Hi, Clover! What advice would you give someone who has done everything, read every post, and now just feels lost, doesn't know what to do, or what the thing is that works for them? In my case, it's been 5 years, and even though I haven't outright said it in a while, nothing has worked for me. Guided meditations, robotic affirmations, shifting through a lucid dream, astral projection, regular methods (raven, julia, etc.) the phase/OBE, falling asleep with the intention of waking up there, pure consciousness - nothing has worked. Yes, I know that this is an assumption in itself but I gotta say it at this point. 😭
Simply deciding and forgetting about it works for other things, but somehow not for shifting, and I'm kindaaa getting desperate.
My point is, every time I read a post (which isn't as often anymore) about LOA and shifting, I feel like I've been the same point over and over again: I read something, go "oh, that's right. I AM in my reality! This time will be different" and before I know it, so much time (I know time isn't real, there is only the present, but still) has passed and nothing has changed. Every time I spiral, I go back to the mindset of having what I want, but still nothing.
I just feel lost and don't really know where to go from here. I love your posts, especially the one about no attempt being a failed attempt, but unfortunately I haven't had that "OHHHHH!" moment. I understand the concept on an intellectual level, but applying it is not as easy for me, I don't know why. It's like nothing, and I mean nothing, actually sticks to my brain, if that makes sense. Everyone says to "just decide!" but what do I actually do if that hasn't worked for me? If I've been deciding over and over, and even took action just to wake up to the same reality? Where do I go from here? Shifting is personal and everyone has what works for them, but how do you know what works for you if nothing has worked so far? I also feel like this mindset of even those underlying assumptions you may have dictating your reality makes me even more confused because I never know if I'm truly in the state of a master shifter, or if there is something I subconsciously assume through some of my thought processes that assumes a reality where I don't shift. It's like... if I'm the god of my reality and everything, and yi mean EVERYTHING comes from me, why is it then that deciding I'll wake up in my waiting room, for example, hasn't worked so far, even though I keep trying to remind myself that I am the source of everything there is? The "3d" (there is no objective outer reality, only I AM 🙂↕️) doesn't have a timelag or anything, so if I'm not where I want to be right now, that means I'm not in the state of being that person, right? In that case, what now? I wish someone could just look into my head and tell me what to do and how to do it in a way that works for me
Sorry, I didn't plan for this to become super long but my brain just kept putting out more and more stuff I've been thinking of. I'd really like to hear your thoughts on this, because at this point, I don't know what to do and I'm genuinely scared I'll never be able to experience my MHA dr with my senses 🥹💔
You know what? I’m going to be honest. I get a lot of asks like yours—people telling me about their journey, what they’re going through, everything that’s weighing them down. And I sympathize. A lot, because I see myself in everyone.
Maybe you’re the lucky one who made me snap. Or this is a sign specifically for you. I have no idea. And I’m not saying this to sound cold, but I’m not really qualified to answer these kinds of questions. Not in the traditional way.
Not because I don’t care—but because my advice for this isn’t polished or gentle. My advice comes from having been there. I was the one crashing out, crying, spiraling. “My life sucks.” “My brain doesn’t work.” “ADHD is ruining everything.” “Nothing lets me shift.” “The law of assumption doesn’t work.” “Manifesting doesn’t work.” “Affirming doesn’t work.” Nothing. Worked.
I gave up. Fully. Not in some “take a break and meditate” way. Nope. I lost it. I said:
This 👏 doesn’t 👏 fucking 👏 make 👏 sense.
If shifting is something my awareness already knows how to do, and I’ve intended to be in my DR, to be a master shifter or whatever—to hell and back— “there is no reason that I should not be able to shift tonight.”
And that’s when the incoherence snapped. The whole thing crumbled. I crashed out. Mentally, emotionally, spiritually. I hit the bottom and said: It literally does not make sense for this not to work. That was the key.
That was MY key. I have no idea what yours is. I don’t know what makes you snap, but guarantee that whatever it is— there’s your answer.
That insanity, zero-point of surrender, not in sadness, but with a “fuck it, screw this” mentality made the illusion collapse. Reality had no choice but to follow me.
And listen. I’m not telling you to hurt yourself. I’m not telling you to damage your mental health, or chase collapse just to prove a point. But if you’re asking me what to do when NOTHING is working, my answer will always be this:
Horrible advice, I’m aware. And I say that as someone who is not mentally strong in the slightest and can be persuaded to [redacted] at the snap of a finger.
Let the doubt, the fear, the grief, the failure devour you. Let it bite and maul and tear and gnaw at you. And then? Let it spit you out.
And yeah, that’s why I say I’m not really qualified to answer these asks the “right” way. Because it’s always going to sound something like:
“I can’t focus.” Okay, then stop trying to focus.
“I fall asleep when I shift.” Good—then sleep.
“I can’t fall asleep.” Cool—then stay awake.
“I feel like giving up.” Then give up.
Let your awareness pull you in the direction it wants to go. Because it’s already leading you to your DR.
You intended. That’s it. So whatever your mind, your heart, your energy does next—follow it. Even if it looks chaotic. Even if it looks like quitting, even if it looks like you’re losing your mind.
You want to take away from this: “I guess I’m giving up on shifting”?
But what if giving up is the exact thing that finally lets it click? What if giving up feels so intensely wrong and incoherent that you circle right back because “hang on, I’m supposed to shift.”
That’s the part no one wants to say, but I will.
And look, I could sit here and tell you that the reason you're not shifting is because of your assumptions, or because you didn’t meditate, or you breathed wrong in the void, or you blinked wrong in the hypnagogic state, or whatever the fuck state you're in. But let’s be real, there’s only so many times a person can be told they’re doing something wrong before they start to feel insane.
And you’re not insane. You’re not broken. You’re not crazy for feeling like nothing works. You're not wrong for feeling stuck. You're human, and it fucking. hurts.
But at some point that pain eats itself, and the contradiction gets so loud that it collapses under its own weight—because it doesn’t make sense. It does not make sense to try and try and try, for months or years, and not shift. It defies logic. It’s insane. And that insanity is where the truth shows itself.
Because if you’ve been on this journey this long, that alone is proof it’s already done. The moment you intended it, it was yours. The problem is that you think there’s a problem. So you questioned it. You handed your awareness over to others; asking people, asking blogs, asking strangers, why haven’t I shifted?
But why the fuck would I know? Me??
What the fuck does anyone know about your journey? What could I possibly say that overrides your awareness? Your intention?
No outer source has a say over you, and that includes your circumstances.
No person, no method, no voice outside of you holds the authority.
I know it sounds backwards and counterintuitive and stupid to say “Ohh you’re not doing anything wrong” when you feel so wrong. But that’s the very contradiction you need to let eat you alive. Dwell in it! Let it rip you up and spit you out!
Because when you crash—really crash—you finally see:
It’s literally impossible to do something and not have the outcome of it. And anything that says otherwise is illusion trying to keep its grip on you, so BEAT IT 👏 WITH 👏 A CHAIR
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