin. âWere you expecting someone elseâs?â Andrew asks, absentmindedly combing his fingers through Neilâs curls. Neil only answers with a quiet grunt, shaking his head before burrowing even closer. again and again, he makes the same tiny adjustments, clumsily trying to melt into Andrew without disturbing him, until Andrew finally lets out a quiet sigh. âYouâve got ten minutes.â Itâs all the permission Neil needs. the very next second, his legs are hopelessly tangled with Andrewâs, his arms wrapped securely around Andrewâs lower back as he presses every inch of himself as close as physically possible. soon, the only part of him still visible is the crown of red hair tucked beneath Andrewâs chin. âJunkie.â Andrew rolls his eyes, thoroughly trapped in a position that isnât particularly comfortable, but at least Neil finally stops squirming. the top of Neilâs head rests directly beneath Andrewâs lips, making it almost inevitable that he scatters a few absentminded kisses there as they talk. eventually, Andrew shifts, sliding a hand beneath Neilâs back before rolling him fully underneath him, pinning him gently between the mattress and his own body as he settles his weight on top. the moment Andrewâs scent completely overwhelms every other smell in the room, Neil lets out a muffled, deeply content little âYeahâŠâ as his hands instinctively stroke Andrewâs back and sides. Andrew isnât entirely sure whether that quiet âyeahâ is Neilâs response to being called a junkie or something slipped out from his unconscious mind, but judging by the way Neil melts beneath him, he clearly prefers this position. resting his chin atop Neilâs head, Andrew presses another lingering kiss into his hair, breathing in the clean scent left behind by Neilâs evening shower. âIâll make it twenty,â he murmurs quietly. âif it's too hardâwheeze." Neilâs arms only tighten more firmly around Andrewâs waist locking them together, making it perfectly clear that he couldnât care less about the discomfort if it means holding onto this moment for just a little longer.
Shout out to Linda. The he/him asexual woman from my psychology quiz from a few years ago
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