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[aillewrites]

skin to skin, heart to heart, lips to lips

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Summary:

For the past two weeks since Eddie's confession on the couch, Buck hasn’t touched. He keeps his feet away from the pool of temptation, doesn’t bite into the apple of greed and sin for the first time in his damn life with a type of restraint he’s not even sure he was physically capable of. He breaks his fingers into being still, and locks his tongue to the bottom of his mouth when a man on a call rubs his hand down Eddie's arm in thanks, eyes hoping and unfamiliar that's met with red cheeks and humble beginnings.

A mould that's still fresh clay, a heart out of a cage– one so unlike Bucks that's ruined and solid in its shape that will never fit anybody else for the rest of his life.

You have ruined me, Edmundo Diaz he wants to type back.

Or; Eddie finds joy, gets his son back and lets himself be selfish. Buck falls in love, gets a boyfriend, and has a crisis over his best friend.

Buck stops touching Eddie as a result.

[aillewrites]

I get giddy every time they refer to Buck and Eddie as best friends in canon because oh my god they're each others person in canon romantic or not

[aillewrites]

I'm a strong believer that Eddie knows he's in love with Buck- knows he has this unfiltered, unchanged dedication to his best friend in a way he's never felt before. Eddie knows that he's in love with him when he signs his rights to Christopher to him in case of death and when he tries to pull the rope up instead of down when Bucks struck by lightning. Eddie knows he's in love when he's shot and watches Buck the entire time, panicked, thinking, ‘you’re hurt’

But he doesn't know he's gay.

Buck, however, knows he likes men. Buck knows he loves the burn of bruised knees the same way he loves nails scratching his back. Buck knows he loves scratchy stubble the same as strawberry shampoo, glossy lips and mascara. Liking men, is new, is freeing, is everything at times, but its also simple. Its him, and has been him since he kisses his first girlfriend at fourteen and asks Tommy to move in with him at thirty three.

But he doesn't know he's in love with his best friend on top of all of that.

Eddie knows he loves Buck like breathing but doesn't know he's gay, and Buck knows he likes men and lets it shape him, be him, adjust him- but being in love with his best friend? he doesn't know. not yet.

[cranberrymoons]

one of my favorite character details is buck with his jock phenotype and his big muscles and his backwards ball caps and his athleisure wardrobe, sucking shit at sports

[aillewrites]

The reason Buck was so.. hurt by Tommy calling Eddie competition is because he was insinuating that their friendship, which is something so important and real to Buck for the first time in his life was something dirty. That his relationship with Eddie which he views as platonic is comparable to a cheap affair and it demons their bond to something not as strong and long lasting.

He was upset and said ‘okay even if I was in love with him I wouldn’t need to sleep with him’ basically, because he thinks Tommy views him as easy, and would go with Eddie sexually/romantically if they opportunity arrises.

Would he? We don’t know, Tommy doesn’t know and Buck doesn’t know. The important part is he made Buck feel wrong and like a cheater for having a friend and that’s why he snapped the way he did.

He isn’t Buck 1.0 anymore and Buck loves like he’s never had the chance to love before— because he hasn’t and being on the receiving and giving end of true, unfiltered love is everything to him.

[aillewrites]

I want Helena Diaz to be haunted by Eddie and Shannon through Christophet to the point it makes her sick. I need her to be on the plane home with Chris the day they take him from LA and watch him trace the inside of his palm due to nerves and realise with a pjt in her stomach Eddie would do the same thing when flying before Afghanistan. I want her to call Chris down for dinner and watch him cover his stew in tomato sauce and swallow down the lump in her throat because Eddie would do that.

I want her to ask Christopher to help in the garden and he tells her that lilies are his favourite flower because they mean rebirth and beginnings, all while ditching the gloves and getting his hands dirty in the soil. Shannon would do the same thing in the summer even if her nails were clean. Her favourite were lilies. Chris can't stand the texture of silk, washes his face twice a day and his eye twitches slightly when he is tired.

and one day Christopher picks at his cuticles and tells her about animal facts the drive to church. He ducks his head down when he gets complimented by the ladies after mass and scratches at the spot below his eyebrow.

Shannon haunts her through her son, a reminder of her passing and everything that came before.

Eddie haunts her through living without her, without letting her know whats happening. He haunts her through Chris and the way Chris is shaped to Evan Buckley like he's never known a life without him.

[aillewrites]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

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“Eddie is a great dad.”

Shannon pauses and Buck watches as the loops of grey smoke shape her face, bending to the curve of her jaw, the bitten-back frown. “He is.”

“But It doesn’t matter how far you run Shannon,” Buck says, careful, soft. “Chris will always be more you than him.”

Or; when Evan Buckley meets Shannon Diaz for the first time she's working behind a bar. The second time they meet, he's wearing a badge that shows he is worth looking at and she’s soul tied to his new coworker in a way that's clumsy. The third time, he's dying inside of a hand sanitiser factory and she’s pulling at the rope to keep him alive.

Or; Buck is haunted by Shannon's ghost after he almost dies. They both aren't that happy about it

[aillewrites]

My very unfiltered, Scottish mother just finished the latest episode of 9-1-1 with me and she said something about Eddie that just blew my mind I have to share it.

When Tommy called Eddie compition and that implemented the idea of Buddie to her, who has believed Eddie was gay since his kiss with Shannon, she spoke about why she thinks Eddie is gay and then said,

“He wasn’t running from his son when he left for Afghanistan, he was running from his wife. Because he didn’t mind having a son, he just couldn’t stomach having a wife too.”

And in canon Eddie always says he abandoned his son because he was scared, and if you had the context he was also scared of the thought of having a wife?? That’s tragic.

[aillewrites]

Buck isn't in love with Eddie Diaz when he shoulder checks him in the gym on their first shift together or when they get dinner smelling like sweat, adreniline and a blown-up ambulance. Buck isn't in love with Eddie Diaz when he saves his son from the waves of disaster or when Eddie is shot and Buck tastes what his life would be like without him on his lips. Buck isn't in love with Eddie when he dies , when he lets Eddie's finger break his ribs and force his heart back into beating, or when he wakes up and hears him breathe out a sigh at the forgotten ventilator. Buck isn't in love with Eddie Diaz when he tells him he's leaving, when he packs his furniture into boxes or hands over a key Buck already has attached to his own. Buck isn't in love with Eddie Diaz because Eddie Diaz is straight. And when Maddie asks and Buck tells her so, she takes his hand in her own and says a simple, I'm not asking if he's in love with you Evan, I'm asking if you're in love with him. And Buck thinks, maybe, he's been in love since he watched the name DIAZ make a space next to his own on the lockers. Because BUCKLEY-DIAZ has a nice fucking ring to it.

[mythmagicetc]

eddie figures out his feelings post-texas and then he's talking to hen about it and he's like "well i can't make a move Now. i'm his landlord. that's like an abuse of power or something right?"

and she's like "eddie you two sleep in the Same Bed"

[911onabc]

buck gasping into eddie’s mouth when they finally kiss reblog if you believe

[aillewrites]

I would just like everybody to know that I watched the entirety of 911 with my mum and she clocked Eddie was gay the same episode he was introduced. Did I mention she’s also homophobic?

Bonus she also said Buck and Eddie need to stop eye fucking by the s3 kitchen scene and kiss because she hates dragged on romance storylines. Oh how we were in for a surprise

[aillewrites]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Generational Drawl

Chris can’t escape the ghost of his father. From the bedroom to the kitchen, from cigarette burns in the bathroom sink to the rough, worn concrete in the backyard—everything around him echoes a teenage Edmundo Diaz. A man Chris has been desperately trying to ignore.

But his dad isn't just a shadow; he's a living, breathing force in the Diaz household. As Chris unravels the pieces of his father's childhood—buried beneath military honours, rigid discipline, and unspoken expectations—he begins to see the boy his father once was. A childhood long buried under fire trucks and distant girlfriends.

or; during his time in El Paso, Chris begins to understand why his father is the way he is, piecing together memories from stains on the wall, overheard conversations, and half-formed questions. As he digs deeper into the fragments of Eddie Diaz’s life, Chris learns just how lost the man really is.

And maybe, just maybe, Chris and Eddie can start to understand each other—and help each other find their way home.

[hollanderdiaz]

quite literally one of the most beautiful fics i have read. chris's pov was written so beautifully. the word choices and the flow is just beautiful. i had tears in my eyes reading this. just beautiful.

[gayeddies]

All those foolish things we did. We only ever wanted to… to go together.

[aillewrites]

This is the Eddie Buck is gonna lock lips with oh my god they’re gonna be the hottest couple of all TV

[aillewrites]

“Bottom Buck” “Buck is a submissive bo—”

WRONG Eddie Diaz is the biggest bottom I have ever seen in my entire life and once he, mr only has had sex with women as a gay man, has his first proper orgasm??? It’s over. He’s going to be insufferable. His libido? Soaring through the roof. His self control? GONEEEE

[aillewrites]

The aching need I have in my bones for a body worship Buddie scene is so painful I think about it at least once a week

Imagine that scene from friends where Ross is kissing up Rachel's body after apologising for cheating— and now reverse that and make it so Eddie thought Buck was cheating on him (eg like Karen did with Hen in s4??) and they're both crying and Buck is apologising like he did cheat even though he didn't and trying to make it up to Eddie by kissing every part of his body from his ankles to his eyebrows. All while telling him how much he loves him/never would do anything like that because they're meant for each other and they're each others last.

Think about it.