[absurdaromanticism]

vent/diary blog

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about me

23

aro(ace?)

diagnosed: adhd, autism, bpd, ocd

in the midst of diagnosis: bipolar 2, cptsd/ptsd

they/he

dms open

DNI

pro-ed/sh, if you use ai, minors, fatphobic, transphobic, homophobic, racist, really just anyone right-leaning.

interests under cut

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very limited interests at the moment, but i love video games, bobs burgers, new girl, my pets (6 of them), bears, clowns, etc! feel free to ask me about any of them!

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just spent 20 mins trying to get back into my account bc i forgot which email i used

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i feel sick every time i stumble across a picture my dad took of my mom and i when i was 11

we were sitting together in a restaurant booth, i had my arm around her and was out my phone while she was high out of her fucking mind on whatever the fuck

like i’m just UPSET. my sisters were old enough to get a mom who wasn’t on drugs all the time and who didn’t abandon them, i got that mom instead. now all the pictures of us together she’s high and it sucks so bad

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sorry for not being on for awhile (ok well, i’m not really sorry?? it’s just my mf vent account 😭)

anyway i’m just so bleh recently since being off of ….all of my meds. my gf hasn’t gone to the pharmacy for me yet and im too agoraphobic to leave and go by myself so ive just been waiting 🥲

[wifegideonnav]

“bits to use in everyday conversations”

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feeling sick with the memories of them in the kitchen cooking us breakfast 😁😁😁😁😁

[rox-and-prose]

Stop Making Psychosis A Villainous Trait Challenge

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Stop Making Scars A Sign Of Evil Challenge

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Actually, you know what? Stop Using Disability As A Shorthand For Evil Challenge

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my psychiatrist, aka the first mental health professional i saw who i felt like actually understood me and cared, is now not going to work at the same practice anymore and i am not handling that well!!!!!

she may start working somewhere where i can see her still, but i’m going to switch to a different provider within the same practice since my therapist is there too and it makes things a lot easier

alas this was very unexpected, and i am not in a stable place with my meds or my life and this honestly triggered my bpd which feels stupid to say but it’s true. i hold onto doctors i like very intensely since they’re hard to find and i haven’t had to let any go except a childhood eye dr and ugh. idk. this feels like really weird grief and i want to cry about it

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sometimes i am so tired of being in this relationship 🫩it just feels like thing after thing after thing

[daikaiju-arts]

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horribly dissociating and starting to have more vivid hallucinations. how beautiful ❤️

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i have to fill out 18 damn forms before my new therapy appointment 😭 girl wtf do you need to know

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can’t stand that sometimes i miss my ex so horribly that it makes everything feel confusing

don’t miss him romantically or sexually, but a secret third thing that hurts even more (FP)

like he wasn’t good for me, or to me sometimes, so i don’t fucking get why i miss him lmao

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sometimes i think abt how my partners friend called me “some bitch” and they still stayed friends

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text from my mother! how delightful! /sarcasm

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i have to clean the bedroom but my partner fell asleep so idk what to do 😭

i can’t see well enough when it gets dark bc we don’t have stupid ceiling lights (only a lamp) and it’ll be too dark in like 30 mins . i rlly need to get it done though ugh

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my tv static vision during the night should be a concern and i was likely born with night blindness. alas, i don’t want that on my record so i did not go through the test the specialist wanted to do