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The door to my heart is heavy. Callused from the abjectness of life and supported by the virtues.

I wait behind it.

If you choose to be with me, then you may have to work a little harder than you're used to. But if I see that you are willing to open it more than just ajar, then I'll gladly grab the other side and open it all the way.

#my life has changed #30 years old

This country is fucking awful

#usa

hometoursandotherstuff

https://www.bbc.com/news/articles/cwydx34kzlvo

runcibility

"Vanderhorst had been under the influence of MDMA and three litres of vodka she had consumed on the night of the offence last September, her lawyer Michael Hill told the court."

three. liters.

anais-ninja-bitch

i support women's wrongs

homoqueerjewhobbit

I've been writing this prologue for the past 3-4 years for the beginning of my series "A Moment or Two". It's LONG for a prologue, about 25 pages. With the prologue of "A Moment or Two," which should be aptly named "Noetic" like the last book, is not an introduction of the world as most prologues are, but it is the thesis and instruction of how to read the series from there on out.

There is a philosophical addition that pauses the story for a moment--"Everything is contained within something… In the darkness of the mind, we are all that we experience; in touch, in smell, in taste, sound, thought, intuition, and sight." It is the instruction of how the story works, surrounded by the experience of perception being separated from the bodies of the page. And right after the perception is separated, we see the instance of Flandre and Monroe experiencing a mode of existence where that shouldn't happen--first-person persepctive. And my first-person, I mean how we all experience this reality, in first person, "we are all that we experience."

Flandre and Monroe are the main characters of that prologue. The prose is written in third-person perspective up until a certain point until shortly after the philosophical passage is done. After that, they experience their current reality in first-person, seeing each other's faces, but not their own. That's horrifying for them.

Long story short, the prologue ends when Flandre falls into the Monad and closes her eyes. Then, when "Supernothing" starts, Mercedes is the one who opens her eyes and we begin her journey throughout "Supernothing."

What I want to do is make the act of perception itself the main character. This comes from the idea that God or The Source created our reality in order to understand itself through every thing that exists within its creation. So if that's true in the story, then Mercedes, or Taylor, or Evermore, or Melissa, or even Flandre are not the main characters in the way a typical story is. They are only what The Source/God is following through its mode of perception within the reality it created without naming the The Source/God itself. Yes, the aforementioned characters are the main characters we follow, but they are not THE main character. We don't follow any of them through each book, but we come to know what is happening within the reality this Source/God through them.

And by the last book, which is also titled "Noetic," we will understand the world we've read in it's entirety. And by then these character's existence will be gone. Turned to black like the inescapable void of a black hole or the darkness of our vision with our eyelids cover it. Yet, on the other side, when a baby opens their eyes into this new, grand, old world, the source will become one's sight, in one eye, and see the finality of its creation through the death of itself.

I think I found my answer to how to write the story. But it's still being shelved, nonetheless.

#supernothing #storytelling #writing #manga #comics #webcomic #black art #black artist #mental health #phenomenology #noetic #art

expressions-of-nature

Dolgiye Mountains, Russia by Arseny Kashkarov

So, after a weeks long conversation with myself, I'm sad to say that I cannot continue with writing Supernothing or making the comic

I am having a huge struggle with the writing

I can't figure out my approach to writing Mercedes, how much information the story should be told

I'm more of a storyteller than an artist or writer specifically, first off, and it doesn't feel like either medium works for me. Maybe they should work in tandem, or maybe I'm like the guy who made Avatar (blue people) and it's something along the line that "technology isn't advanced enough yet." I don't know.

The way I want to write stories isn't traditional at all. I'm not sure how to explain it into words. The best I can say is that the story I'm writing doesn't follow one specific character, it's trying to tackle so many things at once that sounds confusing when I explain it, but in execution it's actually really straigthfoward. I'm not trying to write something actiony, I'm not trying to make an "OC" to tell a story, I'm not…sure. And my indecisiveness has gotten the better of me.

I'm not quitting art, or writing, but I don't think making manga/comics/ is where I should go.

Considering my life has changed--finally going no contact from my abusive, neglectful family at my current age of 30, seeing where the world is write now, looking at all the life I've lost to simply surviving and questioning my existence where I didn't even feel human--I can't continue the story. While as grand and epic as it is, I was writing it as escapism from my life. I was a walking daydream because I couldn't bare my waking life. But now that I'm away from them, safe, and opening a whole new book, I don't know what I want from that story anymore. I will return to it, for sure, somewhere in the future, universe allowing.

#supernothing #mental health #escaping abuse #family abuse #escapism #black art #blackartist #writing #writers #spirituality #the gorillaz #the mountain gorillaz #gnarls #gnarls barkley atlanta

The Black community should collectively sue Hollywood for defamation because of how they portray us in media.

#black community #black power #black artist #hollywood #black history

thepeacefulgarden

I can't stress this enough. "You don't owe anything" means you don't have to make other people happy, or bend over backwards and jump through hoops to make them like you. It's against people-pleasing, not basic human decency.

It is not carte blanche to be a complete asshole. It's not "I got mine, screw everyone else!" It's not an excuse to be unnecessarily rude or mean. And if you take it as an excuse to be your worst, cruelest, meanest self, well...other people don't owe you their time or a relationship of any kind.

#kindness #compassion #mental health #reblog #be kind

i-am-a-fish

please do something nice for yourself today. do something that makes present or future you happy please

I've put down a list of activities that might bring you joy if you need ideas but please do something that specifically makes you happy because I do not know you personally

• Fight a bear

• Fight a moose

• Fight a plane

• Fight my dad

• Fight me and my dad at the same time

• Fight 10 hawks

• Fight machines

• Fight

• Fight the earth

• Fuck space

• I meant to say Fight Space

• Fight

#funny #i wanna fight a bear

personsonable-deactivated201908

me holding a gun to a mushroom: tell me the name of god you fungal piece of shit

mushroom: can you feel your heart burning? can you feel the struggle within? the fear within me is beyond anything your soul can make. you cannot kill me in a way that matters

me cocking the gun, tears streaming down my face: I’M NOT FUCKING SCARED OF YOU

miaislying

Hey OP? What the FUCK does this mean?

personsonable-deactivated201908

decay exists as an extant form of life

miaislying

That’s a terrifying answer, have a nice day

who got next?

me: im begging;; pls shut the hell up

my brain: naruto would canonically say “dont fight hate w/ hate, all lives matter <3” thats literally his entire philosophy in shippuden, u cant deny the truth

afro-evolutionary-astrology

I hate myself for making this, but it’s pretty spot on for Naruto’s ethos in the show. He’s very, uh, “Oppression? Sounds like a victim complex to me.”

I’m never gonna forgive myself for making this.

hoodnaruto

Son….

dushman-e-jaan

Naruto’s that Moderate white dude “all lives matter guy!” all the marginalized communities loathe. He always rears his ugly head whenever there’s a talk on radical change, justice, and revolution.

hoodnaruto

I hate that that’s exactly what he did lmfaoo

#naruto #edits