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Zsofi ☆ She/her ☆ early 20s 🩷 rock music + shitposts

[bronzetomatoes]

"spam liking will get you blocked" spam liking will get you a kiss on the mouth

[el-shab-hussein]

Hey all! It has been nearly a year since I've been absent from tumblr, and likewise almost a year since I have last updated you on Mona and her team's mutual aid inititatives. In that time, Mona's efforts have managed to keep entire communities of displaced people alive in the refugee encampments in Ghazzah, including through the distribution of staple foods, fresh fruits and vegetables, cooked meals, clean children's clothing, diapers, baby formula, and so much more. Please continue to support Mona's efforts through the new link on Chuffed. Remember! Every single dollar counts!!! Chuffed donation link.

For more information, please consult her Instagram!

If you also have more to spare, please help Mona support her sister and niece who have been displaced 6 times over the course of the accelerated genocide.

None of this is possible without Mona and her family's diligence and work. If you would like to send her a thank you note or well wishes, please include it in the replies to this post, in your tags, or in the comments! She always appreciates them ♡

[depsidase]

[ptstmohammed]

THIS IS YOUR MOMENT

PLEASE I need real help.

If anything bad happens to my leg, please remember that I begged you to donate even a small amount or to share my post. I will not forgive anyone who sees this post and doesn't support me with a single word or a small donation, and ignores me.

$25 could make a difference in my life.

If you can help donate.

If you can’t share.

Just don’t read this and disappear.

I am currently suffering from a severe leg fracture that has turned my life upside down. After multiple consultations, the doctors said

I urgently need a bone graft surgery.

Without this procedure, the damage could become permanent, leaving me unable to walk or lead a normal life. Every day that passes without this surgery increases the risk of complications.

Donation link 🔗

Urgent Appeal: A Gaza Physiotherapist Struggling to Support His Mother After Losing Two Homes

My name is Mohammad Hassan Al-Bawab, a physiotherapist from Gaza, Palestine.During the recent war in Gaza, my life changed completely. I los

[ptstmohammed]

[redstonedust]

love wearing all black in public i hope no large gaseous heat emitting orb in the sky comes along and makes my day worse

[translatingpostsintohungarian]

imádok talpig feketében kimenni remélem semmilyen nagyméretű gáz halmazállapotú hőtermelő gömb nem jelenik meg az égen és teszi kellemetlenné a napomat

[johnny-depp-is-loved]

Big fan of whatever this genre of conversation is

[wizardrights]

[harpersternupdates]

there aren't even any tomboys in movies anymore. like should we all die

[lightningbig]

listen I understand why anyone writing a bodyguard au for hollanov defaults to ilya being the body guard and shane being the superstar. but I just think we're collectively sleeping on the appeal of playboy celeb ilya rozanov getting scuffed like a kitten by his deadpan, no nonsense security detail, shane hollander

[liminalmess]

@ottawa--centaurs sent me a fic rec with this dynamic btw that i wanted to share with y'all, everyone say thank you ari <3 https://archiveofourown.org/works/78453931

[freakeduploser]

heated rivalry fanfic favorites masterlist

no one is asking for this but i have to make my one million hours on ao3 mean something

the texture of memory: to write a silly blurb would do it a disservice i think, but just read it i am so serious, completed

your presence has gone through me (like needle through a thread): ilya gets a family and i cry one million tears of joy, wip

the anatomy of a bird heart in slow decay: an impossible love story and meditation on grief, mothers and sons, and survival. featuring ghosts in the literal sense. completed

fall in love again and again: the classic tuna-melt groundhog day, with a house of leaves flavour, completed

Jessica: teenaged shane as seen through his relationship with his high school girlfriend, i love them both so unbearably much, completed

home economics: nhl lockout leads to hollanov living together in the situationship era-there's no way this could go wrong! completed

Route 96 Kanata: shane suffers a career ending injury before meeting ilya but where there's a will there's a tortured hollanov situationship nonetheless. full of fantastic ottawan idiosyncrasies. wip

World on Your Shoulders: what if shane had a queer rookie while deep in the midst of his internalized homophobia "i'm not gay" era? fascinating and wonderfully pessimistic characterization, this whole series is a dark comedy that i want to swallow whole, completed

wunderkind: breathtaking look into yuna hollander's inner world but everyone really shines through wonderfully here (ilya my heart i love you so much), completed

I have only two emotions (careful fear and dead devotion): shane disappears from hockey post prospect cup and hollanov meets again much farther down the road, gorgeous tender slow burn, wip

we'll make a home on the cracks: journalist shane fights his way out of an ethics torment nexus and finds true love <3 cute hollanov & fun shane characterization, wip

car wash redhead, tube top R.E.M. concert, juror #6: hollanov character study, power and love, i adore those freaks so much <3, completed

frequently, secretly fond of each other: boston! shane, you know it you love it, wip

some pacific wind: the pains of being asian in a nearly all-white sport and having to communicate to the world exclusively in your second language: a hollanov conversation, completed

side note: all of satorussuguru's heated rivalry fics are fantastic and are on here in spirit if not in actual text

It had to be you, Wonderful you: transmasc ilya you are soooo dear to me, completed

Offside: coach/player forbidden hollanov but it's sweeter than you would expect. wip

Honey, you're familiar like my mirror years ago: climbing inside your soulmates body is a thing that is both normal to want and possible to have (ft. painful but warming version of shane's life post. career ending injury), wip

dark out and still thirty degrees: one of the only a/b/o fics i've ever enjoyed (sorry), dives into the misogyny in the bones of the genre in a way that's very cathartic for me. ft. a fascinating trans shane journey. completed

head and body to you: tortured self-destructive shane character study, toxic? situationship hollanov, canon-typical emotion development through the lens of sex, completed

the soviet montage: obviously already popular but i had to, cold-war era hollanov post. ilya's defection from the soviet union, completed

i've been waiting my whole life to know i wanted you: deep dive into shane's militant self denial that also fleshes out a much more culturally-connected japanese-canadian experience for him. #lifegetsbetter(eventually), completed

pronoms possessifs: shane writes a love letter, just wonderful completed

Home Ice Advantage: another boston! shane but diving more deeply into how being traded would impact the hockey of it all, very perfectionism torment nexus, completed (with wip sequel)

Blizost: what if you could climb inside your lover and share one body between two souls?, wip

Mama's Boy, Mama's Boy: shane hollander's journey if the whole time he was also haunted by his situationship's dead mom, fantastic irina characterization, completed

cracked plexiglass: canon rewrite that fleshes out a version of shane's pre-NHL hockey career that's more realistic to the actual environment of high level Canadian juniors, very very good, wip

i know where to draw the line: older captain shane and younger teammate ilya, super cute, completed

Overlay: very well written, read the authors note in the beginning before starting, completed

one of your eyes is always half-shut (something happened when you were a kid): it's GivingAlexeiDimensionality2026 !! such a gut punch to read as an older sibling, completed

Plexiglass Box: what if hollanov met as teens in Moscow? (ilya x coach's son but it was shane the whole time), Excellent tension, completed (sequel incoming hopefully)

but what if I need you in my darkest hour? : our favorite hockey players plane crash Bad on the way to 2017 All Stars, painful in all the ways, completed

always, sun: canon,,,,,,,divergence?? magical realism, gorgeous and vaguely terrifying, completed

I. ONE LITTLE GOD FALLING OVER ANOTHER: the last year in boston, has hardly begun but the mixed media format is so good and the tension is so thick,,,,,pit in my stomach as i eagerly await the rest, wip

nothing makes me feel as good: shane character study through jj's eyes, god im so obsessed with this crazy crazy man, completed

Hello From Moscow, Goodbye from Montreal: canon divergence circa 2012 where ilya calls shane drunk one night, and keeps calling after that, equally funny and devastating, wip

there are like millions more that i will add once i remember them

updated: 4/10/2026

[ghostisredacted]

in honour of march 15th (hungarian national holiday + the stabbing of cesar), id like to make a suggestion as to what we do with orbán,

[copper-sands]

in honour of march 15th (belarusian constitution day + the stabbing of cesar), id like to make a suggestion as to what we do with lukashenko,

[caenor-au]

in honour of march 15th (anniversary of the 2025 protests in belgrade + the stabbing of cesar), id like to make a suggestion as to what we do with vučić,

[jnyfmg]

proximity

[mithli-archive]

[anistarrose]

my only religious belief is that there is no afterlife except for the ublock origin team who are going to heaven and the youtube anti-adblock team who are going to hell

[ick-the-clown]

wake up babe, new heated rivalry redraw

[ot3]

if there was a well-written well-directed well-acted show about a closeted gay man whose husband died tragically and suddenly during an apocalyptic event who then had to deal with going insane from grief and loneliness while a genderbent version of the sexy female love interest from his het romance novel tried to seduce him about it, people would be posting about it with such fervor and volume that you couldn't avoid it even if you wanted to. but since it's about women instead... since it's about women instead....

[piratefalls]

another week, another episode of yes, they are my entire personality and no, i'm not interested in changing that. here's what i enjoyed reading this week.

onward.

The Hard Part by Cecily_v & liminalmemories (mature, 9.5k)

A 5+1 of Ilya and Shane finding their space together. Can't get the puck to the net if you're always skating backwards, too afraid of taking a hit. It took them so long to get here and now that they are, they must take the next step -- learn to face other people, emerge from their safe, secluded bubble and let other people in. Push through the fear.

path to freedom (series) by quiet_brain (teen, 39.2k)

Ilya is in Russia when the FanMail video leaks. Fucking Brad. Featuring Shane and Hayden bestieism A Russian lesbian, her nb partner and the worlds worst European roadtrip in a shitty car Svetlana being the friend we all deserve

making connections by boldlytothestars (general, 4.6k)

“Ilya’s coming back?” He asked, almost giddy. And— maybe the meds were stronger than she’d realised. “No- he was just leaving. So he came by to see how you’re doing? Did he apologise for Marlow?” “He was so worried,” Shane said, a tiny furrow appearing between his eyebrows. “Marlow?” “No, Ilya! He gets all serious when he’s worried.” or, Yuna runs into Rozanov in the hospital and starts connecting dots

Isn't Supposed to Look Like This by anonymous (explicit, 6.6k)

In a world which Shane's been hiding his rut from Ilya, he finally agrees to entertain his lover and invites him to spend it with him. Only Shane doesn't react at all how he imagined.

#kissgate by goldengalaxies (not rated, 1.4k)

John Cook: Hollander keeps possession of the puck as Rozanov checks Cameron out of Hollander's way, and... Hollander scores! What a beaut of a goal that was! Patrick Colt: [laughing] I don’t think the opposition know what to do with themselves against Rozanov and Hollander.  [Ilya Rozanov skates round to where Shane Hollander is standing. Hollander has a wide grin on his face after the recent goal.  Rozanov collides into Hollander, hugging him jokily and leaning to plant a wet his on Hollander’s helmet. However, at the last second, Hollander turns to look at Rozanov.  Their lips meet in a kiss. The two break apart instantly and stare at each other in horror.] Jack Saad: Oh. That’s… Hmm. John Cook: [spluttering] Erm- Patrick Colt: [faintly] Huh. Well. That’s not something you see everyday.  (the shane/ilya helmet kiss at the 2017 all stars game but shane turns his head at the last moment and they kiss on the mouth. social media reacts)

dust bowl by thathastu (explicit, 28.6k)

"You should grow this longer," Rozanov once said, running his fingers through Shane's practical cut, the same one he had since he was fifteen. Rozanov's blond curls had fallen in his eyes. Behind them, his blue eyes glittered like he was looking at the sun. "You would be so lovely."

It felt like being lit on fire.

Or; Shane is Rozanov's girl.

letters to no one by agetwellcard (mature, 10.6k)

When Shane starts the document, it makes sense to him. Later on, when it’s published onto a hundred different gossip sites with hundreds of comments dissecting every word, it looks insane. It starts because Shane has no one to talk to about everything. He’s never even kept a journal. He balks at the thought of getting a therapist. It’s not like he’s going to risk writing it down physically for someone to find. The only logical way that Shane can think of to deal with his feelings is to open up a blank Google Docs page and start writing.

or Shane decides to write down all his feelings instead of talking to Ilya. After years of writing about their relationship, the entire document gets leaked online.

love, full of hope by railmedaddy (general, 7.5k)

It hits her then, how well Ilya must know her son. That he gets Shane and supports him. It can’t have been an easy thing, walking into what could have been the lion’s den after getting caught by his boyfriend’s father. He did it anyway – for Shane. His love for Shane is written all over his face. Since their rookie year. Shane has had this, Ilya – though she tries not to think too hard about the details – for nine years! She and David have been so worried that Shane might be lonely. He’s always found it difficult to connect with people, didn’t have a lot of friends as a kid. He’s not lonely though; he has Ilya. For that, she thinks she might love Ilya, just a little. Or 5 times Yuna loves Ilya, and one time she tells Shane why Or an ode to love, and Yuna Hollander

I'd like to buy a vowel by jafffacakes (teen, 4.3k)

They had an early flight. That’s how this whole fucking thing started. If they’d just flown into Boston in the afternoon, like they usually did, none of this would have happened. Shane would have gone to Ilya’s house, stayed overnight, and been back in his hotel room before breakfast. He wouldn’t have gone for a walk, and Hayden wouldn’t have figured out exactly who Boston Lily is. But no, they had an early flight. And now Shane feels like he’s about to die. ----- Hayden figures out who Boston Lily is thanks to three little letters on a Valentine's Day card.

see what I read last week here

[my-2nd-account]

Heated Rivalry au where Shane doesn't hate smoking and after they've fucked eachother's brains out Ilya takes a drag from a joint and exhales the smoke into Shane's mouth and presses his fingers to his throat as he swallows that's it thank you

[smokingtigerhiddengun]

What you're describing is called shotgunning and, speaking from personal experience, it indeed is as hot as it sounds (although the receiver breathes in the smoke rather than swallows it). Also, one way to ensure the shotgunnee gets a good inhale is to do something to make them gasp as you blow the smoke into their mouth. 😈

If you like that concept, I have some fic recs for you. The first two feature shotgunning - the last one involves Shane's first experience of sex while high on edibles. 🍃🌿

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[my-2nd-account]

I did look it up before writing the post and initially used shotgunning but I was worried I was using the word incorrectly so I replaced it with the description lol (I do that often with English words I'm new to) so thanks for explaining <333

And I just finished the first fic I think I just went through a religious experience holy shit

[raincitygirl76]

The smell of burning weed makes me nauseous and always has (I was no fun at parties in university). Nonetheless, I am Reblogging these fics for those who like the idea.