sometimes too broken

[ana-st]

Once I was talking to a friend and I told him that I got cold, that I didn’t care about others anymore. He looked me in the eyes and said: “no you’re not cold.”. I was confused because what I felt was my definition of cold but then he explained what he meant. “Being cold might mean that you don’t care so much but even if you’re cold you don’t stop caring about the people you love as you did. What you are isn’t cold. What you are is empty”. This words broke my heart because I realized what he said made sense and that he was right…

[ana-st]

If you once know the feeling of being loved, you’re gonna miss it when it’s gone.

[ana-st]

I watched you give up on me, you don’t think that changed me...that sh*t broke me...

[ana-st]

the moment I started smiling at every single text of him was the moment I knew I fucked up.

[ana-st]

I didn’t fell out of love. I didn’t want to leave but I needed to. I didn’t want to break up but I had to. I didn’t stop loving you. I didn’t let go I moved on. Or at least I tried. Because for once I put myself above you. Because you made me feel miserable. You made me feel unloved. You made me feel like I’m worth nothing. You made me feel so much pain and you didn’t even care. So I had to go. I had to go to find myself again. To love myself.

[ana-st]

If you really liked someone it is normal to miss them. Even if it’s been six months of not talking to them. Sometimes, even if you don’t care anymore or at least not as much an in the beginning, you crave them. You don’t crave them for sex or anything like that. No, you just crave their kisses, their hugs, talking to them. You crave their presence. And the thought that you’re not even able to talk to them as a friend hurts.

[ana-st]

what if the only reason why I don’t stop texting you is because you remind me so much of him?

[ana-st]

Loving you is like going through hell and being in heaven at the same time ‘cause it hurts so bad that it feels good...

[ana-st]

oh boy, you made me rise so high but at the same time fall so deep..

[ana-st]

I dreamed of you. I felt so secure and comfortable talking to you. It felt so good. But then I woke up and everything was gone. And I felt so bad because I started missing you again. I miss talking to you about the most random things. I miss laying in bed with you doing nothing. I miss spending time with you. I miss you even though I don’t want to...

[sunsetquotes]

“I am too young and I’ve loved you too much.”

— Fyodor Dostoyevsky

[ana-st]

sometimes you just feel numb. You would like to feel something but you can’t. And you’re sitting on your bed thinking about everything that happened but you don’t feel anything. It just doesn’t matter anymore. And even if someone does something that normally would have hurt you, you don’t feel anything. You’re not sad or hurt you’re just like whatever.

[ana-st]

who am I supposed to talk to now? And I kinda feel alone. Don’t get me wrong, I do have friends. But I don’t wanna talk to them. I wanna talk to you about everything that is happening. But if I’m honest what’s going on now would have never happen if you wouldn’t have left.

[ana-st]

A broken heart is all that’s left

I’m still fixing all the cracks

Lost a couple pieces when

I carried it, carried it, carried it home

-Duncan Laurence

[ana-st]

my eyeliner is as sharp as the broken pieces of my heart

[ana-st]

The truth is no one is in charge of you happiness except for yourself. Think of it this way: Your partner shouldn’t be the reason you’re happy. He should be the reasons you’re HAPPIER. You should be able to be happy without them. And yes, I know that if you break up you will be sad. That’s normal. You lost someone who made you feel loved, someone you loved. But after mourning you should leave the dark place and be able to be happy again. Even though they’re gone. People enter and leave your life because of a reason. Keep that in mind.

[ana-st]

Didn’t it break your heart when you saw me drowning because of you? Didn’t you feel bad when you broke me? I mean I once was your everything. And still you could do that to me...