my ramblings

put one of these on my grave

[111lustforlife]

there's nothing quite like a chocolate black man

[111lustforlife]

no matter how bad it gets

i know old me would've wished for times like these

[111lustforlife]

i used to be a lover girl

but somewhere along the lines i found myself jumping from one's man bed to another

in hopes of filling up the hole inside my soul

[111lustforlife]

being slut shamed by your closest friends

[111lustforlife]

i want it to be so rough i forget all that is wrong

[111lustforlife]

love has many, many forms.

perhaps the one on the lips of this older man isn't the right one.

but for now, it'll do.

[111lustforlife]

i only ever wanted love

but somehow i ended up in the arms of a man 11 years older

[111lustforlife]

my coffin will be full of bones and shame.

[111lustforlife]

the scars never really go away.

i never would've thought they would stay with me this long. i never even thought i would stay around this long.

[111lustforlife]

he didn't force me, but kept asking and insisting until i gave in.

it was easier to just get on with it, than to keep saying "no".

[111lustforlife]

i'm becoming the person i hate the most

[111lustforlife]

i just know choi seunghyun would get me

[111lustforlife]

i changed myself every time i found a flaw

now i don't know who i am anymore

[111lustforlife]

every day i look in the mirror and hate what i see

[111lustforlife]

perhaps in the grave i will finally be at peace

[111lustforlife]

i'm afraid men will only ever see me as their object

[111lustforlife]

i crave for someone to be gentle, to slow dance with my soul