here's my masterlist with everything i've written! note that:
all fics are explicit and astarion x fem!reader unless specified
series and multichapter fics have their masterlist linked with all chapters and ao3 links
one-shots/requests will have their main theme mentioned in parentheses next to the title, and the full lists of content warnings are available on their linked post/ao3 page
Requests: CLOSED
Current pending requests: 4
- i am more comfortable writing astarion (spawn or ascended) and halsin, but im open to get out of my comfort zone and write other characters!
- however, I won't write gale. I'll finish up my last requests for him and won't take new requests for the wizard.
- i write in third or second POV (more experienced with x reader/tav)
- comfortable with most types of writing (fluff, smut, angst, hurt/comfort)
- i am willing to go extremely dark and kinky (basically ask and if its above my limit ill tell you, but if ive already written about it, im cool with it)
- send an ask and ill get started on it! (i am quite busy recently, but i promise to get around to your request sooner rather than later)
fics are posted in chronological order of creation
this list will keep getting updated as i upload more
full list below the cut!
she was a wildfire that couldn't be tamed; he was the night star admiring her ruthless dance
Undisclosed Desires (Denial of feelings, rivals to lovers) (part 1)
Masterlist
astarion and you, along with your other companions, have been traveling together for a few weeks now. he gets on your nerves at least once a day. but as much as you hate to admit it, your late night activites are plagued by him. little do you know, hes aware of the effect he has on you and intends to use that to his advantage.
Bad Blood (Mature, Angst, follow up fic to Undisclosed Desires, Astarion POV) (part 2)
Masterlist (not posted yet)
it was meant to be a nice, simple plan. get the sorceress to fall in love with him to assure his safety. what he didn't plan was to fall for her as well, and all the complications that came along with it.
A Lesson in Taming Your Dark Consort
(all fics in this series are one-shots that surround the dynamic between Ascended Astarion and his consort Malva (my oc evil tav), heavily BDSM driven)
Taming a Tempest (spanking, semi-public sex)
oh, to be the Vampire Ascendant's dark consort. to have eternity and enhanced powers right at her finger tips - only to be denied. but two could play this game, and Malva would make Astarion regret witholding anything from her.
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Dancing on the Edge of a Knife (knife play, orgasm denial)
ever since his ascension, Malva was convinced that Astarion was the only person who could understand her every twisted desire. well, almost. there are some things she still keeps to herself, he simply wouldn't understand this part of her, the one who dances on the very edge of her knife.
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Just a Peak (voyeurism/exhibitionism, JOI, Knife play, overstimulation)
left on her own to leisure along the walls of the palace during yet another flamboyant soirée, malva stumbles upon a scene more interesting than the shady deals exchanged on the dancefloor, and allows herself to dance on her own as she spies on the most delicious scene hidden in plain sights.
that is - until her lord senses her pleasure and decides to join in.
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nightshade & lavender
(this collection is all works related to my canon malva, different from "a lesson in taming your dark consort")
Never coming home (teens and up; drinking, nightmares)
it's easy to leave a life behind and start all over again. the hard part is to leave these ghosts in the past, where they belong.
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Angels of The Night Collection
(an alternate universe set two hundred years after the events of bg3, astarion ascended and he decided to sire 7 spawns to protect himself. this is their stories *law and order TUN DUN*)
Magnum Opus (Malva Introduction/backstory)
another cultist trying to recruit her was all it took for malva to snap. the god of murder would have to face her himself if he wanted her to follow him as much as he seemed to, and malva would fight until one of them perished. the association to bhaal and his legacy would stop once and for all.
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Die For You (Lovers to Enemies to Lovers, Ascended Astarion) Completed work!
contains some Shadowheart x fem!reader
Masterlist
the ascension changed the person Astarion was, or so you believed. you broke up and parted ways after defeating the netherbrain, thinking it was for the best, but when you see him again 6 months later at the reunion, you realize you never truly moved on. and neither did he.
Meet Me In The Woods (predator/prey)
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it's astarion's turn to keep watch for the night. everyone's off to bed and he's still gone hunting and nowhere to be seen. you refuse to be the one to fill in for him again, so you venture into the woods looking for where he was last seen.
Midnight's Embrace (weed, polyamory)
astarion x female!reader x halsin
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you can’t recall the last time you had a real, good night of sleep. your fight with the nether brain is approaching fast and your anxiety is only increasing. halsin proposes to try a special brand of herbs to alleviate your mind. turns out this herb also awoke something else in you.
Nothing But A Dream (somnophilia)
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you've agreed to take things slow with astarion, only partaking in nighttime activities when he specifically desires them, and this morning, he wants you. but he would hate to intrude on your precious beauty sleep.
Run, Little Fox (predator/prey, hate sex, mildly dubious consent)
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this brat of a rogue questioned your leadership one time too many, it is time he learns his place, and youll do it the only way he'll listen to you: with a challenge. if you win, he will be held accountable for his actions, but if he wins, he gets to use you every night. it doesn't matter anyway, you'll win... won't you?
Public Display of Affection (A!A, jealousy, semi-public/loud sex, hints of voyeurism feat. Gale)
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his consort - his beautiful, too kind for her own good - forever young lover. she was his, and his only, and he believed it was long overdue to make that statement clear among the rest of their group. after tonight, the only name spiling from her luscious lips would be his.
Death is Not an Escape (Mature, Dead By Daylight AU, heavy angst)
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it wasn't supposed to end like this, they were supposed to get out and defeat the absolute - together. but as a dark fog swallowed them whole, their fates changed drastically.
The Ways of Worship (Priest/Modern AU, Corruption)
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this faith was all you've ever known. so when you wake up a morning with the dreadful feeling that you've lost it, you do the one thing that makes sense - confess to your local priest. when he offers his guidance with the promise of making you whole again, you accept without a second thought. your first lesson begins tonight.
Remember Me (Angst, Audio adaptation)
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you can't make sense of where you are or even how you ended up in this cell - hells, you're not even sure of who you are at this point; any memories of your past are a blur. it's all the more confusing when a group of adventurers come to rescue you, and a particularly worried pale elf takes it upon himself to help you remember who you are.
Silent Night (Somnophilia, Heavy Non-Con, Breeding)
gale x tav
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gale's one dream with Tav is to have a family - something she's been teasing for too long now. something gale is done denying himself.
tonight, whether she wants it or not, he'll make her the mother of his children.
My Only Request (Rape, Forced pregnancy, corellon's blessing)
malva x prudence (tav/tav)
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after years spent living together with prudence, malva feels the need for something new. something greater than what they already have. something only corellon's blessing could make possible.
she will need to get over her hatred for the gods to bless her wife with the gift of life, whether she wants it or not.
Breeding Season (Predator/Prey, Size difference, pregnancy kink)
babe it's me i'm just covered in dirt and blood because i had to claw my way up into the light and crawl on my hands and knees back home to you stop screaming
A character arc where the character who did terrible things and regrets them is forced to live, to put one foot in front of the other and find healing, who chooses to pour goodness into the world and make the world a better place
Is more satisfying to me than a character arc where the character who did terrible things and regrets them is redeemed through death
*shouts into the void* no one Deserves a redemption arc! that’s the whole notion of redemption, that it’s impossible to deserve redemption and still to strive to be better, to make a hard painful choice to change your own goddamn life! and maybe, just maybe, saying “this character doesn’t deserve a redemption arc” has more to do with your personal dislike of the character and less to do with a coherent moral system!
“Bad guys don’t deserve to be redeemed” is a boring plot mindset and it’s cancelled forever.
Show me bad guys that think it’s too late to turn their life around, and then turn it around. Show me bad guys that think they’ll never be loved because of the things they’ve done and then give them love and support that makes them feel like it’s worth it to change. Show me bad guys who are bitter, hold grudges, lash out at people, and then make them realize that this Isn’t Working and want more out of their life. Show me bad guys that ask the good guys for help!!
The “villain gets what’s coming to him and is never seen or heard from again” trope is old and played. I want to hear from them again. I want them to ask the good guys to drive them to their first therapy appointment. I want them to struggle through apologies, not because they’re too proud to say “I’m sorry” bc tbh that trope can die too, but because they can’t find the words to make things better and it makes it feel pointless to try.
Make it hard! Make it hurt! Make them question who they are and if change is possible and make them find out that they can be more than the destructive thoughts and behavior they’ve adapted! Make them learn that having bad thoughts doesn’t make you a bad person, and you can choose which thoughts and desires you entertain and act upon. Let the choice to ignore bad thoughts and focus on positive ones become easier over time. And let them feel proud of themselves for it!
Real people struggle with these issues every day and right now the social message is that if you mess up, you’re scum and you deserve to suffer and you’ll never be more than scum. Real people need to know that you can’t undo the damage of things you’ve done, but you can be better in the future. Real people need to know that you’re not pigeonholed into being a Bad Guy for the rest of your life because you’re a Bad Guy right now.
Nobody “deserves” to be redeemed, it isn’t about “deserving” redemption, it’s about working not to keep hurting people because you can.
Credit to @ashhavynn reposted and cleaned up for language.
Me, passing a car covered in horny thirst-trap anime girl stickers: while I personally find this to be cringe, given the national push for censorship, I must concede that this is technically Praxis.
post cancelled I've been told the term i used already exists in english and that it means something Very Much Different. english is a wicked language that i regret learning
