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A beverage distributor, a metallurgist, and a drug trafficker are sitting at a bar having a conversation. None of them realize that the others are talking about a different kind of coke.
ABBOTT ELEMENTARY 2.02 “Wrong Delivery”
The amazing digital art of Sylvain Sarrailh
I spent like 15 hours on this.
*impressed slow clap*
This was ridiculously pleasing to read out loud.
This is a legitimately fine poem. I say so with my BA in English and Philosophy and my PhD. It’s DAMN HARD to write something like this. Be impressed, yo.
In case they think I've gone missing .
I'll be with my favorite booklovers
You know what? It’s really like that sometimes.
This is automatic stress relief
i could feel my shoulders unknotting
On Deaf Ears
[A conversation I’d love to have with Joey Bada$$ {Babylon}]
When words, so eloquently spoken describe our heart ache.
Have you ever wondered if its meaning was understood?
Did they listen? Were indifferent ears turned away from your message?
Or were they blinded by the beat as their head bobbed along unconscious,
As these pain-stricken lyrics are accompanied by horns that make desperate supplications
Did they truly listen? To the drums that sound out the rhythm of our running feet.
Did their hearts not pound with them?
Or are these words set to the melody of their ignorance
Following the tune of an apathetic society
Do they know this is not just a song?
Not just a poetic rap to memorize and later dismiss
While the images of fearful boys, chased young men and violent aggressors
Play across our minds like videos on repeat
Do they hear our reality or our fear?
A struggle to live imbedded within each note
Did your soul not float among the harmonious voices as he sang for freedom?
Carried among the chorus unison of these voices till the very warmth of the prophesied gates
fell on your face
When you lay your soul so bare, do they hear?
My Fixation with Inebriation
[This is an edited of February 11th 3:49am]
There’s no high strong enough to erase the feel of your hands on my skin, the sound of your voice in the early hours before dawn, or the mark you’ve left on my soul.
There’s no high strong enough to remove the brand burned into my very being, sealed under smooth flesh. Hidden behind false smiles and sweet words.
There’s no high strong enough to cut through our memories, like thick smoke clouding my mind till I no longer hear your violent commands, yet they still crawl beneath my ribs. Climbing along my bones to puncture my still and naïve heart.
I haven’t found a euphoric thrill that can match the scent you’ve left on my skin. The heady musk of desperation that clings to with drop of sweat.
I haven’t found joy in anything since losing your touch, the very slide of your palm against my vacant vessel feels forced and as empty as your promises.
I haven’t found an ounce of reprieve since breaking loose from your magnetic pull, intoxicating sips of freedom keep me bound to your memory. It’s spreading warmth within my belly is jarring compared to the cold our separation left me in.
I have yet to find a spirit rich enough that can intoxicate me they way you do. Not an ounce of immunity gained through these destructive vices that eat away at me.
I have yet to find burning relief that slips my mind into a kaleidoscope of colour but offers no peace from the fixation I have with our memories. No substance flowing through my veins compares to how you’ve captured me.
I have yet to find another euphoria so vivid, that it haunts my waking thoughts.
There’s no high strong enough, no method that I’ve yet to find, nor a prayer I haven’t prayed that is powerful enough to abolish the memories that we imprinted into my spirit. But trust me...I’ve tried
Dashed Hopes
Fret with old button
Snap! Down it falls to its death
Employment with it
Curiosity Just Might Kill Me
Curiosity has always been Zane’s undoing. For years, her penchant for digging up secrets has come with the worst of luck. Lost jobs, ruined relationships, and today in the basement of the university’s library she suspects that this bout of curiosity will end up with her being expelled. She couldn’t even remember what compelled her to go through with her halfcocked plan. One moment she had been jotting down due dates for her linguistics courses in her planner at her usual haunt, the mom-and-pop diner three blocks away from her university campus, and the next she was eavesdropping on a group of seniors as they tried to convince some impressionable freshmen to join in on their yearly ritual. Ole Years Night.
“I swear on my mother’s grave, I am telling you the truth.” Said the dark-haired upperclassman around a mouthful of burger. He reached for his soda cup and drank deeply before chewing twice and swallowed. “Legend has it, that on Ole Years Night the veil between worlds thins, granting all kinds of spirits and creatures to pass through.”
His friends, at least she assumed they were all friends due to their identical dress style. Each man wore a dark coloured graphic t-shirt, worn jeans, sneakers, and a team ball cap perched backwards atop their heads. Glancing to her left, at their table, she noted the rapt attention their younger companions gave him. Three freshmen sat crammed, rather uncomfortably she noted, in one side of the booth seats. Soaking up every word. From left to right there was lanky, dreamy, and puffy. She had nicknamed them based on their appearances since she hadn’t been paying attention when they exchanged names.
“Legend says, on this auspicious night, only the brave travel down to the basement in the Brathwaite Hall library. There’s an inscription written on the wall, if you recite it twice and leave three gifts then the spirits that live beneath the campus grant you what ever you wish. But on one condition, you have to be willing to part with your most prized possessions.”
Jeez these kids are stupid! She thought. Parting with a sentimental item and performing a ritual all for a wish? One she doubted would even come true. Couldn’t be real. It’s a wish for god’s sake! And as if on queue that small inquisitive voice in the back of her mind said but what if it isn’t? She screwed her eyes shut, hoping to dispel the foolish thought before it could take hold. Before she could convince herself to follow some stupid myth which would no doubt lead her to trouble…again.
Despite her musings she found her attention back on the group’s leader, she even feigned taking something out of her back pocket as a cover for why she suddenly slid closer. It definitely wasn’t so she could hear them better. Absolutely not!
“But how do you know if it worked? Like really worked” this came from a tall slender kid on the verge of becoming one with the wall partition to his left.
The dark upperclassman leaned back in his seat, placed his arms on the back of the booth and grinned. He knew he had them.
“I know…” he paused, stretching out the dramatics “because I’ve done it three years in a row, tonight will be my fourth.”
A scoff came from the kid at the end of the bench. He had on a dark hoodie pulled up over a mop of blonde curls. His face barely visible underneath his cascade of hair and above the hood, which he had pulled tight. Images of a childhood cartoon character from Ed, Edd, and Eddy came to mind.
“Your word? We’d essentially be breaking and entering, risking expulsion, and not to mention criminal charges all for a supposed wish.”
At the kid’s dismissive tone their storyteller stiffened briefly before once again adopting his nonchalant pose.
“Well in that case, I guess we won’t be seeing you there tonight.” His large hand reached out and snagged a few fries from plate in the center of the table before popping them in his mouth. His gaze swept over the other two freshmen, waiting for them to voice their agreement.
“Look, if you don’t believe us at least come for the fun of it. What else were you planning to do? Sit in your dorm and prep for classes? If anything, it’s apart of the college experience. Live a little” he coaxed. And it was working, she could tell.
Zane had stayed in her booth long enough to get the details before she placed a twenty under her coffee mug, packed up her things and left the diner. Three and a half hours later, she was sneaking towards a window in the east wing of the library. Students had been skulking about searching for a way into the library. But she had paid them no mind. She knew this particular window would be open. Obviously, since you purposely left it open before closing!
Her voice of reason often chastised her while she performed daring acts. One day she would analyze why it was always during and not before she did something stupid. Locating the ajar window, she cautiously pushed it up. Giving herself enough room to toss her knapsack onto the floor before sitting on the sill and swinging her legs over and down. She landed with a soft thud; the thick carpet cushioned much of the noise. Turning, she repositioned the window till it was two inches from being closed. Deciding it was best to move with haste, Zane picked up her back, crouched down and scampered to the far right of the vast library. There she could clearly make out the entrance to the basement.
Zane wasn’t usually one to believe in folk tales but this one was just too good to pass up. Yeah, right! She thought to herself. The myth is clearly why you’re doing this. She remarked sarcastically herself. Her stomach twisted with nerves as she carefully opened the heavy metal door to the archives level. Dutifully she ignored the sign with big block letters and advised this area was for “RESTRICTED PERSONNEL ONLY!” Hinges creaked loudly causing her to pause. Ducking a bit lower she waited, listened to see if anyone was coming to stop her. After a count of ten Mississippi’s, she decided no one had heard her intrusion and pulled the door open further. Her heart pounded as the hinges voiced their protest to being moved, halting her progression she looked at the space she had to fit through. There was just enough room for you to squeeze through, which consequently is exactly what Zane did. Once again leading with her removed backpack, she shuffled a bit awkwardly into the quiet hallway. Careful, so as not to make any other noises, she kept her back to the cold metal and eased it shut. It wasn’t till the heavy door thunked back into place that air rushed into her lungs, she hadn’t held her breath consciously.
Zane took a moment to grab the flashlight from her bag and looked around. The hallway was wide, about fifteen feet long and hosted five rooms. Two on the left and three on the right. From what the diner patrons said tonight, the passage to the basement was on the right, third door. With no time to waste Zane got to her feet and jogged a short while till she stood before the pale grey door. There was nothing to indicate it was locked so she reached for the knob and turned. Without resistance it gave, the door swinging open. Slowly she descended the creaky old steps, she made it down ten steps before having to turn to the right. Glancing over the railing Zane noted the staircase made two more descending right turns leading into pitch black emptiness. Sucking in a deep breath, one she regretted two seconds later, she continued down, down, down. The deeper she went the colder it got, the frozen air assaulting her chest like sharp icicles. She nearly thought she could see the fog from her breath as she made her way farther down.
As her nerves ratcheted up, creating a knot in her belly she found herself humming the chorus of Florence + the Machine’s ‘Shake it Out’. It might not stop her from being expelled or murdered but it definitely helped some of her jitters. Finally, she reached to bottom step, her sneaker made a wet squishing sound as she found her footing. Sweeping the flashlight around the room she took in her surroundings. She rubbed one hand against her arm, now pebbled with gooseflesh. She didn’t think she could stay long, the temperature seemed to drop with every minute she spent down here.
The room was cold and wet, with damp stains seeping down the walls glistening against the bright light shone upon them. Mold, old textbooks, and dust all clogged her nose. She sneezed twice before moving deeper into the room. It was quite large, she noted with surprise. Approximately 1,200 square feet, she followed the narrow walkway through rows and rows of materials. Zane noted several wrapped canvases all leaning against the wall to her left, cattycorner to those canvases’ crates were stacked to the ceiling. A faint scratching noise emanating from them. She really hoped that wasn’t where the etchings were. Boxes were stacked along the remaining walls, the material soggy and bubbled from the moisture in the air. It was a standard room, stuffed full of forgotten items. Each wall boasted stacks of boxes or crates their valuable treasures once safely ensconced within. The center of the room could be aptly described as a test between the lines of chaos and organization. Tables in neat rows were laden with various books, manuscripts, charts, and documents. Using her flashlight, she searched for the writing. Examining the faded spines of haphazardly stacked books along the way.
Once she was within sight of the walls to the right of the vast room, she bathed it in light and hoped to see anything etched into its aged face. She was about to give up when dark red writing peeked from behind a stack of boxes. Steeling herself she walked over and nudged the box, it refused to budge. The pile stopped just at her stomach. More than ever, Zane felt grateful for her additional height. Nudging a foot behind the stack, she grabbed the exposed right side and shoved the pile away from the wall. She must have used too much force because the first two boxes crumbled, spilling their contents all over the floor.
Sighing she leaned down to pick up a few books, the floor would soak right through them if she didn’t. She had stacked a few books in her arms before the leathery cover on a sealed tube caught her eye. She examined it closer, a thick layer of dust and filth obscured most of her view, so she stood up, stepping over the remaining books, and walked towards the nearest table. There wasn’t much room left to put the books down, but she figured no one would notice if they were out of place anyways.
Once her arms were free Zane plucked up the interesting volume. She tried blowing the dust off the seal but that only resulted in a dust cloud choking her up. Coughing, she resigned herself to ruining her black yoga pants. Wiping the parchment tube across her pant leg she noted that it had a reddish hue to the leather. She followed the symbols as they twisted round the long cannister. Turning the tube, the glyphs stamped along the tight material almost danced with the movement. The tube was about twelve inches long; a melted seal like a hard wax covered the opening. She observed the symbols once more, finding that they were similar to the Greek alphabet. She couldn’t place most of the glyphs, but she was certain it was Greek, or an older version of it. Giddy at this discovery she hastily shucked off her bag, ripping it open to search for her lighter. Once she felt the cool plastic of her Bic lighter, she pulled it out. Shaking, numb fingers tried again and again to get the light to work. Zane let out a small growl of frustration as she tucked the tube under one arm. She put the light between her two hands and blew moderately warm air on her fingers. After four attempts, she tried once more to spark a flame. With a metallic clink the flame ignited. She was tempted to jump with joy but figured it was best not to wave the flame out. Stiffly she rolled the tube from beneath her arm and grasped it in her left hand. Careful not to place the lighter too close to the tubing she watched as the wax melted.
Red wax dripped down the sides and onto the floor, the quickly growing puddle resembled crimson drops of blood she noted. All the while, Zane hopped from one foot to the other in an effort to keep herself warm. Here in the deepest part of this room it was freezing. When she couldn’t wait any longer Zane shoved the lighter in the waist ban of her pants and reached for the mostly melted seal. She hesitated briefly, wondering if she should do this, there’s a chance the damp air could dissolve this paper, ruining it forever. As much as she wished she could say she stopped herself, once again – her curiosity got the better of her. A voice, this one not like her usual musings encouraged her, open it, you must see what’s inside it begged. In hindsight, the change of her inner voice should have made her pause, but her greed for information, for something exciting, won out.
Zane placed the bottom of the tube between bet legs and hunched over it to twist the seal away. At the first rotation the air in the room seemed to tense with its own apprehension. A slight breeze glanced across the back of her neck and she froze briefly. Her heart sped up, but she chalked it up to her imagination. The quiet of the room pressed in on her as she twisted once more. Distantly she noted that the scuttling noises from the crates on the other side of the room stopped completely. With one final yank she pulled the seal from the tube. A great gush of dust rushed into her face, without thinking she gasped. Inhaling the filth floating in the air. Zane let out deep coughs in an effort to dislodge the grit from her throat. Instead, it felt like icy fingers gripped her throat preventing air from entering her lungs. She sputtered and wheezed till she collapsed to her knees; her bones protested as they collided with the damp floor.
Her eyes watered as she struggled to breathe. Her hands desperately clawed at her throat hoping to convince one smooth inhale of cold air down to her too tight lungs. Desperately she ripped the neck of her jacket and shirt away. Her now exposed neck did nothing to expel the thing choking her, seemingly blocking her airways. She thrashed till she lay on her stomach, great hacking coughs racking her chest. She felt the urge to throw up and welcomed it. She was sick then; fluid splashed her hand as she dispelled what ever had nearly choked her to death. Distantly, Zane was aware of her finer nails cracking as her hand fiercely grappled along the stone floor. Heaving twice more before she was able to take a full, searing breathes of air. she sucked greedily once, twice, her chest heaving at the welcomed gulps filling her.
Slowly she sat up, the flashlight had rolled beneath the table and lay an arms length away. The backsplash illuminated her surroundings, separating the dark room from her bubble of light. The sudden plunge just beyond seemed eerily sinister. As if a creature could jump out at you at any moment. The thought made her chuckle, paranoid much. She thought. Coughing a few more times, her eyes swept up to what started all of this, the writing on the wall. Literally. Now that the boxes no longer obscured her view, she could clearly see the passage written there. Ink the same colour as the wax on the tube was scrawled elegantly on the wall. Her hand crept to her throat as fear slowly crept back in, freezing her in place. Trembling, the cloying smell of her own mistakes now joined the previously stagnant odour of the room. As the red letters, much like the ones along the case rearranged themselves. No longer did she see unintelligible glyphs but clear English. Spelling out a warning.
“Beware of the marid, for no wish is worth their wrath. Never promise, bargain, nor plead with the beast. The cost of their magic will always be what you cannot freely give. Remove the seal and he will be free. Pray, that you survive it.”
Zane blinked at the message, perplexed at its meaning. That was, until she felt the hair by her right hear shift with the rank hot breath of someone behind her. The solid mass of something, no, someone crouched at her back. And with its deep chuckle, the light guttered out.
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Its an addiction, a deep and pathetic need. An ache I'd rip from my soul and offer to a power desperate enough to need to be remembered. Cut it out, if I could I would rid myself of this empathetic heart. Live and live well.
Become as selfish as the two halves that created me. Instead I love to look at things that I cannot have, or don't deserve. Wish for others what I dare not wish for myself. I look at them and yearn the way poets yearned for peace and love, The way warriors yearn for battle, or how I yearn to breathe. Really and truly breathe, not to inflate your lungs with air but instead to sustain me.
Wants and hopes I do not voice for fear of trampling your precious garden. This compulsion I feel to make you grow while I wither, to see you thrive while I waste away is like a disease.
Untitled Short Part Three
“We have to go; the fog will make it harder to navigate the streets around all the bumbling idiots out there.” Gathering her abandoned portion of cloak, he tied the opening together before picking up a bag he’d previously hidden in the stairwell.
Nodding quickly, Ellora stepped forward and pulled the gear they’d need to turn the Treasury elevation system into a quick elevator. Silas’ hands stilled as she removed ropes and climbing gear. She was also very certain he’d started cursing her name with the very few Celt oaths he’d picked up over the years.
Smiling to herself, Ellora crouched down on her knees and began fitting the harness before Silas’ feet. She tapped his boot when it was all in the correct order. When he didn’t move to step into the leg slots, she looked up at him expectantly.
In an unaffected tone he simple remarked, “Sorry, for a second I thought you meant for me to put that on. Because that would imply that I’d have to freefall into dead space.”
“Silas, we don’t have time for your dramatics. Put the rutting harness on and get your ass into the shaft.” Once again, she tapped his boot; from the wince she knew she did it slightly harder than necessary.
“This isn’t dramatics! Is it dramatic to want to live to see my twenty first year?” Though he complained he still stepped into the harness, shifting when she pulled the binding roughly up his legs and tightened the material around his hips.
“One would think that through the course of our friendship, you would have learned to trust me by now.” She said with a saccharine sweet smile. His eyes narrowed but he didn’t argue further.
“Plus, options were proposed. I recall suggesting you use your magic to shadow walk to the ground floor, but you said it was too dangerous.” She huffed as the harness dragged against his wet pants.
“It is too dangerous, if I transport us into the fog who knows what will happen. We could be run over by a carriage.” He noted, reaching down Silas’ large hands pulled the harness further up his legs.
“I beg your pardon? Outside? This entire time you thought we wanted you to… no Silas. In the lobby is what I meant.”
He paused then, and from the way is eyes shifted left to right she knew he was weighing their options down to the smallest error. Abruptly Silas reached down and plucked her from the ground. Her feet barely touched the floor before he walked her to the open shaft. Sensing what he was about to do Ellora opened her mouth to protest but was cut off when they stepped off the ledge into open air.
Darkness engulfed them, expecting to feel wind rushing past them as they fell it took her a few seconds to realize that they weren’t. Rather, their footsteps echoed as they walked. Though dark they could see, everything lay in dark hues of grey and black. Her right arm was firmly gripped in Silas’ grasp. Silas had the ability to walk through any dark spot or shadow. Kaur also possessed this gift, though he often used it for more mundane reasons. They called it shadow walking because, you quite literally walked through shadows. The first time Silas had done it they had been seven and nine. They had been running from the magisters guard when he slipped and disappeared through a shady out cropping under a building. Ellora couldn’t believe what she saw, stopping in her tracks she frantically searched the cold stone wall for what ever trick made him disappear. When his head poked out of the darkness, they had both been shocked. Kaur later confessed he possessed the same gift. She, however, didn’t master shadow walking till she reached her twelfth year, it was the reason either Silas or Kaur held onto her when they decided to walk through shadows. She’d tried endlessly to master it, finding that her magic much preferred walking through slivers of moonlight. Like her magic countered Kaur and Silas’ darker aspects. It only irritated her a bit whenever they’d grab onto her, as if they forgot how much her magic had grown since they were children. Her once fickle powers had steadied two summers ago; on her sixteenth birthday she’d felt a force awaken within her. She hadn’t told either of her friends about the changes she slowly noticed. First it was her enhanced abilities, soon after the precognitions came, then her body had almost transformed overnight this past autumnal equinox. More recently though, her powers have felt like an extension of her that she could interact with. In some moments, when she’s alone, Ellora’s magic seemed to speak with her. Not literally, but she can sense its moods and feelings.
A soft thud brought Ellora out of her musings. Just a head about fifteen paces, an arrangement of furniture hinted that they had walked to the main lobby of the treasury. Silas stepped into a small pool of white light, colour returning to his boots and legs briefly. Wrenching her arm from his vice like grip she exited their walk and looked around the lobby. She only glanced back at her companion to confirm he had followed her. Reaching the main entrance doors, Ellora pulled the heavy oak door open and stepped into the late evening light. Her eyes tried to focus in the faint grey smog that stood all around them. After a second or two everything came into focus. She had always been able to see better than her magically gifted counterparts. At first Ellora thought all witches possessed the same enhanced strength, sense, and speed that she did. When she first met Remy Valcourt, she learned that her abilities were unlike any other. He’d spent what she thought was a fortune training and honing her as a lethal weapon. During the day Remy had subjected Ellora to multiple tutors that taught her languages, maths, sciences, art and music. Then in the evening she was put through rigorous physical training. She was now adept at sword play, hand to hand combat, archery, several self defense techniques as well as various martial arts. On the weekends, he had placed her before his lady and suffered through etiquette and “Lady Preparations”. After two months of what she seriously considered torture, she demanded Kaur and Silas join her or she’d disappear without a trace. Remy had hit her so hard she’d lost her balance and fell. When she stood up and repeated her demand, he’d watched her for a moment before arguing that she was a waste of his time. The next day they’d all shoved onto the same bench as Lady Dupuis lectured them on complex mathematical equations. Though she often argued only Kaur had benefitted from those lessons.
A calloused hand engulfed her right hand, bringing her back to the present. Squeezing it, she navigated them both down the front steps and into the throng of people struggling to see their way. Deftly she avoided the outstretched palms as citizens blindly shuffled through the streets. They made it to the end of the block before Ellora recited a spell granting Silas the use of her heightened sight. His steps only faltered briefly before he took over and pulled her along. She hated being led like a lost sheep but admitted, to herself that is, that she didn’t know where they were going. He pulled her closer as they moved farther into the city, the closer they got to the shopping district the heavier traffic got. Ornate carriages filled the streets now, adorned in various coats of arms. Lesser born families would have gathered in the windows to watch the parade of extravagance through their streets had the fog not been so dense. Soon their rushed pace turned to a light jog as they raced along the poorly paved side streets. Her long legs kept up with Silas as they picked up speed and ran. They made a sharp right turn through the centre square, the need for urgency was on the forefront of their minds. Once they were through the square Silas began to run faster, pulling Ellora along, her boots slipped on the muddy stones. At least she hoped it was mud she was sliding through. her breaths started to labour at the speed they used, suddenly she felt her arm practically being ripped from the socket. Silas had stopped, without a word, and stood before a beautiful shop window. The ornate dresses and bobbles barely registering with her, the bright red door with swirling symbols however, had Ellora’s interest. The intricate etchings were in an old language, a spell concocted to give protection to whomever entered. Without preamble Silas shoved them through the doors of the dress shop.
The light tinkling of a bell sounded as they both stumbled into the shop’s entryway. Belatedly Ellora wished they had taken the time to wipe some of the muck from their boots as they walked onto the plush carpet of the store. Three figures emerged from a curtain, two young women close in age and an older woman that Ellora would guess to be their mother from the similar features of their beautiful faces. As the eldest woman approached Ellora noticed the dark complexion of her skin and the small white markings on her face. She tried not to show her surprise on her face, masking it into indifference.
Silas was the first to step forward and greet the women. “Well met Alaina, I am grateful you agreed to do this favour for my lady.” His deep voice took on a smooth quality Ellora recognized as Silas’ attempt to sound sincere.
“Well met lording.” She intoned, her eyes never leaving Ellora’s.
Without waiting for him to introduce her, Ellora advanced and took the shop owners outstretched hand in hers. Callouses rubbed against one another, Ellora mused on the fact that Alaina’s were in different places due to her work as a seamstress.
“Well met.” She said looking to the two women huddled together behind their mother. These young women carried the same white markings on their faces.
Two small dots at the corner of each eye and three vertical lines beneath their bottom lip, the outside lines being shorter than the third in the middle. They were all Baltan, of the white sands if she remembered the symbols correctly.
“My lady, these are my daughters.” She gestured for them to join their little group. Both women came closer, their excitement causing Ellora to blink at them in confusion. “This is my eldest, Alma and my youngest girl Aldi.” Both girls bowed their heads briefly when their names were called. They had expressive almond eyes, smooth skin, and heart shaped faces. The high cheek bones and full mouths added to their stunning beauty. It was framed by long golden curls, the younger sister showing white blond streaks throughout her hair.
“Well met, I am ever so pleased you decided to help us this night.” Her Baltan, though rarely used, rolled off her tongue.
She might not have returned to her homelands since her early childhood, but she refused to lose one ounce of her beloved culture. A light sparked in their eyes at the acknowledgement to their shared heritage.
“It would be the least we could do for what you have done for us I suspect.” The comment made Ellora’s brow twitch.
Silas’s warm breath brushed her ear as he spoke in hushed tones. “Last year, when you went up against Lady Marseille because she was targeting certain shop owners if they were from other kingdoms, Alaina was one of the owners you bargained better terms for.”
It hadn’t occurred to her that she was ever going to meet the faceless men and women she had fought for. Lady Marseille had been outraged that Ellora had dared to call her a bigot. Ellora on the other hand had wanted to call her something far worse, that would have started an all-out feud between her coven and the Marseille.
“Might we get started? We don’t have long before we are expected at the Magistrates doors.” Her tone gave no indication that Silas had even spoken. An act they often put on when outside of their usual hideouts.
Alaina nodded before escorting her over to a small bathing area. The shop was quite expansive once you stepped past the initial entry. Decorated much in the lavish style of Baltan royalty the room was covered in warm tones and soft fabrics. A seating area closer to the main entrance looked most inviting. Off to the right a collection of designs was displayed along with posed mannequins dressed in what Ellora assumed was Alaina’s designs. She was ushered to the left of the shop. Two workstations were set up along the far wall, scraps of fabric lay strewn across one desk. Before her, Ellora noticed an elevated platform it’s top covered by a soft pillow. Her attention, however, was drawn to the ornate mirror that covered the entire rear wall. Its edges were etched the runes like the front door, but the meaning was different. Before she could properly examine it, Alaina placed herself in Ellora’s line of sight. Blocking her from reading the magic.
“It’s a remarkable piece.” She commented. Her only response was a slight chin dip from the seamstress.
Before long the three women were moving around Ellora like a whirlwind. She noted a bath being brought into the room, the steam from the scented water calling to her frozen toes. A strong tug at her leathers drew her into the fuss. Quickly Ellora’s deft fingers unclasped her chest plate and armour. Alma placed each item into a well embroidered bag. Each of her weapons disappearing into the cloth.
“Do you often walk the city so well armed my lady?” the question came off as innocent but the fact that neither its inquirer or the two women working around them made eye contact told Ellora that they were very interested.
“Yes, I find in these days with the Magisters daily sermons on the abomination of witches being spread throughout the city. It’s best if I am always prepared. Our sisters have been disappearing lately.” She hadn’t meant for ice to creep into her tone, but each time she heard of another girl being taken her anger boiled over.
“I’ve told my girls the same, perhaps it would be best for them to stay indoors. But what life is that? So, I purchased a few items from your man there. Hopefully, it will be enough.”
Placing a hand over Alaina’s, Ellora squeezed briefly before going back to shedding her sodden clothing.
October 29 - 8:49PM
I swallow my emotions for you, like pieces of sparked coal being forced down my throat. Shards of my own pain slicing me open like a sharp blade through softest silk. Filling my insides with a rage so thick it chokes me. Hate bubbling up from my belly, spilling out my waiting mouth like lava. Pressing against my tongue, begging. Begging for release.
But your paper skin cannot handle my torrid despair. Not my blistering pride, my frigid devotion, nor my eviscerated soul. I rather spare you, than destroy all I’ve ever known. So, I force it down, lock it away, behind steel walls so thick not even Jah can detect it.
I lock away parts of me you’ve never known existed. Scraps of my heart tucked away behind shallow smiles and practiced behavior. For you I dull my sparkling creativity, devalue my wit, disguise every radiant, glowing, and shimmering piece of my essence. Bottle it, till the cracks along my body are nothing but small fissures.
Untitled Short Part Two
Lightning danced in a brilliant show of white and blues through the dark clouds that edged closer to the city each minute. What caught her attention was the heavy boom of thunder that followed the impressive light show as rain poured in a steady assault now; lifting her head from her knee, Ellora glanced back at her best friend and second in command. Silas stood thirty feet away, etching runes into air before him. His face was strained with focus; eyebrows knitted together in frustration. Eyes narrowed as she wondered whether it was rain cascading down his face or sweat, although there was no way of knowing now that the skies had opened on them. Her lips twisted with resignation, whether he was done or not she wasn’t going to let him continue depleting his magic. Silas’ rarely confessed when a burnout was approaching, which if he would simply tell her it would avoid her constant mothering.
She made a mental note to broach the subject of using his caste magic more often. For now, she swung her legs back to the roof and stood. She looked him over, his lips moved as he recited the spell though his fingers had finally stilled. A fresh wave of rain seemed to fall, making Ellora’s cloak sag even closer to the ground. If they didn’t reach shelter soon, she’d have to abandon her soaked cloak and Silas would most likely catch a cold, since he decided to go without one altogether.
Ellora’s gaze lingered on him for another moment before returning to her surveillance. She nearly snorted at herself appointed task while her thoughts still lingered on Silas’ well being. He wasn’t inept but he could be a little careless the way most men are when it comes to small things like wearing a heavier cloak when venturing out into a large thunderstorm. Come to think of it, she hadn’t seen him with his cloak in sometime. Silas often grew out of his clothes; he was nearly twenty and his frame never seemed to stop expanding. In all, Silas was tall and broad shouldered, with a mane of dark hair that seemed wholly black at times and rested along his collar bones, his heavy brows gave him a much more serious heir than he was known for. His grin always tilted higher on his left side, giving him an effected boyish look that revealed the playful soul he rarely displayed. A pair of eyes the colour of sea glass lay hidden behind his long lashes, now clumped together with rainwater. His full lips hint at his mysterious northern heritage, though he says he doesn’t know whether his mother or father hailed from the mountains. Unlike many of the northern mountain tribes Silas’ deep olive complexion connected him to the Southern Islands. Admittedly Ellora was aware of how attractive Silas was, to his chagrin the young ladies in their coven also noticed. He’d once “forgotten” to shower for a month just to chase the tittering girls away. It did little to deter them, baskets of hand made soap and carefully stitched cloths kept appearing at his door until he gave up and showered. Kaur and Ellora were just relieved they didn’t have to shove cotton up their noses anymore when he came around. When she was fifteen, Ellora thought she was in love with him herself. It was the night of her sixteenth birthing that convinced her there could never be anything between them. The only constant in her life was her relationship with Silas. Yes, she also had Kaur, but it was always different between herself and Silas. From the very inception of their friendship they had clung to one another, almost as if fate herself placed them along the same path. She could still remember what it had been like roaming through Azania’s vast forests alone till she discovered him huddled alone in a series of caves. After that they spent every second together roaming the streets of the Pits, both orphaned early on in their lives; Her memories didn’t go much farther than that day before they found one another. They had been two starving children forced to survive any way they could. Even then Silas was tall though he was all limbs and sharp angles back then. They had been found logging in some abandoned homes in the most neglected parts of the Pits. Silas had fashioned them both knives and deemed himself her protector even then. He was barely two years older than her but had taken it upon himself to keep her safe. Years later when she’d asked why he took care of her his only response had been ‘they were connected’ it had seemed like a good enough answer, now that they were older, she understood what he’d meant. They had been connected, not through magic but something much deeper, perhaps even older than magic.
Lost in thought she nearly flinched when a pebble flew past her head, turning her eyes met cool sea foam green, A smile transformed his face into that of something not entirely human. No one should be that beautiful. Ellora rolled her eyes at her best friend before making her way over to him.
Strong winds slapped against her wall of sodden clothes. once she reached him, she untied her cloak and opened it. Without hesitation he huddled beneath the damp material and placed his trembling fingers against the partially dry expanse of cloth at her back.
“It’s got to be unnatural how you always manage to blaze hotter than your homelands.” He stuttered from slightly blue lips.
“Or it may be the cloak. The Black Sand’s aren’t hot year-round either, you know this.” She said pulling the cloth over his broad frame.
He let out a noise that she thought might have been a chuckle. “I was referring to your true home, the depths of hell.” He muttered.
“Well, aren’t we in a mood.” She grumbled. Pulling him along they hurried to the door that would take them inside and out of the torrential downpour.
“True or False, this entire plan was your idea?” Reaching the roof entrance, he pulled the heavy metal door open ushering Ellora in first.
“False! This portion was provided by your dear beloved anam cara. So, if you want to blame anyone blame Kaur.” She unceremoniously dropped the cloak from her shoulders once she was no longer being pelted with rain.
Silas didn’t respond, he just turned and closed the door.
March 15th - 12:19 AM
I’m tired, to my very soul. Using wet clay to patch the broken spaces of my being. Drained to the very marrow of my bones. Tired!
I’ve given what I had left. Scraped the walls of my empty heart and produced the essence of me. And for what? - I’ve walked on shells and glass just to make you happy. And it’s left me tired. And empty.
Empty in a way that cannot be filled. Or Fixed.
You look at me demanding more but I haven’t had anything left to give. I’ve been stripped clean of my glitter. Had the stars ripped from my eyes. Bled dry of what kept me whole.
But you’ll never rest, not till I am bone and dust. Gone.
March 23 - 12:38 AM
I never understood how you could always look right through me! the burn in my heart as you continue to use me without a second thought.
all the breathless screams I’ve locked away begging you to simply see me, to acknowledge that i am truly here in front of you.
Helpless please for sanity as I endure being microscopic in your eyes. I’m a ghost in my own relationships, held just at the edge of invisibility.
If only I could be.