there is nothing of equal value to me.

19 | tmi gang stan | clace • evajacks • jurdan • cressworth • iwtv | cr: n/n

[amrubrum]

Say what you will about Jocelyn but that woman deserves all the flowers and grace in the world !! Rereading CoB has made me realize just how much she actually did/went through.

Not only was she able to secretly plan an entire uprising against her own iconoclastic husband with hundreds of downworlders, found time to enlist the help of a powerful warlock to create a contingency spell that she could use for the future (that actually worked!), but she was also able to live through the pain of so much betrayal, of losing everything she's ever loved and known, her parents, her childhood home, her literal CHILD, stole the cup away and fled from idris with absolutely nothing except for some family heirlooms to sell and a plan to start a new life from SCRATCH all while pregnant !! with Clary !! and she managed to hide her family from Valentine for 15 YEARS all while giving her daughter a happy, normal life, yet constantly keeping in touch with the shadow world

Not to mention learning the harsh truth about her son and how he's not only alive, but turned into a MONSTER confirming all the fear and guilt she always beat herself up for, all the sick experiments Valentine did to two innocent children in a COMA

Oh and let's not forget how she cradled her son as he died, having to bear the burden of knowing that when his eyes turned green, she knew he would have been an amazing, incredible man she would have been proud of if it wasn't for the demon blood that her husband poisoned his soul with, and that she would never have the chance of seeing again

[moonysmoothies]

rip to the original girl dinner: a mango and tomato soup

[balladofbells]

Clary really had this mf making out with dirty street cement

[springvamp]

if i ever say i hate the misunderstood bad boy trope in fiction, never am i ever talking about jace wayland/lightwood/morgenstern/herondale. he's the only exception.

[amrubrum]

in another universe jonathan and clary would have been spoiled, rich old money shadowhunter kids who lived next door to stephen and celine herondale as they raised an equally spoiled and sassy jace. they would’ve been with the lightwoods too. they all would attend idris academy and had the best times messing around with each other. oh what could’ve been

[maisiemoon2205]

Oh the Ao3 writers are frothing at the mouth rn.

By Ao3 writers I mean me, I am frothing. Let me froth in peace.

[amrubrum]

no because you're now legally obligated to write us a fic and send it immediately

[polari]

lestat himself would use ai for the cover of a single because he’s literally from the 1700s and thinks it’s cool. he would also make ai portraits (to varying degrees of success) of louis that he would text to him at all hours and louis assumes he’s commissioning art but is unclear on how he’s getting all these paintings so fast. fans on twitter are split with some defending lestat ferociously and some demanding accountability and lestat doesn’t respond with a clear statement until a month later when he’s decided ai is actually tacky at which point he does a spontaneous concert where he announces he has never used ai in his life because he would not degrade his art to such a degree. a few years after that he claims not to know what ai is.

[amrubrum]

am i the only 1 person in the world who actually LOVED kevin zegers as alec???? everybody prefers matt (and for valid reasons !) but all i see about movie alec is that he looked too old or too serious (which i feel like is pretty on brand with him, imo). i personally preferred kevin just because i feel like matt's alec was a bit too cocky and jace-like, but with kevin he had that awkward-passive aggressive attitude with a dry sense of humor. I firmly believe that given the chance, kevin would have done alec justice had there been more movies that shows alec's growth and more of his sassy lines

[amrubrum]

update it did destroy me

[amrubrum]

With all this talk of TWP I’m feeling pretty left out because even though i DID read TDA I forgot like 90% of what happened and cannot for the life of me still fathom what Thule is exactly??? Like help a girl out !! I know it’s an alternate universe that started with the battle at the burren but it seems there’s so much more to it???? Is it connected to Edom?? PLEaseee

[angelicpowerblog]

Things I overthink about Sebastian:

• What kind of hair dye does he use in CoG? Considering that the second Clary touches his hair, all the color comes off!

• Where did he get red gear for the endarkened? Did he make it? Or is there a secret shadowhunter black market we don’t know about?

• He keeps on the nightstand of his bedroom the little box Jocelyn saved with his childhood belongings. Why!???

• In the first two parts of CoLS, we see Sebastian in a different light. He’s clearly pretending to be the “good guy” who has changed, but for example when he saves Clary from the demons and asks her if forgiveness is possible for someone like him, was there really a part of him that believed what he was saying? What were his true thoughts in that chapter or in any scene in the first two parts where he acts like this?

• Clary and Jace, in a way, end up psychoanalyzing Sebastian. They reflect on his loneliness and desperation: “Imagine if you were on Earth in a billion years, after the sun had scorched all life, crying out for just one living creature… and there’s nothing, only rivers of fire and ashes. Then imagine there was only one way to fix it, and what you would do to make it happen.”

But we see it through their eyes but how does Sebastian experience it? I need his perspective.

[amrubrum]

For 1, he definitely uses spray on hair color ! It’s said there that after clary had her hands in his hair, her fingers were smudged with black; box dye doesn’t do this when it’s dried down, and I imagine sebastian wouldn’t have the patience for that. He needed a quick transition, hence the spray on color that u can easily wash out.

And for 4, this is honestly just my take, but i do believe that in those moments, there was a genuine need for connection and approval from clary, his blood sister. It’s said so many times that obviously, sebastian has a sort of difficulty understanding or feeling human emotions, so it might not be seeking connection in a sense like how we want to seek a connection through friendships, relationships, etc., but more so that he wants to find out where clary stands when it comes to him. Not that it matters exactly because he just forces people, but because he’s obsessed with her, he wants to justify what he feels or what he plans to do with her by first asking a question that he knows he will strike her with it’s ‘vulnerability’ for HER, because she’s still so human, still very much a good, strong shadowhunter who has morals. He wants to see if there’s even a single ounce of a possibility that she’ll learn to love him, as per his delusions and desires. He wants clary’s love and approval (in his twisted demonic sense) because he sort of worships (????) clary in a way. Because she’s his blood, and sees there’s a darkness within her that allowed her to kill Valentine, and he’s frantically grasping onto that fact he observed to justify that they’re alike and that they belong together.

[culiehua]

If the seelie queen and sebastian had a daughter and she had her red hair and his og green eyes, do you think janus would hate her for resembling a dream he can no longer attain or love her in a very unhealthy way while trying to mold her into a pedestaled replica of what his memories of clary allow her to be

[amrubrum]

[amrubrum]

Now that we'll be getting a snippet of TLKoF does anybody remember this specific post like two years ago that CC made about the potential release sched 😭 PLEASE tell me someone has that saved because every time i remember i just burst into a fit of laughter because i remember soooo many posts after that being all "man 2024 is too far away !!!"

[amrubrum]

GUYS GUYS GUYS GUYS

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[bookishjules]

simon being given pieces of heaven that were taken away one by one until he was just a guy once again and able to navigate his own way back into angelic power is something that is so

[bookishjules]

the thing about the scarves in cols is that when sebastian offers his ("heathery black and white tweed") to clary, he almost forces it on her. it's part of his presentation of psuedo-care. she's shivering, he has a scarf--ergo, take the scarf. but after getting back to the apartment, clary is about to walk off with jace and sebastian demands it back. when clary can't get it off fast enough he walks over and deftly removes the scarf from her neck.

immediately after this last part, simon goes to see rebecca, who herself is wearing a scarf ("green...with big yellow cotton flowers"). she doesn't give it to him like we saw before an older sibling might do, but then simon doesn't seem outwardly cold. it's when she learns about the coldness he's hiding (i.e. his unbeating heart and their mom's cold reaction that clings to him) that she wraps her scarf around them both.

where sebastian's scarf is grayscale and scratchy, becky's is bright and soft. they're both warm and ostensibly meant to protect. but to sebastian, the warmth of affection is something to be given and taken away with an ease that exhibits a lack of sincerity in the exchange, let alone warmth that goes beyond the surface. this is entirely opposite from rebecca, whose affection is more like selfless sacrifice than a heartless exchange. she was willing to let simon's ever-cold body into the circle of her warmth, joined with him in the cold spot he's found himself in. it may not have been practical for her to expand her scarf to such a degree. but that's the whole point.

the love between siblings is instinctive. it's not practical. it's not a simple give and take. it's about reading, understanding, giving, even when there's nothing to gain back except the other's comfort. and maybe on the surface, it seems this is what sebastian is doing as well, but it's far too calculated for that. they're out of the cold for a good amount of time before he takes his scarf back from clary, and it isn't until she's leaving him to spend time with jace that he does. to sebastian, that warmth was something earned. and to sebastian, that's love. he doesn't know that instinctive kind of connection and protection that comes with being an older sibling, that comes like breathing to becky.

[amrubrum]

MISS FAIRCHILD U FREAKKKK

mhm that's my clary right there

credits also to the sweetest @rinadragomir for the epub !!! rina bby i hope both sides of your pillow are always cold 💋💋💋

[amrubrum]

i love how as a fandom we all collectivity decided that coa was the worst out of all tmi books simply because every page was psychological torture and every other page the main 6 was having an angst-off with one another