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infant mail carriers Are real and they are Crawling with envelopes !!! 💌

#crying in the library about this beautiful real and true actual thing existing !!!#robin.song #children #the older children help guide them and read the classroom numbers for delivery. btw

hollandar

Hudson Williams, #1 Shane Understander

I think Shane was a character who, soon as I read him, made all the sense to me. I felt immediately a kinship and an ownership over Shane. I was like, “I need to be the only person to tell this story. I get it. I want to be the person to be Shane and I want to spend time with him.” [x]

(sources below)

#beautifulll #love the bibliography #heated rivalry #shane hollander #hudson williams

doyoulovethewayzeylily

random informal poll for people who routinely self-inject medication

how bad was your needle fear?

t-shirt that says no fear

I was nervous, but not too bad

my hands were shaking the whole time

scared shitless, took multiple days to do the first one

I would faint if I even fucking thought about a needle

I'm nosey show me the results

Voting ended onJun 3

(how bad was it when you first started?)

hoping to use this post as a point of reference for "you can totally inject your HRT even though you're fucking terrified of it". if you have any advice or anecdotes please do pipe up!

doyoulovethewayzeylily

#i do subdermal injections #first one was yesterday actually #so im using like 29ish gauge needles #microscopic little pinpricks #got shaky fucking hands especially when im handling something as teensy tiny as that ... #hands shaking the whole time like im holding a jackhammer ... #and then my hands begin to shake and wobble #with the needle under my skin #30 seconds later its done#i pull out and breathe a sigh of relief #and you wanna know something about that absolute fucking clown car pile up #felt fucking *nothing* the whole time #not going in not while the needle was dancing around inside me #worst bit was the minor ache afterwards

@wizardcyborgfromtheyear2099 these tags had me giggling, both because you're adorable and because that's exactly how it is!! I've been lucky enough to be present for around a half-dozen first injections, it's always hours of nerves followed by "that was it????"

watching the "oh my god I just did it for real. it's happening" realization dawn over their faces is actual, real magic. congratulations, I'm proud of you :)

doll-shell

My first injection was like a month ago and I was so nervous about it. The previous time I'd had a needle stuck in me was for a blood test, and even though it went well for me, I had to lay down until the spots came out of my vision because I was scared. (was the best i'd done with being scared of needles for at least a year) I had all the stuff; I was using 25 gauge needles my doctor prescribed. I had a lovely friend on a video call walking me through and.. I kinda fucked it up on my first try! After working up to it for an hour, I pricked myself a little, bled, and panicked. Two days later, I gave it another go; on my own this time because I didn't want to make my friend wait for me and I felt a little guilty (I really could have accepted her offer to do be with me again, if you're reading this... smiles at you ^_^) I spent another hour or so working up to it, I got scared, I pushed it in and did the injection. Then I panicked, ran off to the bathroom to get a band-aid, and felt really good about myself because I actually managed to do it! I also went and ate ice cream and affirmed to myself things that were not the fear: It didn't actually hurt that much, (true) it was just an unfamiliar pain, which can be scary. I bled the tiniest little bit, which is not dangerous at all. I actually got a bruise from it, but still: not dangerous.

I felt pretty silly and pathetic about being that scared. But! I did it anyways, and I also felt really good about being brave. Anyways, five or six injections later and I'm kind of looking forward to my next one (tomorrow!) because it represents choosing something hard that's good for me. And it's almost not scary anymore! I think it was really important for me to reinforce afterwards how it was cool, not dangerous like I would have expected from my fear, and to do something that makes me feel pleasure like eating sweets. (If you're like me and really scared; building better associations with something scary like this can help)

doyoulovethewayzeylily

one of the things I find most inspiring about being trans is just how determined we are to help each other. here you are a month out from starting HRT and already reaching a hand out to help others get to where you are. I am so, so proud of you :)

the spots in your vision were likely from something called reflex syncope (sometimes called vasovagal syncope, tho that's only 1 of 3 types of reflex syncope), which is the reason there's an "I would faint" option.

Episodes of vasovagal syncope are typically recurrent and usually occur when the predisposed person is exposed to a specific trigger. Before losing consciousness, the individual frequently experiences early signs or symptoms such as lightheadedness, nausea, the feeling of being extremely hot or cold (accompanied by sweating), ringing in the ears, an uncomfortable feeling in the heart, fuzzy thoughts, confusion, a slight inability to speak or form words (sometimes combined with mild stuttering), weakness and visual disturbances such as lights seeming too bright, fuzzy or tunnel vision, black cloud-like spots in vision, and a feeling of nervousness can occur as well. The symptoms may become more intense over several seconds to several minutes before the loss of consciousness (if it is lost).

it's absolutely fascinating to me that the brain has a "panic so hard your body blue screens and has to restart" process, all the more so because you can train yourself out of it.

notice how many people voted for that option and yet still managed to do it. I promise that you can too! I don't promise it'll be easy, of course, but you really just Can Do It.

#i am normal and can be trusted around needles #where’s the option for- i shan’t say

mousidy

even if that random trans woman did do all that I don't care lol

mousidy

very funny that literally just riffing on a common tumblr joke about women, but with an especially marginalized group of women, has people months later coming to me like "oh yeah well what about what THIS trans woman you've never met did?" and the answer is still I don't care lol

mousidy

if I had posted the same thing without the word "trans" the population of this website would go "true" and then keep scrolling

mousidy

TMEs see the words "trans woman" and they fly into a bloodthirsty rage

hollanderthoughts

thoughts on women?

None yet but I’ll keep you updated

#this is really it #heated rivalry #myshane #this is my shaneeeee #shane hollander

poetrylesbian

good news everyone

poetrylesbian

#love ya thriftbooks. uh.

thisfeebleheart

Shane chasing Ilya's lips: 🤌

#waits for his kiss like a good boy but chases it like a needy slut #he’s so beautiful…#shane hollander #heated rivalry #hollanov

bobbole

Keith Haring, Altarpiece: The Life of Christ

#keith haring #art

waittt also today one of the speech pathologists told me “well don’t worry this is a two person job” about My job i said that’s so cool that they saved it all for Me <3

#she said it reassuringly too #in response to me saying something i’ve been challenged by #i was like ohhhh word?? fhat is so cooooooolll #robin.song #i need a work tag #also confirms what i had alr been thinking #which is that if he was any Faster they would have 2 people with him at all times. so yeah

gingerbreadoatmilkchai

Selective Shane Reuptake Inhibitor

#clinically indicated #obviously this is what ilya needed not- ok well anyway.#heated rivalry #ourshane

actuallysara

The cover of "I'll Believe in Anything: The Making of Heated Rivalry, Season 1" by Jacob Tierney has been revealed. On sale October 13th, 2026 (via people)

#AND WHYYYYXWAS IT A HELMWT KISS IN EPISODE THEN #really really cute and good #heated rivalry

3416

"I'm assuming your buddy's gay? Fucking brave for a dude to show up to a place like this and be like 'hey, here's me.' Russia is not safe for folks like that. Fucking balls of steel, man."

#shane in this scene to me is the post that’s like i mean i ate four yogurts normally #heated rivalry #shane hollander

kaijuerotica

the chasm between who Irina actually was and who Irina was to Ilya is massive and cavernous and such a fun place to play in if you're a sicko freak who likes to hurt your own feelings

#the thing about suicide is #no i can’t say that #heated rivalry #ilya rozanov

shilyas

nuzzle

#ilya thinking so fucking loudly how lucky he is #heated rivalry #hollanov #really crazy #this was on tv #the most extreme forms of kissing #also remember connor wasn’t wearing the crash pad or whatever for vegas scene. remember-

hollanderthoughts

Ever since I was a little boy I knew I needed to be deeply ashamed of my desires wants and of course also needs

#heated rivalry #shane hollander #myshane

does anyone Know what my Name

#🫥#robin.song #i have to Complete this Intro Post

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