trying to figure myself out

just a BPD girl's blog

[4am-orchid]

I want to write a book and pour everything you made me feel into it

[eggcup-deactivated20180129]

you think your crush is laying in bed thinking about you but in reality they’re reading about swords on Wikipedia

[callmebliss]

While you were wasting your time considering me as a romantic option I was studying the blade

[chickencorp]

It’s Alright - Mother Mother

[repulseddoll]

the fact that my therapist has other clients makes me so jealous like. she’s mINE

[quiet-reassurance]

Me: *desperately tries to avoid attaching to my therapist as a parental figure*

Therapist: *says they’re proud of me*

*crashing sounds in distance*

[tatinotchatty]

Reblog if you like your therapist

like, I’ve seen to much hate on therapists and therapy now. I can’t be the only one that likes my therapist

[pupey]

[4am-orchid]

even though i know you dont want me

i still want to leave birthday presents on your doorstep

[4am-orchid]

Update: lol i did it

[stargazerinmoksha]

i think you don’t care anymore

not as much as you used to

your full of lies from time to time

i catch myself remembering you

for who you couldn’t be for me

4 am seeking out your truths

5 am, you’re an hour late

6 am losing it to loving you

i think you’re full of yourself

and there’s not enough room

inside of your heart

for anyone else

but more drugs

[hollyiridescent]

I’ve been crying so much today I haven’t been able to really do anything else and I really needed to get work done :/

[adrenaline]

[softgrlfriend]

picture source

[earthysuggestion]

allow flowers to grow on the places in your heart that people left hollow

[4am-orchid]

Why do you lull me into a false sense of security and then make me feel like shit??

What do you gain from doing that?!

[bekanicolex]

[qveenbpd]

you’re a cruel bitch but I love u

[destroymylife]