Julian

he/they 22 Audhd current hyperfixation : Dispatch <3| special interests include : monster high, space, dnd, my ocs, psychology, and autism itself

[baconmoop]

Thought it only fitting that the episode about defying god and gaining true free will get the destiel treatment

[transpigeon]

STOP! before you decide you are irretrievably doomed, try one of the following options:

transition

bdsm

iron supplements

[spirit-of-science]

sleep study

ADHD medication

DBT

[headedoutleft]

vitamin D

go outside for an hour and observe birds

eat a snack

[trackerkitsune]

drink water

[ineffable-writer]

Maybe do these in reverse order

[katelyn-danger]

Don't listen to them! Transgender BDSM now!!!!

[byjove]

I don’t think Dionysus was raised as a girl for his protection. I think he was raised as a girl because they didn’t know better. Then one day he told them all he was not a girl. All of the mad women of the mountains who raised and loved him and would be his first maenads rushed to hug him and kiss the crown of his head. Hermaphroditus told him how proud they were that he knew himself. Silenus lied and said he had seen this coming for some time. The world paused for a moment for him but it did not change around him. The creeks babbled and the birds sang and the gentle rains of Nysa beat down upon the trees. His girlhood was in the past tense very suddenly and his boyhood stretched out in front of him.

[lonestarflight]

Apollo 17 vs Artemis II

[waytoohigh63]

thing that pisses me off most about adhd advice from neurotypicals... the 'doing something for 30 days forms a habit.' bitch nothing in my life is a habit i would be ripping bong and jacking off all day if it was a matter of choice. never underestimate my ability to be super invested in something for like 2 weeks and then forget to do it one day and never go back to it

[tsenamu-mu]

Reference:

[lesvegas]

passing in public makes me feel like white shrek

[lesvegas]

literally how it feels

[aceofpans]

”with shapes.inc you can talk to your ocs!!” Dumbass. I’m already talking to them. In my head. “B-bbut what about your favourite charac-“ skill issue. In my head as well. get fucked.

[lakevida]

scared but noble animal protecting its nestmates

[elierlick]

Yet another new study debunked the basis for the anti-trans sports bans. It was never about sports but for creating legal avenues for exclusion and abjection. This is one of the largest analyses ever conducted, involving 52 studies and 6,485 trans people. Read the study here.

[jibberjibbsart]

My Heated Rivalry 🔥

Thank you for the wonderful idea @artbytosin your mind is amazing

[gnewarned]

Found a picture on Pinterest of a rat eating an egg and it captivated me so here is a lil watercolour attempt to capture its beauty

[kosmogrl]

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[hyrude]

bdsm enjoyers r onto something. i think we should incorporate aftercare into just hanging out. i need a buddy to hold me and say “that was really fun and you seemed normal”

[sweatermuppet]

i understand its chronic pain but every day seems a bit excessive

[pukicho]

I don’t give a fuck. When daddy gets hungry for poison ham, daddy eats poison ham.

[maelys-with-the-torn-cieling]

Please don't call yourself that Mr Cho

[pukicho]

Can't eat ham, can't call myself daddy. Fucking liberals.

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

please please please do NOT give up on medicating your adhd because you have a bad experience during your first attempts. finding the right medication/dosage combo takes trial and error, but it can feel like a MIRACLE once you do.

Being medicated isn’t for everyone, but it is a powerful tool in our toolbox. and I am seeing way too many people giving up that option prematurely, because they are unware that:

there are different medication options. they do not all have the same side effects, and not all are amphetamines 

dosage matters. if you are discontinuing bc of side effects, consider trying a lower dose first

a good doctor will be willing to work with you to find a regime that works

finding the right meds/dosage combo will take trial and error. and it will be worth it once you do.

[witchylittlebabe-deactivated202]

Also, once you find something that works, KEEP TAKING IT!!

I know that’s such a “duh” statement but so so many people assume the high they feel for the first few days on a stimulant that works is how it’s always going to be and it’s not. Once your brain gets used to the new “normal” on meds, you lose that high feeling and get to a “hey, I can actually get shit done, lookit that” kind of place.

It amazes me how many people never had anyone explain that to them. I’ve been on some sort of SSRI for the last 20 years so when I started Adderall I knew what to expect. I had so many people (in a group for ADHD) tell me that the “holy shit look at me go!!!” feeling would wear off and it would stop working after a week or two and I had to walk them through just how wrong they were and quite a few had no idea that that feeling isn’t supposed to last long term. 🤦🏼‍♀️

I explained it like this:

Your unmedicated brain is used to operating at a 4 on a good day. It sucks, you’re all over the place, a hot mess. Then you get on a medication that works (antidepressant, stimulant, non-stimulant, whatever) and the first few days are incredible! You can’t believe that this is how it’s supposed to be! Your brain is now holding steady at an 8 or 9 and you are one productive bitch! But then your brain gets used to operating at an 8 or 9 and it becomes your new normal. It’s harder to recognize that the medication is still working because there’s no noticeable high anymore. You get bummed because you assume it’s not working and you either request a med change or a bump in dosage. Then 8 months later you’re frustrated and depressed because you’ve maxed out on the dosage of whatever med it is and you think nothing is going to work but really you’ve unknowingly self sabotaged.

Because the truth is, the first dose worked perfectly, but your squirrelly ADHD brain is so used to searching for the next dopamine hit that you failed to recognize that you were able to get through the tasks you needed to just fine. You weren’t hyperfocused on researching the nuances of plant breeding, you didn’t spend 5 hours in executive dysfunction while staring at your vacuum, you actually remembered to thaw out chicken for dinner. You missed all of that because you were looking for that high feeling that you had at first.

So, how does one figure out if the med is working or not when you can’t tell because your brain is a dopamine fiend? Personally, I make daily “ta-da” lists. Not lists of things I need to do, but lists of things I did. Before meds, I’d have maybe 5 things on a ta-da list. After meds, I’d have 15-20 things on my list! So it does work, even if I don’t feel like I’m on cloud 9 when I take it.

Tl:dr Your brain is a fucking liar and your medication is likely working even if you don’t feel like it is anymore.

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

^^^^^^ i’ve had this experience too. not realizing that the meds are working once ‘working’ becomes your new normal is, unfortunately, a reason many of us start skipping medication. hint: the results are not good!!!

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

also a shout-out to 90s/00s kids who were over-medicated by their doctors & parents (widespread phenomenon).

I hope you are brave enough to explore your options as an adult. I am giving you full permission to firmly state your concerns to your healthcare providers and to insist on a low starting dose if side effects are your major worry.