and then she took me home

Cyril. Early 30s. Less (on AO3). Very queer. ✨ In this house, we process emotions through shipping. ✨ Dragon Age side-blogs: kirkwall-age; DA tarot art

[arcanistvysoren]

since i had no choice but to log in and commemorate another hilarious "social media online bleeds into MMO online" moment,

i feel like i have to say: SORRY i haven't been active at all, on neither of my blogs, nor on AO3 -- but real life has been k-razy 😵

trying to be as vague as possible so as not to jinx it, but things are finally moving along for me with regards to me leaving this hellscape of a country. (of course, many countries are a hellscape now, including the one i'd be moving to -- but i want to leave this one in particular.)

it's not gonna be soon or quick, but the process has started. and i'm gonna just let the universe work and let the process be as slow as it needs to be, because there are caveats attached to it -- but it is, you know, hare and tortoise logic to me, right now: the tortoise may not move rapidly, but it is undeterred. and this process -- now that it has begun -- as slow as it will have to be -- is still just kind of... inevitable. i've flipped through the book to the final chapter, i know how it ends, i just have to live through the other chapters first. but the ending is already written.

it will still take a few years, which i'm fine with, it gives me time to finish patching up my health and just... truly actually mentally and emotionally prepare that this is happening. it's no longer a nebulous castle-in-the-sky dream, there are actual changes happening here. and, you know, as much as this is something i've always wanted, the process did finally begin quite abruptly, and it is very nerve-wrecking and anxiety-inducing, even if deliriously happy and highly desirable. going through all this bureaucracy is hella stressful, especially given the political landscape of the entire world right now

(ABBA's I Wonder (Departure) playing in the distance: 🎵 I wonder, it's frightening, leaving now, is that the right thing? I wonder... it scares me... but who the hell am I, if I don't even try! I'm not a coward! Oh no, I'll be strong. One chance in a lifetime -- yes, I will take it, it can't go wrong 🎶)

but yeah, there is a whole path of twenty billion hoops i will have to jump through, and instead of clearly marked and open doors (because of the war and all) i'm like using mouse holes to get around everything. but the pathway is still clear, every step of the way is clearly understood by me. with a visible and hopefully HEA finale.

so yeah. kind of let everything else in my online life slide, including fic-writing. as much as i love it, as much as there are WIPs that are 90% finished that are crying to me -- things 👏 are 👏 happening 👏👏👏, and all my emotional and mental resources are being funneled there right now

[arcanistvysoren]

tfw your online life bleeds into your video game life

@nihilnovisubsole

i did DM you like i promised but i'm still cackling about it so i need to commemorate it as a post

a real "i like your shoelaces" moment 🤝

[nihilnovisubsole]

when you play a game so much your OC gets recognized in a dungeon

[arcanistvysoren]

if i had a nickel for every time i randomly ran into @nihilnovisubsole in a FF14 roulette, i'd have 2 nickels

which isn't a lot, but it's BEYOND COINCIDENCE that it happened twice

(also i cannot believe it's been 2 years ☠️)

[arcanistvysoren]

Добрдень. Пришел в восторге сказать большое спасибо за работу A Guide to a Place beyond Maps - я начал с того, что прочел перевод, потом сожрал оригинал, и остался в ужасно сытом и удовлетворенном восторге человека, которому ДОДАЛИ. Не знаю, что Вы пишете сейчас, но пишите-пишите, никогда не останавливайтесь, несите в мир прекрасное.

Большое спасибо, очень приятно получить такую весточку. 😊 Не активный фандом, не шибко популярный фик, а я его люблю, и работать над ним было приятно. Очень рада, что Вам он доставил удовольствие. Писать продолжаем, в обязательном порядке.) Проблема только в том, чтобы actually что-то закончить и выложить на архив, а не переключиться на следующее на полдороге. 😅

[sassinake]

Nemik's Manifesto

[clandestinegardenias]

My therapist just told me my problem is that I need to write more fanfiction.

[clandestinegardenias]

This sounds fake but the logic behind it is actually really interesting? She said obsession with a new fandom triggers quick dopamine release when we consume all this related content--it's easy and addictive.

What we're NOT getting is that 'slow dopamine' that's more sustainable and engaging. That's the kind we get from DOING things that take effort but are ultimately rewarding.

So like, she suggested that writing fic and making fanart are ways to balance the quick dopamine of watching a show/reading fic with the slow dopamine of working at something that takes effort.

Moral of the story is you should engage in the process of creation around your favorite things. You'll feel better for it.

[owldaughter]

Oh.

OH.

[mapswithoutwyoming]

“sorry for the gap between updates, my therapist made me come back to this” would not be in the top 1 million wildest author’s notes on AO3

[figbian]

memento mori art from pompeii in particular is sooo…. your death has been immortalized & that is the primary thing we remember of you! forget remembering to die, die remembered as dead

[dalekofchaos]

It was that simple

[teaboot]

Hige fan of Trophy Husband Anakin as a concept

[princelapine-deactivated2025031]

The inherent eroticism of the Battle Couple

[princelapine-deactivated2025031]

Ogh to trust someone to have your back and you theirs, thus acting as a single entity in battle with twice the strengths and half the weaknesses of the two parts combined...

[akajustmerry]

rewatching elementary now with the knowledge Jonny Lee Miller had started with his own sobriety and recovery whilst filming is honestly transcendent. He is so GOOD. he is gut-wrenching. The scene where Sherlock explains his sobriety feels like a leaking faucet that requires constant maintenance and offers only not to drip in return - jlm does this thing with his voice where he's on the verge of tears but bored all at once. He's wrecked by a feeling he's utterly sick to death of having. It's such a compassionate performance. On another level it is truly crazy to me that we have so many Sherlock Holmes adaptations so eager to make Sherlock an addict, but Elementary is far and away the only adaptation that does that and takes the addiction seriously. Perhaps in part because of JLM's real life recovery, but we'll never know. On a rewatch, it's a lot :')

[knitmeapony]

I know the scene when he's in a meeting and talking about how he wonders if his life would be better if he had been born in an earlier era, wishing that the world were just a little quieter, is certainly a kind of self-referential nod to the audience that this is an adaptation of a much older work, but by God that monologue murdered me. Because I'm the one hand haven't we all wondered that a little bit? If things were a little bit slower. If the world were a little bit quieter. If life were just a little bit gentler, would it be easier to deal with the thousand things we have to deal with?

And then you realize that no. That's kind of the whole point. In the quieter time, in the older era, the world still drove him to self-medicate. And on the one hand there's solidarity in that, a reminder that life is complicated and recognizable no matter what century you were born in. And on the other hand there's just an eternal, ancient exhaustion. Will we never build a world that's easy to live in?

[slimchocolatebeautyy]

You really do have to apologize to yourself & keep moving. We spend too much time punishing ourselves for things.

[assiraphales]

remembering the time I called american psycho (a satirical film about toxic masculinity) a dark comedy and the overwhelming response was 'oh so u think men killing sex workers is funny? u think THAT'S funny?' like no I find a patrick batemen listening to 'i'm walking on sunshine', killing jared leto while wearing a clear raincoat and giving a dissertation on huey lewis n the news, using 'I need to return some video tapes' to get out of awkward situations, throwing a hissy fit about business cards, dropping a chainsaw down a flight of stairs, thinking an atm is telling him to feed it cats, and crying hysterically under a desk is funny. but thank u for ur wonderful insight

[bogleech]

[stuckinapril]

ever since i was a little girl i knew i wanted to have life experiences that were so utterly different from everyone else in my age group

[stuckinapril]

“i had my first boyfriend in high school & snuck into clubs & did so many other crazy things!” good for you. i was indoors hyperfixating on something for weeks on end

[stuckinapril]

[howpeoplelived]

[bluart106]

Two men dancing, Harlem, 1920s.

According to George Chauncey’s eponymous Gay New York, the Harlem Renaissance of the ’20s provided an opportunity for gay men to create their own social and cultural spaces within the burgeoning nightlife in the neighborhood. 

[jumpingjacktrash]

ohh this is lovely

i mean i like the subject matter, but also, it’s just an objectively beautiful photograph. the composition, the gentle sense of motion, the smile on the dancer’s face, his partner’s face in shadow, the central focus being on their clasped hands… honestly one of the best photographs i’ve seen.

[acurlygirlamy1]

[intoxicologist99]

[darkhawk1126]

Which the phone would make a ding if you did it hard enough.

[symphony-calamity]

Do you think they realize how much cooler that makes it sound?

Like. I'm not even an apotheosis type of guy. But you do know that makes it sound so much cooler right?

[dunmertitty]

[prokopetz]

Referencing obscure Internet memes in mainstream media almost invariably falls flat, but if movie!Deadpool walked into the aftermath of a scene of gratuitous carnage and quipped "wow, it looks like a children's hospital in here" it would totally work. To those who don't catch the reference it would come off as generic edgy bullshit, and to those in the know, Deadpool having a Tumblr account is completely believable.

[caspercryptid]

I fucking love Alex hirsch