My Mind’s Lullaby

"My mind is going crazy, I wish I could hear, just for my own safety, why I'm here" - l . t .

[deftlydemonic]

Staring | andreil

Something something lighting your cigarette with your Not-Boyfriend’s cigarette

Anyways. Gay.

[fruitgravies]

codependent 🐰🦊

insta • twt • bsky

[viiiiiliiiii]

Kevin to the reporters: I’m so proud to be part of this team. I’m proud of how hard everyone’s been working. We’re all doing our best, and we deserve every one of these wins.

the Foxes in the background, who, five minutes earlier, had just been on the receiving end of a twenty-minute rant about how pathetic they were, how a three-legged dog could’ve scored better than they did, and how today’s win was nothing but a fluke: Oh, really?

[bookwyrminspiration]

sometimes I think about how Wymack made the foxes because he never wanted another kid to go through what he did only for his own son to qualify. and then i stare into the sun

[buddie-romance]

thank you ao3 for being an archive and not an algorithm. thank you for letting me like things without consequences, thank you for being free with no ads, thank you for having lawyers to defend our freedom of speech. thank you tag wranglers. thank you to all authors and thank you ao3

[evyltalks]

consensually annoyed.

Commission for @ddaengbrother (on Twitter)

[writingdose]

this and also the only difference between fanfic writers and writers who sell their own original works as careers is that fanfics aren’t monetized. that’s all.

being a “professional” writer doesn’t mean your works are inherently better than fanfics. I’ve read so many fics that are more professionally written than some published books.

whether or not a piece of writing is monetized has nothing to do with its quality.

[sassycurse]

one of the best feelings tbh

[saiintval]

Releasing my loverboy andrew minyard so I can go work on sm else

[lukeawesm]

I'm home

[kosmogrl]

I need something I just don’t know what it is yet

[kosmogrl]

this has been going on for like 20 years by the way.. I will let you all know when I figure it out

[koiagain]

im going to fix my entire life

[fruitcakebro]

When?

[koiagain]

Like Um. later

[oliseagull]

the devil and his minion and they ARE judging you

[sailorsallyart]

BAMFstiel 💥

->prints

[angeloverload]

How do you stop thinking things. Things that are unhelpful and absolute bullshit. I know it's wrong, I know it's irrational — I just can't stop. I tell myself it's alright. I tell the stupid thoughts to stop. Maybe I bully myself just a little bit. I'm tired.

I don't see how therapy is supposed to be helping. I can think and say things I know aren't true. I don't need a therapist for that. I know exactly what my problem is and that fact hasn't made it any easier to not think or do stupid shit. I know, I know, I KNOW. I just don't feel it.

I still believe I'm a piece of shit and I still hate myself when I make a mistake and I know why these thoughts are happening and I don't agree with them at all. But then why, why won't it just go the fuck away.

How is therapy gonna help with that. I'm just talking about things and acting like I'm realising shit that I've known for years. And then we stop talking about it as if now that we've uncovered some trauma it's all of a sudden gone.

Think happy thoughts, be milder to yourself. I've been doing that. But if anything happens, the first thing I want to do is self destruct. And it's not like I haven't made any progress, I have. A lot. But that just makes it all the much harder. It's kind of the problem. Because it's not like I had any control over it. It's not like it's because of therapy and it's not something extra that I did and actually tried.

I'm afraid it's just because I've shut down. I've become numb. I don't really think about the future anymore. That used to be a big struggle. And it still is, I can feel it. I just can't access it. I've been living every day distracting myself until it's over. And just doing it again, again and again.

I miss how I used to feel, at least that was better even though it was so much worse.

[kosmogrl]

[achillesinhighheels]

unfortunately i do believe that every time i delay watching a film it’s because it’s going to find me at the perfect time