Gender troubles? I don't know if i'm Cis, genderfluid, demiguy or something else.
I've always known I was bisexual but I started identifying with that when I was 11. When I look back even beyond 11yrs old I can see traces of myself acting as bisexual unknowingly, ever since I was a little kid.
So, bisexual is something I'm 100% certain I am. Even then I'm tired of being told that it's not real or to just 'pick one'
Now, for gender this is what I'm afraid of. I've been confused about gender for a while and I wasn't sure if I was female or male or something else. I'm always afraid because I know the stigma around gender is even stronger than bisexual (at least where I live) For example if I even considered 'trying out' the label of my (potential) genderfluid or demiguy idenity then I'm scared I'll get bombarded with 'youre just tomboy' or 'you're confused', 'pick one' all over again. Yet this is even stronger because at least bisexuality is more familiar than gender identity these days. Hell, I dont even know what I am.
Gender has always been something confusing. I was a major tomboy growing up and fluctuated during my teens. Some days I felt more girly than others, other days I felt male then 90% of the time I just felt like I didn't exist. This sounds like the potential definition to genderfluid but I never felt -right- nothing feels correct. I didn't want to come forward or say I was genderfluid because I always felt the need to 'pick one' so I stayed with identifying as female back then but I never felt comfortable.
I don't know if this is a gender issue or a dissociative issue.
I'm scared because what if I am genderfluid? What then? Sure I dress mostly in jeans and t-shirts but the way I dress doesn't tie me to an identity thats just how I'm comfortable.
I'm scared I'm just confused and fucking things up but I dont know for certian. I'm paranoid that ill mess up trying out an idenity or make myself more confused by trying a label out.
I guess its just really confusing right now. I feel like being genderfluid or demiguy could make sense but I feel like that would confuse people even more paired with my bisexuality. I'll just be invalidated all over again even though I still have to fight for my validation for my bisexuality to begin with.
I have days where I feel just- female but very tone down. I dont wear make up or act that feminine, on a regular basis I wear jeans, tshirts and hoodies. Very rarley i'll feel more femine which I mostly express by wearing eyeshadow and eyeliner, I dont wear skirts or dresses but super rarley ill get a desire too.
Then, sometimes ill feel more masculine, I wanna cover my chest and have shorter hair; i want to be perceived as a guy but im too afraid to express that desire openly. I hate wearing low cut shirts and only prefer wearing male shirts anyway, regardless of what I 'feel' that day.
I know gender isn't tied down to clothing and its not all that. Some days ill be fine with my body, other days ill love my chest but some times I dislike it. My chest is rather large and I have bigger hips and thicker thighs. I am disgusted with my thighs in particular, I feel my shape is too feminine for comfort.
This is just- confusing. Sexulaity I am certain in but gender is just so confusing right now. I wish i knew for certain what I was. Am I cis going through a hormonal phase? I've been tomboy as long as I remember- or am i genderfluid, demiguy or even something else.
I want to experiment but I'm afraid too. I "cross-dressed" once in secret at the start of the year and had so much fun but didn't have the right supplies. I feel like genderfluid doesn't feel.. validating but im not sure what does feel validating. I dont know what feels right.
Sometimes I can go months being like 'yeah im female' and in those days ill either feel super confident as female or just 'eh whatever' then sometimes I just get hit with a bus of this gender confusion. I don't know if this gender confusion is simply caused by my sexuality and nothing more or if it's because half of the time I don't feel real.
Other days I'll try being more masculine and I'll feel super comfortable but then a few weeks later I'll look back and think 'that can't be right' and feel grossed out with myself? But In the moment it feels so right- like I feel comfortable. Then this feeling loops. I feel constricted between the two but I don't know.
I'm just so lost.
Im 17yrs old, female sex and bisexual but what is my gender at this point?
I dont feel valid.
youre afraid of gender because the movement is purposefully vague and confusing and if you dont agree with them then you are evil, thats where the fear may be stemming from, at least it was for me.
i see you are defining the words of gender and identity according to genderism and trans ideology like âgirlyâ this is why you are SO confused.
gender is not biological sex, but gender only exists because of the biological sex they are assigned to. biological sex is the bodies humans are born with, male, female and the intersex conditions that can occur in between, gender is the STEREOTYPES and ROLES assigned to your sex, things like âgirlyâ and âtomboyââmasculineâ they are assigned to us by SEXISM, these gender roles have NOTHING to do with your actual personality. these roles of âgirlyâ and âmasculineâ are BOXES made to control the population via peoples biological sex, female people face a specific type of oppression and negative gender roles at the hand of this system.Â
now we get to the split in how to deal with gender: there are two ways: the way you are currently doing it via trans ideology where a female= girly and man=masculine, this is leading to confusion because this is not the way to deal with gender, you should not accept the roles and make new roles and names, the goal must be to eliminate gender from how you want to live altogether and simply be you: a woman (which is simply the name for female people) is NOT girly and stepping into âmasculine rolesâ DOES NOT make her less female because female doesnt mean âgirlyâ and male doesnt mean âmasculine. male and female are only the medical terms for our bodies and have nothing to do with how we are supposed to act.Â
once you start seeing the way you view gender as the CAGE it is your confusion might start to clear.
I wasn't sure if I was female or male or something else.
there is no âsomething elseâ intersex conditions still fall under male and female and ALL âthird gender categoriesâ across cultures are ALWAYS about gender roles and how those who dont follow them are âsomething elseâ there is no something else, there is no scientific examples of new sexes. From your post im inferring your afab, not liking the gender roles assigned to you isnt an indicator that you are another sex
a lot of female people feel âmasculineâ because the gender roles assigned to males is LIBERATING, their clothes are comfortable and the perception around men isnt sexist, this doesnt mean youre half male, it means youre human. like youre already valid by existing as you are, labels are only going to trap you more
I have days where I feel just- female but very tone down. I dont wear make up or act that feminine
female isnt a feeling though, there is no proof or evidence for this statement, once you get to the point where you arent forcing your brain to associate femininity with femaleness you might feel better? Â
you dont feel real cause youre forcing youre brain to disconect from your body to agree with gender and trans ideology, i really hope youre able to see that there is no feelings because there isnt supposed to be any!! you arent supposed to have to behave any type of way, you arent supposed to have to find labels to adjust with how you dress or how you want to act. the discomfort with a feminine body is maybe because of how feminine bodies are perceived and treated by society when you pair that up with thinking im a woman when im âgirlyâ of course disassociation happens, at least thats how it was for meÂ
nothing is ever going to be valid enough, im sure youve figured it out by now theres always a new label a new gender a cage, a million ways to chase a fleeting âgender euphoriaâ to be validated on gender performance, but its never enough because its not real or healthy and it goes away too soon, all it takes is people missing the pronoun pin or not caring that youre dressing masculine for the good feelings of validation to fly out the window
because validation on gender roles is just a new form of sexism, you are literally already valid as a female person who lives how they want and embraces their bisexulaity, you already are there!....BUT not really, cause your so focused on gender roles and feelings you cant enjoy your life and sexuality
im sorry if i offended you at any point with my reply, i just remember being your age and feeling the exact same way in your post, i also looped around and wondered if i was just a confused cis person or genderfluid/nonbinary etc etc and it never got better until i realized i dont have to follow that ideology or rules and neither do youÂ





















