I‘ve dug two graves for us my dear @yourbitchboobs - Tumblr Blog

All I ever will be is someone that’ll kill me,a parasitic headfuck.

#sad quotes #tw depressing stuff #depressionen #depressing quotes

#bulimiii #mentally tired #sad quotes #tw depressing stuff #depressionen #mentally insane #mentally unstable #bipolar #social anxiety #psychogenic non epileptic seizures #sad post

“I feel vulnerable and stupid,waiting for a new embarrassment to go and tear right through me.”

“Did I forget your name or ade a joke and no one laughed.Did I come across as stupid or did I come too fast?This isn’t a brave face,this isn’t a brave face.This is a mask.”

“Now I remember,It doesn’t take much to make me feel small.”

Crywank

#poetry #song quotes #crywank #song #music

“It’s not cool being lonely,not cool being cold,not cool being someone you wouldn’t want to know.”

-Crywank

#poetry #crywank #songtext #song quotes

quotefeeling

“The idea of not being a kid anymore terrifies me. I am an adult and I have been hurled out of the world of boys and girls into the fray of men and women, and expected to function as a grown-up when I never functioned very well as a kid.”

— Kelley York

No one Talks about what happens when you’re mentally ill and you have health problems.

The other night I fainted in a club and then had a seizure.I woke up in the ambulance and they immediately asked me if I have borderline just because I have scars on my body.When I told them about my mental illnesses and my past in psych wards and all that stuff they were like “Yup that’s the reason.You had a psychogenic seizure“.I spent some days in the hospital where they ran 3 tests.They all said my brain was fine.I got discharged and they said it was for sure because of my mental illnesses.The day after I got discharged I had a seizure again.I got brought into another hospital and they didn’t even bothered to take tests.“It’s most likely your psychological problems.“

They don’t know that.They didn’t even test all the other possibilities why I could have these seizures.I‘m so f*cking sick and tired of doctors telling me it’s just my mental illnesses.Yes I am very sick,psychologically.But that doesn’t mean i can’t get sick physically.Fuck the health care system.

#bipolar #eating disoder recovery #seizures #hospital #health care system #raise awareness

the-suicide-effect

yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou

Self harm doesn’t always happen when a blade touches skin.

It’s skipping meals because you don’t feel like you deserve to eat today. It’s having sex because you want to be used or abused or defiled. It’s drinking recklessly because you might have the ‘courage’ do something stupid. It’s smoking - not because you need the nicotine - because you know it’s bad for you. It’s banging your head against a wall when you’re angry. It’s crossing the road without looking because you lowkey hope a car might hit you. It’s thinking about all the ways you could break a bone and make it look like an accident. It’s not taking painkillers because you want to suffer. It’s taking painkillers in excess because you know it’s dangerous. It’s walking home the more dangerous way because you’re kind of half hoping you’ll get attacked or raped or stabbed. It’s going for long walks at night and getting chilled to the bone and hoping that you get lost so that you can’t find your way back. It’s seeking out triggering material. It’s all the stupid little ways you punish yourself for existing.

Sometimes self harm happens when you put effort into depriving yourself of things you like or need, and sometimes it happens when you don’t put any effort into doing the things you like or need.

It’s a pattern of self-destructive behaviour, and it doesn’t only happen in one way.

This sort of behavior is classified as “para-suicidal” It’s putting yourself in a situation of danger or destruction with the intention of risking your safety rather than a direct attempt on your life. Kind of, leaving it all to chance? Also doing things to harm yourself or your self worth because you feel you deserve to feel the outcome of those actions.