Atlas

Hey so I'm a trans man that is pro Palestine and pro Ukraine and stuff. I hate how we kill each other anyways this blog is going to be showing all of my highs and lows with being a trans dude

[atlas-astropal]

Hey update on me and college

I officially am a colleg student. Im studying to be a vet tech

[atlas-astropal]

Oh another thing I recently got a kobo Libra colour and i absolutely love using it. I started scheduling what i call the wind down hour where i just read for an hour while i drink some herbal teas

[whyenn-reader]

Not to go "if you have ADHD just go for a run" or anything, but I am so serious if you have ADHD you should regularly go outside, no headphones no phone no nothing and just stand and observe for a while until you've had enough. Not until you get bored, until you've had enough. Drink your coffee without watching tiktok. Have a bath without music. Turn down the volume in your headphones. I cannot overstate how much learning to be bored is cruicial with ADHD. Life is not just about pleasure, no matter what your dysregulated dopamine system thinks, and when you teach your brain to be okay with being bored, then boring tasks stop feeling like torture. By letting yourself be bored you are yoinking your system out of the high/low binary and allow for the highs to feel like actual highs and not just anything that isn't low. I am so serious go literally touch grass. Listen to the sounds in your flat. Stimulate your body the way it was designed. It lowers anxiety and makes you feel like you're real and best of all it's completely free

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

I really wish more ADHD mental health care told you WHY things like this matter to our quality of life.

The Hyperactivity in Attention-Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder is NOT about being physically hyperactive, it's about having a "hyperactive central nervous system" because it's a form of inheritable dysautonomia. The problem with disautonomia, especially the ADHD kind, is that it makes boredom flag to your nervous system as a THREAT, triggering hyperactive and maladaptive central nervous system processes like fight or flight.

But dysautonomia kills you that way. Literally, part of the reason our average life spand increase on stimulents is that it helps manage risk-taking impulsivity that can get us killed by accident, but the other part is that stimulents can regulate a hyperactive CNS such that it is functionally (while impacted by the stimulent) NOT dysregulated anymore. And PHYSIOLOGICALLY that is essential because the physical outcomes of dysautonomia can reduce your life span by YEARS if not decades through self-perpetuating hypervigelence, endocrine disruption, and adrenal fatigue.

So when the ADHD brain goes stimulation-seeking and a doctor tells you to practice mindfulness, it feels like being told "hey go stand in a functioning boiler until you can stop thinking" rather than WHAT IT IS which is the process of re-teaching your body what is and isn't safe.

Standing outside making mindful, non-interpretive/moralized observation of the world helps your brain and body re-acclimate to the idea that absence of that frantic "busy" feeling isn't a threat or a risk to your safety, and gradually reduces the level of distress that just hanging out somewhere triggers for you.

Learning WHY this stuff was being suggested and understanding what it was actually supposed to do went a long way towards changing my relationship with my ADHD. I am FAR more functional now, far less prone to shame spirals and rejection sensitivity, hell, I can **sit physically still for near on an hour at a time** now without feeling like I'm going to crawl out of my skin.

So yeah. Go outside. Let the world narrow around you and take deep breaths until it stops feeling claustrophobic or like you need to climb walls. Learn how to let little sensations become big ones like the way the heat of the sun on your skin starts as a gentle warming and be omes a unique collection of sensory moments depending on how it lands on you. Listen for sounds under sounds and let them fade in and out as you move your focus from one sound to the next. Enjoy. Move on. Rinse and repeat.

When you no longer feel like the world is actively killing you, it's a lot easier to navigate it.

[whyenn-reader]

S++ tier addition to the post, thank you tumblr user butts bouncing on the beltway

[atlas-astropal]

Hey, so due to multiple sclerosis i had to quit my job. I am trying to navigate life without but its currently difficult. I am also working on applying to community colleges so i can get a zoology, and a reptile veterinary degree. (And if possible id love to get an education degree so i can teach people about lizards legally.

[weavemama]

reblog flying ass giant pants guys for a fortune of good luck and good cash 

[weavemama]

this is a cursed post that is capable of delivering good deeds

[i-am-a-fish]

I don't think dust needs to exist personally

[i-am-a-fish]

I really love this website and the people on it a lot

[atlas-astropal]

Hey, i found out i have multiple sclerosis (the auto immune disorder that attacks the protective sheath surrounding ones neuropath way)

[sinistra-orlok]

[we-all-got-scars-again]

IT’S MARCH

[multifand0mtrash]

[magical-awesome-kid]

Uh… It’s still May…

[clowncare]

[normalstuffidk]

It’s august

[storm-driver]

[countably-infinite-rats]

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[stargazaar]

sorry

gently dropping my commission stuff again as my parents are basically threatening to take all the money i have and put me in debt to them. i currently have no steady income due to disability and finding something remote has been extremely difficult...

just to keep things organized, here's my Vgen for rough idea on pricing: https://vgen.co/StarGazaar

i do reference sheets, anime-style stuff, old VHS screenshots, i can even do vtuber models to an extent- really if you have anything in mind i'd be happy to discuss <:)

if for whatever reason you're thinking of just dropping a couple coins in my cup, you can find my ko-fi here:

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it's dire

[atlas-astropal]

It's tick season

[atlas-astropal]

Hey, so I got a job. I'm planning on using the money to buy more binders (the clothing) and some boxers that I can use with an STP along with an STP

[moth-amphetamine]

you’re not famous here unless haiku bot reblogs a post you have made

[moth-amphetamine]

You need to have hope, your day will come soon enough and it will be great

[moth-amphetamine]

In my whole damn life, I have never done something so.. so dastardly.

[the-haiku-bot]

In my whole damn life,

I have never done something

so.. so dastardly.

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

[guerrillatech]

[ruinedchildhood]

[phantomrose17]

[silly-jellyghoty]

[lenacraft]

March

[abstractandedgyname]

[atlas-astropal]

Reflection

Hey little boy

Let me tell you story

A story of a girl and an invisible boy

A story of love war and devastation

Hey little boy

There once was a girl made of sugar and spice and everything nice

One day she peered into the mirror of dreams

for a second

A split second she could of sworn she saw a boy stare back at her

Hey little boy

Down by the bay as her parents called for her it happened again

this time she told her parents about the boy in the lake and in the mirror and her parents said no hun its just your reflection

Hey little boy

Are you listening

This is a story of us

And love and war

Goodbyes and new beginnings

Whenever the girl looked at her reflection in the mirror she always saw a boy looking back

Sometimes shed try to smash the mirror

Other times she wouldn't

But as those days turned to months and then to years

Hey little boy

Let me tell you a story of a girl

And the boy in the mirror

The boy in the mirror was never changing

While her body grew boobs and her curves started to fill

She grew and started to wonder why a boy always starred at her

Hey little boy

Are you still listening

This is the story of you and of i

The girl in body and the boy in the mirror

The girl of sugar and spice would begin to fall in love thinking that would make her a real girl

It never did. In fact she felt less like a person the more she dated.

Hey little boy

this is us

The war The pain and The devastation

We are one in the same

One day she decided to cut her hair short to match the boy in the mirror and she felt a smile flood her face

She began to wear trench coats and sweaters

And play in the mud

Hey little boy

When people asked her if she was a girl

she'd respond with I'm a boy

Hey little boy

The more the girl walked towards boyhood the more people got upset saying that isn't natural and that she's insane

That she is corrupting the children

Hey little boy

one night staring into the darkness below

She decides

To take a leap of faith

She jumps

her body began to shift from girl to boy as if she was some type of Pokemon.

He wore a pink white blue pin

With the words he / Him

as he walked around

He felt different but couldn't tell why

When he looked in the mirror he saw a little girl looking back at him

He looked into her familiar eyes and said hey little girl

Let me tell you a story

A story of you the girl in the body

and I the boy in the mirror

And with that the boy in the mirror and the girl in the body parted ways

Two halves of the same coin

[galileosballs]

"I want to live in a world in which teenagers can fulfil their natural purpose of being annoying" and "I do not always want to be annoyed by the teenagers" are compatible sentiments

[galileosballs]

#I get so happy when I’m annoyed by teenagers in public#because it’s like#these kids are forming communities outside of their parents!#they aren’t shackled by school or soccer or clubs their parents put them in#they have the initiative and confidence to make their own social connections#it’s so so cool that I’m out of touch with what they’re saying and doing#because it means they have lives of their own (tags via @elongated-twink)

You! You are the only person who has correctly understood this post. The point is not that they should go be annoying somewhere else, it's that being annoyed by teenagers in normal public places, while annoying, is a good thing. It is a sign of societal health. We adults just need to be ok with the fact that we're going to be annoyed sometimes.

[atlas-astropal]

Agreed

[stained-glass-sunsets]

reblog if you think aros and aces (or anyone on the aroace spectrum) are queer

trying to prove something to my mother ^^

[atlas-astropal]

As an aroace person who's also trans yes we are definitely queer. We aren't the normal experience which means we are queer. "Normal" is supposed to cishet cause that default for some reason.