the worst ones always live

@asuiru

my skin has turned to porcelain, to ivory, to steel

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what i will say about s3 is while there are some really incredible individual scenes where i can pick out moments of brilliance, theres no cohesiveness. like they lose their emotional impact because they are not framed properly. it feels very sloppy. the decline in quality Is crazy but it is not declining in quality for any of the reasons the people crowding twitter say it is which makes my nascent contrarianism peak so i have been less annoyed than some but yeah. unfortunately i think that even if the finale is the best episode Ever it still doesnt negate the aimlessness of the first 6 eps.

#in many ways i think this was on purpose #'every time it started to get too polished we scrapped it' yeah we can tell 😒#i feel like i can see what theyre going for its just not arranged pleasingly for maximum emotional devastation. ykwim?#exception of ep 3. they almost got there in ep 6 then the actual last scene fell kinda flat.#idk ep6 to me was like a collection of really really stunning individual scenes #topped off by. goddamn you see that shit? fucked up or what. anyways im rod sterling.

oh my god. oh my god. every episode ive been like im missing louis wheres louis. whole time ive actually been missing claudia.

#and then loustat talking about their hypothetical trailer in utah or whatever directly following all of that.#worst parents everrr (:

love everyone contributing to the absolute hoard of dice for emily to roll

+ bonus: some delighted emily faces

#'i dont know this game super well so' one of the greatest bits of the episode #d20

almedha

#fe #tellius #!!!! this is beautiful

some guys …

#fe #tellius #whoops back down the ikesoren rabbithole i go

I always feel so cheated in stories when characters are walking around with this Big Guilt and then...you find out that the thing wasn't their fault at all. And not in a "they thought they did it but it turns out they were set up" way, or even a "accepting that just because they did A which caused B which caused C it doesn't mean C was their fault", way but where they finally lay out the sequence of events and it's clear that any thinking person would not connect them. Like, fucking commit!!! The character isn't LESS compelling if they actually did the thing! You can't have the haunted brooding meow meow who is...also completely blameless

Ok listen

INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE Season 1, Episode 4 | Season 3, Episode 5

#iwtv #christ!!

functionally suicidal character saying “I would die for you” to their significant other and its like. I get the sentiment, honey, but if a hot dog vendor told me he’d sell hot dogs for me, I wouldn’t feel very moved now would I

Now a functionally suicidal character saying “I will live for you”. Now that’s a dynamic I can sink my teeth into.

Not unlike a hot dog

You had a daughter. I had a daughter.

#iwtv #diabolical.

ok so, I approached my local library with a proposal to donate a mural as a way to A: build portfolio/gain practical experience and B: give back to a beloved public institution. The director was very enthusiastic about it and i've been working on it since the beginning of March. Come with me as I endeavor to paint what is in all honesty an excessive amount of birds

I wanted the birds to look like they were actually in the space so first thing after doing the draft was to do a lighting study

after that I covered the walls in letters in lieu of a projector/vr headset bc i have neither of those :) Then i take a picture of the section of wall and superimpose the lineart over top of it so I can pencil in the lines

et voila

and that was a whole week on it's own so next comes the paintin' >:)

and now, the birds

Birds 1 and 2/14: Red Winged Blackbird, Male and female, Agelaius phoeniceus

Bird 3/14, American Robin, Turdus migratorius

hoo boy, ok *out of breath*

GIVE IT UP FOR BIRD NUMBUH 5, THE CANADIAN GOOSE, Branta canadensis!!!!

this guy took me about 4 days to completely finish, all of those freakingk coverts were a bear to render

speaking of obnoxious coverts:

bird 5/14, Bluejay, Cyanocitta cristata

the friggin stripes almost got me chat, i may not make it

Madam....

birds 6 and 7: American Goldfinch, Spinus tristis, male and female

pleasantly simple to paint! next is the flickerrrrr

*melts into goo*

BIRD NUMBER 8, (yellow shafted) NORTHERN FLICKERRRRR, Colaptes auratus

genuinely made me start questioning my sanity around day 3, it's half the size the of the goose, WHY did it take me 4 days to finish??

nothing but pain and suffering, i'm sure hope the next bird will be much easier and with FAR less barring :)

in other news, I am losing my mind hairline

SHE'S DONE!!

Bird number 9: Red-tailed hawk, Buteo jamaicensis

my chains are broken i am FREE. although i did have a great deal of fun with this, the barring on the wings itself took me like four days and i am READY to move on

this was a week and a half of continuous work so please excuse me for getting a little emotional in the bg 🙏

*does a little jig*

BIRD NUMBER 10!!! The Male Mallard Duck, Anas platyrhynchos

the male and female ones are gonna be posted separately bc they're taking a lot longer lol but yea! super happy i was able to capture the iridescent green of the head, i found metallic green and blue paint at a craft store that really made his head POP. it looks better in person i promise

ALSO!! As this is the 10th one, BIG announcement. The end is in sight!!!!! I plan to finish within the next 3 weeks and there will be a small dedication ceremony/ unveiling happening at the library to commemorate its completion on the 16th of May. If you live in the Western New York region and want to check it out for yourself shoot me a dm!

Also thank you everyone for your kind words and support throughout this whole process, it's been a genuine treat thinking there are potentially thousands of you out there cheering me on while I paint this 🥹

aaaand another one bites the duck,

we're movin right along with bird numero 11!! The lady Mallard!! Anas platyrhyncos

the 16th is looming in the distance so i'm trying to get thru these as quickly as i can so i can have as much time for the GBH as possible. i still need to do the names next to all of them so i've got about a week and a half to finish everything which is GREAT because i have adhd and nothing gets my ass in gear like a fuckin deadline, let me tell you

power couple that they are, here's bird number 12 and 13,

the Northern Cardinals, Cardinalis cardinalis

and NOW that they are complete, ITS GO TIME, in the next five days (library's closed for mother's day 😭😭) i need to have the GBH fully rendered, the names of the birds vectored, weeded, masked, applied to the wall, and then painted, plus additional cattails throughout. I may be able to get away with just getting the GBH done in time for the unveiling and then just have the names and cattails added later, but i'm gonna really try to get it all done in time. BUT, i have a plan. Part of why i take so long on these is because i really am just figuring it out as I do it lmao. there have been many a time where i am sitting on top of the ladder googling "how to paint birds" but I think if i take the time tomorro to do all that figuring out how to approach it beforehand, this will go a lot faster. I may also recruit some of my artist friends to help with the placing of the names... hrmm we'll see.

Anyways, shout out to the librarian who tracked down exactly the thing i needed so i could figure out where to place the highlights in my birds eyes, ur the real mvp

thanks for the reminder, kid

at long last, we've reached the end...

Bird number 14 out of 14,

The Great blue heron, Ardea herodius

thank you to everyone who reached out or got excited about this project, it genuinely gave me the fuel i needed to keep going. In total, the 480+ total hrs it took me to cover this wall pales in comparison to how long its expected to spend on there, hopefully imparting a sense of beauty and love for the natural world to the next generation and here's hoping i'm only getting started with these.

i'll see y'all soon :')

Enough fanfiction where a guy emotionally neglects his wife because he’s gay. We need more of guy emotionally neglects his wife and then emotionally neglects his boyfriend because he sucks

#... dare i say dean winchester

#SICKOS YES HAHAHA YES #iwtv

duuuuuude you have GOT to come out tonight we're enacting cruelty upon those who have transgressed so badly that we can justify any act against them... and you KNOW we're interpreting our delight as moral righteousness... Yeah it's fucking crazyyyyyyy get an Uber

Imagine if people watched Interview with the Vampire and it inspired them to think about how the past is in a very real way inaccessible to us and memory can be misleading even when you're not being dishonest and different people can have different experiences of the same event that feel emotionally true and are very real to the people who experienced them even if they contradict each other and often you will never be able to know what really happened and how this can make repairing damaged relationships difficult and threatening to a person's sense of self

#man wouldnt that be crazy.#litany against opening twitter again #iwtv

dont burn alone

armand is way too pathetic in this episode. like to be clear i like when hes pathetic but i need him to be evil first.

#as always. forever chasing the high of s2e5 dont be afraid just start the tape #hes just bigging his huge sad pathetic wet eyes at us. girl do something bad first THEN you can do that all you want.

finally read dark heir (and reread dark rise) and cs pacat is perhaps the goat of toxic identity porn romance

#like princes gambit is the romance novel of All Time #cant really pass complete judgement on this new trilogy without book 3 but its genuinely insane stuff in here. makes me feel crazy.#all that said. cs pacat is unfortunately only middling to ok at most other parts of writing a novel.#maybe only read dark rise if youre prepared to slog through the first 80% of it.#seems like a fun book to reread but its kind of. boring. the first time through. until you get to the last two sentences #and then suddenly youre chomping at the bit to get to book 2

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