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If I'm active, I'm probably unwell lol CW: This blog may be triggering. I don't want anyone else to go through what I do, these posts are just for me. Message me if you feel alone, I'll reply as soon as I can. National S*icide Hotline: [phone] Crisis Text Line: Text HOME to 741741

[1nsignificvnt]

I stayed up for about two days straight, cleaning and shit the whole time. I’ve working so hard trying to get my life together. I know it’s my fault my life is like this in the first place but I’ve been trying.

I woke up a few minutes ago, I don’t even remember falling asleep. My mom looked mad at me but no one really tried to wake me up. Thanksgiving is over. They put all the food away. My sibling left less than 5 minutes after I got up. Seeing them was all I was looking forward to. No one has talked to me all day. No one cares

[suicide-hesitation]

[remanence-of-love]

[remanence-of-love]

[remanence-of-love]

[depresseddisneyprincess]

[valentina-poem]

[justapeiceofshit]

[gaarrd3nde4th]

::((

[abnormall]

[despairing-soul]

[imjustascaredlilgirl]

[abnormall]

[csasurvivorthings]

Always here to talk if anyone needs it as I’ve had many nights like these ❤️

[i-need-to-be-fixed]

[imjustascaredlilgirl]

[1nsignificvnt]

I don’t understand my mom at ALL

I didn’t get diagnosed with autism until I was 18 and realized that I had it. My mom never noticed my obvious symptoms (which i won’t condemn her for, no one knows everything) and would yell at me for stimming and hyperfixating on things. After my diagnosis she says she is supportive, but doesn’t act like it. She constantly says the r word even though I’ve asked her not to, because it makes me uncomfortable and could hurt people who overhear. But what really gets me is the interaction we had the other day.

I was talking about being socially awkward and how I hated having to talk to people. The example I gave was employees greeting you when you entered a store, and how I really hated having to feign nonchalance and reply to them. Her ‘joking’ response was, “you could just give them a big smile and wave, and they’d stop trying to talk to you and assume you were a bit [r word]ed.” I replied, “but I am [r word]ed.” And she got offended and said “you know what I mean!!!” Like she didn’t just tell a disabled person to act disabled so that people wouldn’t want to talk to them.

Sometimes it is EXHAUSTING to interact with neurotypicals.

(Reposted from reddit, still mine)