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I wrote this to deal with my feelings about the finale
I honestly wanted Mike to suffer at first but the more I wrote it the more I just felt really sad Mike had so much potential but they gave him the worst ending unnecessarily
https://archiveofourown.org/works/76886436
If I had a euro for every time there was discourse over how shipping Dreamling is fetishization of gay men and/or misogynistic I'd have two euros, which isn't a lot but it's annoying that it keeps happening.
oh man, if i had a euro for every time there was discourse in /any/ fandom about how a popular m/m ship is fetishistic or misogynistic, I'd be rich a thousand times over
Especially when the post was asking why we don't ship the main character with the female character he literally is divorced with 😂
YEAH EXACTLY like. If said harshly, Dream and Calliope's relationship is over. What binds them together is the memory of their son and not much else. They do still hold some affection for one another, but in my opinion that isn't nearly as intriguing as imagining a potential future romantic relationship. Or even a more-or-less healthy friendship, considering Dream doesn't have any of these.
Let's all be clear, the main reason Dream is shipped with Hob is because of how Tom and Ferdie played the roles. According to Ferdie, they were not supposed to smile and flirt so openly, but during the 1389 scene the director eventually gave up telling them to stop, because of how well it worked.
And then, AND THEN, Hob is one of the only characters who remain faithful and steadfast and know deep down that Morpheus will return. Even when he has been a dick to them.
Like, this is essential to how the dynamic works and why it is so attractive as a narrative.
Me, rolling in my fetishizing gay men Euros because I write fic for a fictional ship with strong on-screen chemistry and sexual tension:
Ohhhhhhhhh, oigo campanas de boda<3
I think this type of 'fetishizing gay men' discourse really exemplifies why I hate making broad statements of morality about trends in online debates bc it stops a more in depth discussion of why thing is the way it is. Like maybe some do fetishize certain relationships but Its obvious to me that the thousands of ppl who like those ships and the works they make aren't entirely or imo primarily those types of people
Instead I would posit that its connected to several different factors
There tends to be more well written white cis male characters throughout film history (or even queer characters being played by those types of actors)
More focus on the relationships between those well written male characters
Relationships between women and those between men are seen differently in society and thus depicted differently/at different rates
Lesbian relationships are widely fetishized and thus depicted more often than gay relationships (which brings more scorn/discomfort bc anything that can't please straight cis white males gets less favor). Even if lesbian depictions aren't usually good there is less of a craving to see it depicted bc of its overuse in fiction (and likely also bc depicting it in mainstream properties usually ends up bad)
Less interesting female characters means less interesting female relationships to fawn over
Because of how we were trained to experience fiction through a male gaze there is a certain dichotomy where audiences regardless of gender are very comfortable experiencing a story through male characters but the same can't be said for experiencing it through the viewpoints of other genders. This likely also affects the numbers in fanfics. Women could easily map their experiences onto men through fiction and would likely prefer this for the emotional distance it offers but men would likely not be able to do the reverse in the same way. That's why straight women writing about men dating men makes sense in some strange way even without the idea of fetishization.
I'm sure there are more factors but this is how I conceptualize it. Also I'm not an expert on the experiences of other genders. That's why I focused mainly on the binary but I think most of this would still apply anyway. Would be interested to hear other's thoughts.
Time for another Merlin au!
In this au, in season 5, Camelot is cursed by Morgana to have all of their food and crops wither and die. The kingdom cannot survive under the curse for long and Arthur knows it, so he desperately visits the druids, whom he's made peace with, for magical assistance in lifting the curse. Merlin, of course, is working in secret to lift the curse, but he's lacking the exact spell needed to reverse the curse. He's tried spells that should work similarly to the reversal spell, but he's had no luck. So, he tries reaching out to the druids mentally for assistance while Arthur is meeting with them.
To Arthur, the druids inform him that the only way to lift such a dark and powerful curse is to perform a powerful ritual to call upon the powers of Emrys, the god of magic. However, the druids warn him, while they are certain that Emrys will come to his aid, the ritual comes with a cost. Arthur tells them that he would gladly give up his life for Camelot in order to complete the ritual, but the druids quickly tell him that a blood sacrifice isn't necessary. Instead, whoever successfully performs the ritual will then be tied to Emrys as his familiar in the mortal world.
When Arthur looks confused about what exactly a familiar is, the druids tell him that Emrys's familiar is someone who is bound by Emrys's will and has a mental connection to Emrys. The druids compare it to being Emrys's servant, carrying out his orders in the mortal world while Emrys is off doing his very powerful godly duties.
Arthur clenches his jaw, looking tense as he processed what he had just been told. All of the knights that they had taken with them are quick to volunteer themselves for the ritual, ready to hand themselves over to the no-doubt evil and nefarious god of magic. (To someone in Camelot who grew up under the purge, the old religion's god of magic must be the devil, their absolute worst nightmare.)
Merlin, meanwhile, is sitting next to Arthur and is simultaneously sweating bullets and is more confused than he's ever been in his entire life. Because what "godly duties" was he supposed to be fulfilling?? And how come he's never heard about a ritual to give him a familiar??
And more importantly, he's been TRYING to lift the curse for the past week, and nothing's worked! How the hell is some ritual to "call upon his power" work to break the curse when his own power has already proven to be useless here?!
However, the druids mentally tell Merlin that the binding ritual would grant Merlin the power necessary to fulfill the wishes of whoever was performing it. In this case, the ritual would grant Merlin the power to lift the curse.
For Merlin, this sounds like a perfect plan. Merlin himself would perform the ritual, lift the curse, and not have to deal with getting a new familiar! Because really, having a familiar sounded like more trouble than it was worth, and whoever became his familiar would surely discover that Merlin is Emrys, having a mental connection and all.
However, before Merlin could request the instructions for the ritual and come up with some way to distract Arthur, Arthur made up his mind. Arthur nobly tells his knights that he alone will take up this burden. Camelot is his to protect, and if he must turn himself over in servitude to the god of magic, then so be it. If he's called by Emrys to leave Camelot, then the crown goes to Gwen, who he knows will rule honorably in his stead. Arthur then turns to the druids and demands to be taken through the ritual.
Merlin, still next to Arthur, is just trying not to pull his hair out at this point because his perfect plan just got shot to hell. Merlin tries to mentally tell the druids to refuse Arthur's demands, but Arthur isn't taking no for an answer. Merlin then tries to convince Arthur to stop this, his kingdom needs him, and that Merlin should be the one to do it since he's the one who's already a servant anyway.
Arthur just looks sadly at Merlin and thanks him before ordering the knights to leave and take Merlin with them. Arthur wants to spare his friends the pain of seeing him hand himself over to Emrys. So, the knights leave the druid camp, dragging a kicking and screaming Merlin with them.
Poor Merlin, the knights all think, so loyal to Arthur. It must hurt the manservant so deeply to see Arthur sacrifice himself like this. Meanwhile, Merlin is freaking out because if Arthur becomes his familiar, which is already messed up in so many ways, there's absolutely no way that Merlin's going to be able to keep his magic a secret!
Meanwhile, the druids prepare Arthur and guide him through the ritual. They put a scented oil in his hair that's supposed to make him more pleasing to Emrys, but Arthur swears that it smells exactly like the calming oil that Merlin gives him after a restless day. They draw symbols on his armor with a mixture of berry paste and ash, and then finish their preparations by putting a woven crown of flowers on his head. Then, they have him perform the ritual itself, which has him kneel before an alter dedicated to Emrys (which rankles Arthur's pride just a bit) and reciting a prayer calling for help before he kisses the edge of the alter and recites his request for Emrys: to lift the curse placed upon Camelot's land and return its previous prosperity to it.
Immediately after Arthur finishes stating his request, a bright golden light emerges from the space right above the alter. At the very same moment, unbeknownst to any of the knights, Merlin's eyes flash a blinding gold. The light above the alter gently floats to the ground and sinks into the earth at Arthur's feet, and with a bright flash, the light races off in every direction, and every plant the light comes into contact with flourishes. Within only a few minutes, all of Camelot's crops are thriving once more, and the kingdom is saved.
After a few minutes had passed, the small pass of golden light rose out from the earth and moved closer to where Arthur stood, unmoving. Slowly, the ball moved closer to Arthur's body, and Arthur found that he couldn't move. Arthur flinched when the ball came into contact with his chest, but to his shock, it didn't hurt. No, the ball of light only felt warm, like the cozy warmth of his chambers with a fire roaring in his fireplace on a cold night. However, the little ball's movement didn't stop at Arthur's chest. Instead, the light diffused itself all over Arthur's body, until all of his body was covered in the golden light. Arthur waited for the pain to start at any moment, for his free will to be stripped away and for the god of magic to finally enact his revenge against the son of Uther Pendragon, but there was no pain.
After only a few moments, the light on Arthur's skin dimmed, leaving Arthur looking as he always did. Arthur didn't feel any different either. There was no godly voice booming in his head, and he could still move his body of his own volition, so Emrys wasn't controlling him like a puppet. If there's anything different, it's that there's a slight...buzzing in the back of his head.
The druids come to collect Arthur and take him back to his knights, telling him how grateful they are that Arthur has healed the land. Arthur accepts their thanks and makes his way back to Merlin and the knights, who are very relieved to see Arthur unharmed and acting like himself.
Arthur's slightly on edge for the whole ride back to Camelot, but to his great relief, nothing happens. That is, until a group of bandits decide to attack.
Because Arthur can physically SEE magic rising up to subtly fight the bandits. It rises from the earth and dances through the air as golden dust and golden light, and everywhere it goes, bandits fall or trip or drop their weapons, giving Camelot's knights the advantage. Arthur's so mesmerized by what he sees that he loses focus on the fight. That is, until the buzzing in his head roars and forms itself into words: BEHIND YOU!
Before he's even aware of what his body is doing, Arthur turns around and stabs the bandit that had crept up behind him. And it's then that Arthur realizes how much trouble he's in.
He's got the god of magic constantly buzzing in his head now, and Emrys is actively influencing the world around Arthur, and Arthur can't get away from it.
Thankfully, Emrys doesn't speak to him much, but what the god lacks in words, he makes up for in actions. Arthur can see how Emrys puts spells on his armor, his weapons, his chambers, and even his baths! Arthur has almost has a heart attack every time he sees the now-familiar golden dust float past people he cares about, getting close enough to touch them. The worst of it, by far, is around Merlin. The golden dust twirls and dances around Merlin, never letting Arthur see his friend without magic curled around him.
Arthur knows that it's a threat from Emrys to keep him in line, knows that the gold that swirls around Merlin could easily turn into weapons that could kill Merlin at a moment's notice, so Arthur grits his teeth and performs whatever tasks Emrys requires of him (which is normally small things like "don't eat that, it's poisoned" or "don't trust this visiting noble"). Arthur will play his part for now, but he will find a way to ensure his friends' protection from this nefarious god!
I'm going to end here, since I feel like this has already gone on for too long! I have lots of ideas revolving around rituals and Merlin's place as the god of magic, so expect at least two more au's that start similarly, but go in completely different directions!
Thank you for reading through my ramblings! :D
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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 魔道祖师 - 墨香铜臭 | Módào Zǔshī - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù, 陈情令 | The Untamed (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī/Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxiàn, Jiāng Yànlí/Jīn Zǐxuān, Luó “Mián Mián” Qīngyáng/Wēn Qíng Characters: Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī, Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxiàn, Jīn Zǐxuān, Jiāng Yànlí, Luó “Mián Mián” Qīngyáng, Jiāng Chéng | Jiāng Wǎnyín, Jiāng Family (Módào Zǔshī) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Idols, Alternate Universe - Celebrity, Romantic Soulmates, Autistic Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī, POV Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī Summary:
Lan Zhan stupidly falls for his Idol. Somehow, Wei Ying falls right back.
Chapter two is uppp ✌️
I've started writing the second chapter of my Wangxian idol AU but I'm SOOO hungry I can't even think straight
I have to hurry up and eat bc I have a good Idea of almost exactly how I want this chapter to go and I don't want to lose it 😓😓😓
I've never posted anything for a big fandom before 🫣 you could not have prepared me shkkdjdjkkld
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 魔道祖师 - 墨香铜臭 | Módào Zǔshī - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù, 陈情令 | The Untamed (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī/Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxiàn, Jiāng Yànlí/Jīn Zǐxuān, Luó "Mián Mián" Qīngyáng/Wēn Qíng Characters: Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī, Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxiàn, Jīn Zǐxuān, Jiāng Yànlí, Luó "Mián Mián" Qīngyáng, Jiāng Chéng | Jiāng Wǎnyín, Jiāng Family (Módào Zǔshī) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Idols, Alternate Universe - Celebrity, Romantic Soulmates, Autistic Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī, POV Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī Summary:
Lan Zhan stupidly falls for his Idol. Somehow, Wei Ying falls right back.
I still have plans for my other Au but I started writing a Mdzs Idol!Xian AU today and I'm really enjoying it... I will probably post that at some point
It has my favorite head cannon, autistic Lan Zhan and is a somewhat typical fic about Lan Zhan some how meeting his idol and getting together with him but with some added soulmate/reincarnation to add in that extra Wangxian spice if anyone is interested I will probably post here when it is up on Ao3
I feel like hp's golden trio is like a less likable version of the boy meets world trio it's kinda uncanny when you think about it
Cory (the forgotten middle child) = ron
Shawn (Cory's cooler best friend who has a rocky home life) =harry
Topanga (the weird girl/smartest in the group who later becomes Cory's main love interest) = Hermione
I think the bmw trio is more likable in the end partially bc of the acting but mostly bc so much of the writing in hp felt very mean spirited
Kinda wish I could make this one my main account...
I've been pretty busy with studying and everything but I want to try to write more... I was thinking about doing one of those fanfic ask games to practice writing with but idk if I have enough followers for that lol it would be embarrassing if no one played along 😔 I'm willing to try writing for other fandoms too (there are a lot of fandoms that I was in or that I enjoyed not just HP) Ive written non hp fanfics before Ive just never posted them
I didn't make it very clear (bc Alhena doesn't know) but in the chapter where kreacher is freed one of the reasons he is so upset and determined to stay is bc he never fulfilled his final promise to Regulus.... He still has some emotional baggage to resolve before he can strike out on his own
The full word count for the series is almost to 20,000 👀
This probably doesn't seem like much but I've always had a hard time sticking with things bc of depression and anxiety and all that. It feels like I'm finally healing 🥺
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Major Character Death Relationships: Severus Snape/Original Female Character(s) Characters: Original Black Family Characters (Harry Potter), Black Family (Harry Potter), Regulus Black, Kreacher (Harry Potter) Additional Tags: Marauders Era (Harry Potter), Severus Snape Has a Heart, Good Severus Snape, Young Severus Snape, POV Severus Snape, Severus Snape-centric Series: Part 4 of The rewritten tales of Severus Snape and Alhena Black Summary:
Severus Snape/Alhena Black (Black Family OC)
Nothing lasts forever. Clutch at dying leaves and they will crumble between your fingers.
I wasn't happy with the last half so I changed it a bit... I hope this makes it more accurate to what I was trying to portray thought I'd mention it incase anyone is interested in seeing the changes 👍
Am I just stupid? Why can't I figure out how to reply on different accounts 🫠
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Major Character Death Relationships: Severus Snape/Original Female Character(s) Characters: Original Black Family Characters (Harry Potter), Black Family (Harry Potter), Regulus Black, Kreacher (Harry Potter) Additional Tags: Marauders Era (Harry Potter), Severus Snape Has a Heart, Good Severus Snape, Young Severus Snape, POV Severus Snape, Severus Snape-centric Series: Part 4 of The rewritten tales of Severus Snape and Alhena Black Summary:
Severus Snape/Alhena Black (Black Family OC)
Nothing lasts forever. Clutch at dying leaves and they will crumble between your fingers.
