Fandoms, Geeky, Alternative, Eclectic, Collector, Writer, Level/Age 40+, 18+ Content (MDNI), She/Her/He/Him. "Can't sleep so might as well hammer." "There is no prize to perfection...only an end to pursuit." "Love is a dagger." "After the night when I wake up, I'll see what tomorrow brings."
Welcome to my chaotic blog of fandoms and fanfiction. 😊
Here is an accumulation of all my stories, poems and artwork. I will keep this list updated.
As always, all content is for 18+ years old (MDNI).
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Spotify Playlists:
DnD Songs that Slap
BG3: Astarion, Dammon, Rolan and Gale.
Bridgerton: Benedict
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June WIP Schedule
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2026 Fandom Goals
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BG3 Headcanons:
Dammon More Dammon HCs
Rolan More Rolan HCs Even More Rolan HCs
Dammon and Rolan HCs for celebrating Tav's birthday
Astarion
Magical March: Rolan
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BG3 Letters from Loved Ones:
Letters from Rolan: The Apprenticeship: To Tav
Letters from Dammon: Letters of Grief
Letters from Rolan: The Apprenticeship: To Cal and Lia
Prayers from Rolan
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Current BG3 Long fics working on:
Fire, Ash and Metal (BG3 Dammon in Avernus)
Tiefling Massages (BG3 Massage/Coffee Shop AU, eventual poly relationship between Ren, Rolan and Dammon all together)
The Blacksmith & The Fighter (BG3 Dammon x Tav Rosa)
A Season to Remember (BG3 Rolan x OC/Tav - Regency AU)
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Various Short BG3 Fics:
Master Rolan: A Private Audience (Master Rolan x Tav)
Sunshine and Wine (BG3 Rolan x Dammon)
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BG3 Tavs/OCs:
Aurora: Origins Class
A Nautiloid's Chance in Hell
OC Tag Meme
Magical March: Aurora
Love Is Magic
Proud Gate Moms (aka where I spill all my fic ideas and HCs for Rosa and Dammon's children)
OC Basic Asks (Aurora and Rosa)
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Gifted BG3 Works:
Know that I loved you all along
Dammon x Rosa VPs
2025 Holiday Gift Exchange (Received)
2025 Holiday Gift Exchange (Gave)
Dammon x Rosa VPs (spicy)
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BG3 Snippets and WIP Posts:
WIP Whenever (5/24/26)
Chapter 5 - Fire, Ash and Metal
WIP Wednesday (4/29/26)
2 snippets from The Blacksmith and The Fighter Chapter 3, and Prayers from Rolan
Self-care Sunday:
3/1/26: 4 snippets (2 from The Blacksmith and The Fighter, 1 from Fire, Ash and Metal, and 1 from Master Rolan: A Private Audience)
Snippet Game:
Fire, Ash and Metal - Chapter 4 (Snippet) - Dammon in Avernus
Belated WIP Wednesday:
A Season to Remember - Ch. 2 (Rolan x OC/Tav - Regency AU)
Whatcha Working on Wednesday:
A Season to Remember - Ch. 2(Rolan x OC/Tav - Regency AU)
Tiefling Massages:
Part 1 Part 2 snippet Part 3 snippet Part 4 snippet
Drabble
WIP Wednesday:
Master Rolan: A Private Audience (Rolan x Tav (AFAB))
Fire, Ash and Metal (BG3 Dammon in Avernus):
Part 1 Part 4
Part 2 Part 5
Part 3 Part 6
WIP Whenever:
Master Rolan: A Private Audience (Rolan x Tav (AFAB))
The Blacksmith and The Fighter (BG3 Dammon x Tav Rosa)
Last Line Written: Chapter 2 snippet of The Blacksmith and The Fighter.
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Main Masterlist last updated: May 31st, 2026
TW/CW are on the post before each Oneshot and AU/Series that have a need for TW/CW either on the Tumblr post or on AO3.
My OC Panda's name is only equivalent to a nickname or just happens to be her name for one reason or another. She is a human, she/her pronouns unless otherwise stated.
Jaskier Masterlist
Loki Masterlist
Benedict Bridgerton Masterlist
To Woo the Emerald Princess Chapter 4 excerpts
Chapter 4 WIP excerpt (7/7/22)
Chapter 4 WIP excerpt (8/24/22)
My Comfort Characters In A Room Series Masterlist
Moodboard Masterlist
** Denotes it contains Heavy Sexual Content
Miscellaneous Oneshots
** Mirror, Mirror on the Wall ~ Colin x f Reader
Miscellaneous AUs/Series
The Thrilling Adventures of Disaster Boy and Anxiety Girl ~ Colin x Flower OC Reader
Story Summary: Rosa is a Moon Elf Fighter. She has been learning the art of being a Fighter throughout Faerûn since leaving her home in Silverymoon at the age of 70 and implementing that knowledge on her adventures. Dammon is a Tiefling Blacksmith. He has newly returned to The Prime Material Plane from his captivity in Avernus and was forced to leave his home of Elturel. They find affection and comfort in each other's company, forming a lasting bond. Though, more trials await as they must survive their current struggles as Faerûn is in danger. Rosa is wanting to solve her situation and help keep those she cares about safe. Her quests and adventuring has turned towards more survival of those around her too, ever wanting to keep others from suffering. All while adjusting to having her left arm torn from her while protecting the Tieflings from Gnolls so they could make it safely to The Grove. She struggles with changes in her life and Toril around her. Dammon wants to help keep Rosa safe, in the only means he knows how, he will forge anything possible for her and keeps himself busy while she is saving Faerûn. He knows she is capable but he can't help worrying about the one mortal he holds dearly to his heart. After everything he has been through lately, he hopes luck is still on his side. Love can be forged even in the darkest of times.
Chapter 3 Summary: Rosa prepares to leave for Moonrise Towers. Throughout the day she is bombarded with Rolan's accusations and anger about not having left yet. Before heading back to camp to rest, she decides to have a private conversation with Rolan about her past.
Chapter Word Count: 5,356
Chapter includes BG3 characters: Rolan, Astarion, Gale, Alfira and Lae'zel.
CW/TW: Please read the tags on A03 with every chapter posting. update the tags with each chapter added.
I'm so sorry it's taken me a year to post the next chapter. I hope to concentrate on the Hammers and Swords series more this year. Thank you for understanding and sticking with me for more Dammon and Rosa adventures.
Please follow this link to Chapter 3 on my A03.
Chapter 1 is here
Special thanks to my friend Zaxares for reading my draft and helping with editing! I don't have a social media account I can point you towards. Though, I'm very appreciative of their help and interest in my stories. ❤️🔥
Also, a huge thank you to @alwaysmauria for VPs of Dammon and Rosa! ❤️🔥
Tagging because of interest: @wasteful-sam @cursed-nyxan @alwaysmauria @nw39 @shandoratheexplorer @dramatiquechipmunk (If you would like to be added or removed, please let me know.)
Thank you so much for reading! I appreciate everyone who is interested in my fics, especially Dammon and Rosa. 🥺❤️🔥🩷
Thank you everyone who support my fics, and take the time to reblog, comment and kudos! It means the world of Toril to me. 🥺💜
Snippet from the beginning of Chapter 3 below the Keep Reading cut.
After leaving Dammon's room, Rosa spends the majority of the rest of the day making sure everything is in order for when they travel to Moonrise. She checks on the Harpers to see if they need any help with mending Last Light Inn from the attack. She doesn't want to leave them unprotected while they are gone.
She walks to the outskirts of the Moon Maiden's protection to gather supplies with Astarion and Lae'zel. As deadly as the road will be and Moonrise swarming with evil, she is going to need them to be overly stocked on items.
Astarion asks as he watches Rosa trying to detect any items around them, "Sooooo, how is the blacksmith faring?"
She says softly, "He is ok. Banged up a great deal but he will be ok with some rest."
He says with a grin, "I'm sure you can mend him up well enough. Why are you out here salvaging for supplies and not tending to him?"
She turns to him and raises an eyebrow, "Not sure how it is any of your concern."
He chuckles and says playfully, "I'm only wanting to make sure our leader is in good spirits and all." He coughs.
She says turning back to the ground in front of her, "I'm ok."
He says plainly with a hint of sadness, "Love, that doesn't sound too convincing."
She takes a deep breath and lets it out slowly. "Do not worry. I'm clear headed. Well, clear enough with a tadpole swimming around in it." She kicks a branch in front of her out of the way with her black leather boot.
He smiles and says, "Ok, if you say so." He stands in front of her and asks, "So, about these tadpoles. I think we should use them more often. The ones we find. They seem to be powerful."
Rosa stops abruptly, shifts her gaze to him and says, "It's not a great idea to use them. Who knows what permanent damage they could do to our brains?"
Astarion clenched his fists and says, "But think of all that power. We could learn to harness it and use it. To keep us all safe." He whispers, "Me included."
Rosa knows all her companions on this journey have some kind of troubled past, herself included. She can only imagine what Astarion has faced in his many years, but she has a small inclination from the conversations they have had. She says, "Power doesn't always solve everything. It can make everything worse."
He says with a huff, "Well, you're no fun."
She takes a step closer to him and asks, "You want to control others, like you were controlled?"
He stammers, caught off guard by the comparison, "No. I…I just don't want for us…for the others to have to struggle so much with keeping ourselves alive." He takes a moment before continuing as he crosses his arms, "Frankly I'm tired of sneaking around and making sure everyone lives." He starts to walk away.
Rosa asks softly, "Now who isn't convincing, Star?"
Astarion stops quickly at the nickname, it always throws him off. He knows she doesn't harbor feelings for him but he can tell she genuinely cares about his well-being, and he doesn't know what to do with that. He says, "Fine, just more tadpoles for me." He scoffs and walks in a different direction as he searches for anything.
Lae'zel suddenly appears from a nearby abandoned house, "What are you two chitchatting about? We need to find supplies or at least something we can trade for better supplies." She shifts a bag of items she is holding to her shoulder.
Rosa smiles as she gestures towards Lae'zel's bag, "Looks like you found enough for all of us ."
She says plainly, "I could have found more if you two would stop yapping like dogs."
Rosa leans closer to Lae'zel, smiles and says, "Thank you for the reminder. We need to stay on task."
Lae'zel coughs, "Yes, right."
Astarion yells, "Over here. I found something. It's buried."
Rosa pulls out a shovel and starts digging.
He says, "I would help but I don't want to get my nails dirty."
Rosa chuckles, "But, your white hair covered in blood is ok?!"
He grins and teases, "Of course, it's blood. What about being a vampire don't you understand, darling?"
Rosa grins to herself. She finally digs up a chest. "Of course it's locked." She looks at Astarion and asks with a teasing tone, "Would you oh mighty elven rogue vampire use your talented skills to unlock this chest of unknown treasure, please?"
He chuckles and says, "Well, if you need help, of course. Besides there might be something I want to keep."
Rosa steps away from the chest and watches Astarion carefully pick the lock. Once he has it open he steps aside. Rosa peers inside. She finds some arrows, coins, potions and an interesting magical necklace. She hands Astarion the arrows and a few coins, "For your talented help. Thank you!" She always makes a point to let him know he is a valued part of the team, more than a pretty face.
He raises an eyebrow and takes the items. "Yes, right. Well it's always good to know my talents are appreciated."
She knows that is close to an "thank you" she will get from him. From their conversations, she can tell he is dealing with a lot of trauma and uncertainty too.
She stands up and says, "Let's get back to Last Light Inn. Best to make sure they have everything they need too. Plus I think Lae'zel has found enough supplies for the whole camp."
Lae'zel says as she shifts her weight, "I'm just more diligent than most."
Astarion asks, "You are not scared of a few shadows are you? I for one am used to them. Feels familiar."
Rosa say, "No. I'm sure we can handle ourselves. Though, we don't want to be overwhelmed either, especially with all this loot on us. We will have plenty of chances to search the shadows later." She she glances at the ground as she remembers the promise she made to Dammon, along with an unsaid understanding of trying to be more cautious and safe. I don't want him needlessly worrying about me. I should only take chances when it is necessary. I know he has confidence in me, it's only normal for him to be concerned. I'm concerned leaving him here while I'm gone. Maybe someone at camp would be willing to stay behind to help Last Light Inn just in case.
Here is a small teaser for WIP Wednesday. I'm planning to publish The Blacksmith and The Fighter Chapter 3 tomorrow. ❤️🔥🩷
Chapter Summary: Rosa prepares to leave for Moonrise Towers. Throughout the day she is bombarded with Rolan's accusations and anger about not having left yet. Before heading back to camp to rest, she decides to have a private conversation with Rolan about her past.
Time for some Shadowheart Recs! The woman with no memory, who has gods fighting over her soul... the recommended fics below explore so many aspects of the Daughter of Darkness.
a name without a body to match by amorficzna (9988, Mature)
Content Notes: None
Pairings: Shadowheart/Gale, Shadowheart & Astarion
Shadowheart-focused soulmate AU
Reccer says: I love the unique twist the author put on the soulmate au, and I adore all the character work and interactions in this
nightlight by rowanisawriter (2481, General)
Content Notes: None
Pairings: Shadowheart/Gale
Shadowheart, in the shadows of Gale’s nightlights. Character study.
Reccer says: Fantastic Shadowheart character study all wrapped into a big extended metaphor of lights and shadows. Lovely prose and beautiful imagery
home by rowanisawriter (2855, General)
Content Notes: Identity issues
Pairings: Gale/Shadowheart
Shadowheart has no home or a memory of home. Trying to make space for herself in Waterdeep, a place already so filled with Gale's presence , is difficult and upsetting.
Reccer says: I think about this fic periodically when I am trying to find something in the kitchen cabinets. It haunts my narrative a bit now, the way absence haunts hers. Very precise and sweet fic.
Reaching For You by eldritchelf (11490, General)
Content Notes:
Pairings: Shadowheart/Tav
The Sharran church in Baldur's Gate is to be declared a terrorist organisation and a bounty placed on the head of Mother Superior Shadowheart. Florwyn cannot turn down one last, very final chance, to try and bring her old friend back to the light.
Reccer says: A delectable DJ Shart redemption that will rip your heart out and put it back to together again in ways you didn't know were still possible!
Leap of Faith by lemonwood (113387, Explicit)
Content Notes: VERY Slow Burn
Pairings: Halsin/Shadowheart
A story about forging new paths, breaking old patterns, and choosing love when the odds are stacked against you. A Shadowheart POV slowburn longfic about being mad at the stupidly kind and emotionally constipated druid.
Reccer says: A whole longfic from the Shadowheart POV and a slow burn! Where she goes from fighting herself to fighting what her past self left behind. And she gets mad at Halsin a lot, which is funny and real.
Cool Me Down, Grease Me Up by CallMeLyrus (35065, Explicit)
Content Notes: None
Pairings: Shadowheart/Tav
After the AC in Tav's car stops working for the umpteenth time, the head mechanic takes on the task personally in the privacy of an empty garage.
Reccer says: Mechanic shadowheart is everything I didn't know I needed and the whole thing is so fun, surprisingly sweet, and hot!!!
Last Glimpse of the Topsail by positivejam (8800, Explicit)
Content Notes: Mind Play BDSM, Femdom
Pairings: Gale/Shadowheart
Zone of Truth, cast by one lovesick cleric upon one terribly lovesick wizard. Gale and Shadowheart, good endings but rougher around the edges.
Reccer says: Shadowheart takes charge and is the POV character and she is so sweet and besotted and silly and I love her. Also it is hot. :3
The Fey-Cursed Sea by BardicWantings (81447, Teen)
Content Notes: Canon-Typical Violence
Pairings: Shadowheart/Lae'zel, Gale/Astarion
It's a post-canon adventure fic where the main companions (sans Karlach) go on a quest to solve the mystery of poisonous magic crabs. Each of them gets an act that continues their in-game storyline, including Shadowheart who's generally a sort of main character here
Reccer says: The author is so good at writing an adventure story and setting up a mystery. The pacing is perfect, the characterisation as well and the fight scenes are always a delight
From Darkness Into Light by Haint_Blue_Moon (13400, Explicit)
Content Notes: Serious BDSM--Mind every tag
Pairings: Halsin/Shadowheart
In the heart of Shar’s temple, Halsin’s simmering disdain for Shadowheart’s faith collides with a desire he can no longer suppress, leading to a brutal, carnal reckoning that leaves both characters unmoored from their beliefs.
Reccer says: It's hot, in short. Also a very fun look at a dom/sub dynamic that can be cooked between these two. The themes are powerful as well as the smut.
A pet by syrupwit (51900, Explicit)
Content Notes: Past Abuse, Identity Crisis
Pairings: Astarion/Shadowheart
Astarion turns briefly into a bat and Shadowheart takes care of him in his new ittybitty form. This event triggers her capacity for warmth and care and it changes the course of her relationship with faith, devotion, the shadows, and Shar.
Reccer says: This is a Shadowheart fic where Astarion is fluttering around in the corners like the tiny little bat he (briefly) is and such care is taken with her character it makes my heart swell. I LOVE THIS FIC. RAAGH.
Marks by syrupwit (1743, Teen)
Content Notes: Drinking, Mutual Pining
Pairings: Astarion/Shadowheart
Shadowheart and Astarion have a sincere and silly moment tipsy in the Gate where she insists she's not that mysterious if you're paying attention.
Reccer says: It's wickedly cute and sincere without giving up a single edge these two characters have in canon.
a little discourse by syrupwit (2000, Explicit)
Content Notes: Cunnilingus, Masochism, Service Top
Pairings: Gale/Shadowheart
A Galeheart cunnilingus special where Gale provides for god's favorite princess.
Reccer says: It's both hot and very funny and the character voices are so good.
Pre-events of the game, the Sharrans send Shadowheart to investigate the up and coming Enver Gortash.
Reccer says: I liked it!
Shar's Entropy by sometimes angelo (35258, Explicit)
Content Notes: Slow Burn, Shar-typical terrors
Pairings: Shadowheart/Tav
Csaloka will come to realize she wants to give Shadowheart everything. But the cleric has other ambitions, and she serves a jealous goddess. What might be lost along the way?
Reccer says: An extremely rich and textured look at Shadowheart's journey with loss, her goddess, and the nature of love.
This is what I hope to accomplish in June 2026 for accountability:
Chapter 3 of The Blacksmith and The Fighter. Hopefully this will be published this week. I just need to finish the editing process.
Love Letters from Dammon (10x100 Drabble). I started this back when I wrote Letters of Grief and never finished it. The drabble needs to be finished written and edited. Though, because it is a short oneshot, it will be one of the easiest to write. I just need to focus on finishing it.
Chapter 5 of Fire, Ash and Metal. I've started writing the chapter but it needs to be completely written and edited.
At least Chapter 4 of Master Rolan. This chapter is outlined. I know basically what I want to say but it will need to be completely written and edited. I'm crossing my fingers that this will help inspire me to finish the short fic faster too.
Chapters from Fire, Ash and Metal, and the Master Rolan fics will be the most time consuming. Most likely they won't be finished until the end of June.
The fics are subject to change but I really want to accomplish these goals in June.
I'm hoping to jump start writing, even if it's a little, each day. There are so many stories in my head that I want to get out and share with everyone.
As always, thank you for reading and caring about these characters as much as I do. 🥺😊💜
This is what I hope to accomplish in June 2026 for accountability:
Chapter 3 of The Blacksmith and The Fighter. Hopefully this will be published this week. I just need to finish the editing process.
Love Letters from Dammon (10x100 Drabble). I started this back when I wrote Letters of Grief and never finished it. The drabble needs to be finished written and edited. Though, because it is a short oneshot, it will be one of the easiest to write. I just need to focus on finishing it.
Chapter 5 of Fire, Ash and Metal. I've started writing the chapter but it needs to be completely written and edited.
At least Chapter 4 of Master Rolan. This chapter is outlined. I know basically what I want to say but it will need to be completely written and edited. I'm crossing my fingers that this will help inspire me to finish the short fic faster too.
Chapters from Fire, Ash and Metal, and the Master Rolan fics will be the most time consuming. Most likely they won't be finished until the end of June.
The fics are subject to change but I really want to accomplish these goals in June.
I'm hoping to jump start writing, even if it's a little, each day. There are so many stories in my head that I want to get out and share with everyone.
As always, thank you for reading and caring about these characters as much as I do. 🥺😊💜
Thank you, @rubyeyebabybat and @alrendriablaze, for tagging me!
I can't really share the last line I wrote because it's a huge spoiler, so I'll just drop you guys the fanfic itself. The first chapter is up and has only 2745 words
Have fun!
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Now onto the teaser for Broken Mirror's next chapter!
"Gods, I'm so tired," I whisper. "It is her right to punish me so. I have failed, and I deserve this."
"Do you, though?" The whispered words sound like they come from far, far away, and oddly enough, they sound just like Rolim.
"Leave me alone," I answer as blood trickles down from the corner of my mouth. I draw another wheezing breath, trying to gather enough magic to heal the damage so I may yet live another day.
I reach for the magic I share with my Dark Lady, but the pool is empty.
I feel so cold…
This is the end, isn't it?
"Shadowheart," Rolim's voice again. "Stay with me."
"I don't need you, and you don't need me," I answer the phantom. "So why won't you stop pestering me?"
"Because you're my friend."
I manage a weak snicker; the cold feeling from before gives way to a gentle warmth.
"Who knew that death could feel so nice?" I mutter weakly.
"Now now, don't be dramatic," Rolim's voice sounds in my ears again. "You're not dead yet."
"I'm hallucinating," I answer. "Clearly, this is it."
But then—
I wonder—
Why would I dream of him when I lay dying?
Gentle tags to @nw39 @optimisticgrey @lottavilja @vakariansyndrome @denesmera @roguishcat @chaushaus
I'm always hard on myself for being a slow writer. I should write faster. I should focus better. I need to dedicate more time to writing. I need to work on one fic at a time. I need to be better. I should do this and that.
Though, today while editing a fic I realized there is something positive about being a slow writer. See a year ago I wouldn't have been able to write a scene I did recently. I wouldn't have been able to write an NPC well because I had not delved into his character. I only a month or so ago realized I could connect his story to my OCs past. This story wouldn't have been the same if I had not taken that time and research.
Sometimes the actual words take longer even if I'm preplanning, it's legitimately still a part of writing.
Sometimes things need to simmer longer, and that is perfectly ok.
