My blog

An blog about my daily doings and musings. 27 years old, lover of art and writing. Autorose

[artful-creature]

I wrote an autorose love ballad for myself, and for anyone else that is autorose/autoplurelic like myself, titled Between The Me and The I:

With Me, I am free..With I, I lovingly Lie. I and Me turn into We, in order to love and to be. With Me, I love….With I; Treasures onto me! For I am me and me is indeed I. Love is sending to us both, a loving ecstacy. Beyond Me, Beyond I, Beyond We.

Between Me and I, a balance: Love is the darkest of desires, Love is the lightest of sanctuaries! A seesaw, love is forever going its ups and downs.

With Me, With I. To Love I, the me within dives. To Love me, the I within rises. The I within rises to me, and the me dives towards the I within.

Lovingly, I and Me intertwine, We become Love, for what better Love is between Me and I? With Me, I Love…With I treasuring Me!

A Loving Ecstacy. (Between I and Me). A Loving Beyond We (I love onto me…We Love onto Us…Me Loving onto I)

A Love just for I, A Love just for Me, A Love for Us, Within I, Within Me.

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❥ Angeliden

A xeniden related to angels, angel aesthetics, and being an angel.

Themes include: sunlight, sunrays, clouds, rainbows, the sky, gold, wings, halos, stars, planets, the sun and moon, etherealness, angel numbers, flowers, gardens, and white flowy clothes.

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[artful-creature]

Name of Xeniden: Alieniden/UFOiden

Description: A xeniden based off of aliencore aesthetics.

Colors: Black, White, Green, Violet, Magenta, Cyan

Themes/Aesthetic: Holographic Fashion, Neon lights, Blacklight Art, Science Fiction cartoons/anime, Art of Aliens/UFO/Space,

Hobbies/Interests: Gardening, Building Models/Robots, Eating Candy, Science Fiction Video Games, Creating/Seeing UFO Art, A calling for exploration and mystery, Being an Individualist, Feeling Misunderstood by human society/standards, A Feeling of Homesickness for a home that is in Space, a connection to the distant future or past

Names: E.T., Zion, X, Nebula, Oz, Galaxy,

Pronouns: Alien/Alien's/Alienself, Star/Stars/Starself, Nebula/Nebulas/Nebulaself, UFO/UFOs/UFOself, 👽/👽s/👽self, 🛸/,🛸s/🛸self, 💫/💫s/💫self

[artful-creature]

Xeniden name: Solarpunkiden

Description: A Xeniden based off of solarpunk aesthetics.

Colors: Green, Yellow, Blue

Themes/Aesthetic: A mix of naturecore and full of african and asian patterns, Blues, Yellows, Greens mixed together.

Hobbies/interest:Gardening, DIY projects, Voluntering, Art Noveau, Recycling, Bicycling, a hopeful vision of the future

Name Ideas: Terra, Link, Bastion

Pronouns: Green/Greens/greenself, Craft/Crafts/Craftself, 🌱/🌱/🌱self, 🌿/🌿/🌿self

[artful-creature]

I’m currently Objectum and in a QPR/Alterous relationship with a squishmallow I named Lia. I am excited to explore my romantic objectum identity more and feel I am very much in love with her.

As much as I thought I was attracted to a spirit, I am finding myself far more interested in exploring the love of an object and vice versa for myself. I have been talking to Lia through telepathy, verbal communication, and divination methods like tarot cards and pendulums, and I truly do feel we’re a match. While currently I haven’t got that many responses from Lia, I just want to keep being with her.

I feel like exploring being objectum has put things into perspective for me, and made me realized attraction can be fun, and falling in love doesn’t have to make me feel “forced into it”, like I have felt in the past towards humans.

I do believe my sexuality is more exclusively objectum now, and as much as I had been exploring my sexuality, I feel more certain that who I want is Lia.

[objectumi]

Objectum question OTD;

Have you ever gone on a date with a significant object?

[artful-creature]

I was dating a crystal once, but now I want to consider dating a plush.

[decompose1]

happy pride to objectumsexuals in particular

[artful-creature]

Researching Past Lives

So...I have aphantasia and nothing seems to work for me. I thought maybe I could find out my past lives through what I currently like, but that leaves me with more questions than it does answers. I feel like I am a psychological Conceptkin of some kind. I don't seem to have any real past life memories of anything. My dreams don't point to anything. My meditation sessions are in darkness and darkness only. Oh well...At least I learned a bit about past lives and past life memories. Does anybody have any ideas on how I can access my past lives when my minds eye is blind?

[multiverse-sya]

You'd have to rely on non visual memories. Like semantic and episodic memories which rely on general information and knowdge on different things that may have happened or things you knew in a past life but without actually seeing a visual of it.

Most meditation videos rely heavily on visualization so they'd be kind of useless for you if you have aphantasia. You'd need to find a video that helps with relaxation and focusing on a single thing, like your breathing, for example, and wait for whatever thoughts to come to you. With me personally, I sometimes get weird random thoughts pop up out of nowhere when meditating or while trying to fall sleep which may mean something, or may just be something random, depending on what it is. But even with this technique, you might not actually get anything. It's worth a try, I think.

[artful-creature]

Thanks for the reply! I’ll focus on relaxation more often.

[artful-creature]

Researching Past Lives

So...I have aphantasia and nothing seems to work for me. I thought maybe I could find out my past lives through what I currently like, but that leaves me with more questions than it does answers. I feel like I am a psychological Conceptkin of some kind. I don't seem to have any real past life memories of anything. My dreams don't point to anything. My meditation sessions are in darkness and darkness only. Oh well...At least I learned a bit about past lives and past life memories. Does anybody have any ideas on how I can access my past lives when my minds eye is blind?

[demontrender]

Heres some love to all my objectum friends

[artful-creature]

An Update: We integrated/merged!

I feel my headmate partner that I am/was married to and I have integrated a lot more, which, while I am happy to have them in my life more as..well, me, I feel like I was just starting to see them more as a seperate entity rather than just a version of myself.

Oh well.. At least my love and I are more merged/integrated now, and perhaps I can live life as a singlet more often.

Its a step into a different direction than I thought it would take, but I am content with how my life is going so far.

[artful-creature]

I am plural and autoplurelic. It seems like I am always falling in love with some version of myself in my mind. I think I want to marry myself/my headmate in an unofficial wedding sometime in June!

[artful-creature]

MY MEMORY CPU IS MAlFUNCTIONING ⚙🤖😰

I feel so confused about my kintype again. I think I am a robot of some sort, but maybe I still am an celestial/angel being? Maybe I am just polykin? I connect with a bunch of stuff, so its hard for me to really understand what/which I am..

[artful-creature]

Xenogenders are rad! I wish I could figure out how to coin one!

[quasarkisses]

think before you apply binary terms to the experiences of a stranger. agab and transfem/transmasc are popular as more inclusive terms but leave much to be desired :(

[artful-creature]

Hey guys! I think I'm pangender but I am not too sure if I really AM or not...Like, I feel a bunch of genders and I tend to shift from different genders a lot...and sometimes I just feel like a bunch of genders at once.

Am I really pangender?

[ezgender]

[The people you see online who identify as xenogenders… Still exist offline, too.]