"Social anxiety is often triggered by the distance between our inner worlds and the world everyone else is in. People whoâve sought safety and peace by retreating into themselves can unknowingly develop external affects that alienate others. They may look bored or far away. They may fail to make eye contact, or speak in vague circles. Most of the time theyâd prefer to go unnoticed. Ironically, the resulting furtiveness can make them even more conspicuous. The ways we indicate being present to others is often through gestures that arenât second nature if you donât feel confident, or they appear inelegant when attempted by someone unpracticed in them. Confidence comes out of a feeling of belonging. I wonder how often, if ever, youâve felt a sense of belonging. When the only place we experience welcome or care is our own minds it can be difficult to nurture the ability to feel at home anywhere else.Â
The fear of being noticed, of somehow being caught and kicked outâpunished for who you are the same way you mightâve been earlier in life informs what we commonly call social anxiety. It can be the expectation of rejection or the very real wariness of how other people can cause harm. The stress of failing the tests of casual conversation, or being on edge around people you should be relaxed withâlike your partner or friendsâmay be rooted in the idea you could be found to be lacking and subsequently rejected. Anxiety over whose, and how much, attention youâre drawing as the only person like you in your workplace or school, or as a woman walking home alone at night, are also types of social anxietyâalbeit different than the kind youâve asked me about. All are connected to how available to us we feel the rights that come from belonging are.
Itâs no wonder that the people who are often anxious or awkward are also perceptively different in other ways; marked by race, gender presentation, ability, family background, a personality that wasnât popular, tastes that werenât shared, experiences that arenât visible to others but were so formative to them they feel markedâtruly any number of factors. And those with the most confidence are those whoâve rarely had to question their place, who can take for granted their welcome. These arenât hard and fast rules, but generally speaking youâll notice that pattern to be true.Â
Some of the confidence you need can be accessed by identifying where and when you learned you didnât totally belong. Find that moment (or moments) and reject what it taught you. We all belong, some of us may have to insist on that ourselves. But I promise you there are people whoâll agree.Â
The awkwardness you describe also sounds like the strain of someone waiting on a permission to be that hasnât yet been offered. A lot of us are raised in environments that demand we suppress ourselves and exist in increments with permission. All of us were born children in a world of adults, raised not with our autonomy affirmed but with our inherent smallness told to be smallerâmore receptive to authority. It creates a society populated by people who donât know how to be themselves once they have the agency to be. Some reach adulthood with a streak of cruelty in rebellion of that initial imposition. And then there are those who reach adulthood with a practiced timidity, just as wounded, but still waiting on permission. We may not see it that way as adults, but if youâre living as if peopleâs acceptance of you is conditionalâupon how you talk, what clothes you wear, who you associate with, what struggles you face or donât faceâthen youâre living in fear of your permission to exist as yourself being revoked. Of course itâs stressful, if not ourselves, who can we be?Â
To feel known and appreciated is a fundamental human need. Rather than risk the shame of rejection, people try to grow used to their own loneliness. There is only one way to be lonely. There are many ways to be known. And thatâs what requires our attention and practiceânot our capacity for becoming used to a loneliness we assume we canât changeâbut our ability to make ourselves known."
"Patterns of how people respond to us can sometimes have nothing to do with us and everything to do with their bias or insecurities. Or those patterns can have everything to do with us and our behavior. Isnât that frustrating? But we have more control than we realize. Any given interaction is the product of a mutual dynamic. Youâre in charge of what you contribute to it.
My recommendation to you is not to analyze yourself more than you already must be. Instead, I suggest you survey how others around you are experiencing a situation. Iâve found making sure others feel accepted and welcome not only allows me to remain present rather than aloof, it encourages everyone (myself included) to relax too.
Is someone being left out of the conversation? Does someone else require the subject to be changed? Who looks nervous and could use a smile and show of interest? Treat others with a curiosity and openness that allows, and even welcomes, whatever quirks or awkwardness they may possess. People may not know how to respond to everything about you, but they know the safety of sincere warmth when they feel it. Offering it to others brings it to every space youâre in.Â
You know how rare such treatment is. It can change the entire temperature of a space. When you donât know how to respond more fully to peopleâs questions, ask them some of your own. You know what a lot of people like more than listening to someone talk? Talking. Especially about themselves. It may sound counterintuitive to ask someone who feels socially awkward to play host, but this will give you a guidance system and specific tasks that will pull you out of yourself. It also deflects the pressure you may feel when you sense others are focused on you.Â
That stiffness you mention will dissolve once you bridge the gap between your inner experience and external reality. Show up as a good listener. Show up period. Ground yourself by focusing on the details of the space youâre in. Donât wonder if the way youâre holding your body looks awkward to others. Describe the space to yourself. What colors dominate, can you smell peopleâs perfumes? Food? How does the ground feel to walk on? If you were to describe the occasion to someone what would you say? This will force you to be more present in a way thatâll take care of 90% of the issue here, it will distract your body from the assumptions causing it to tense up by connecting you more deeply to how little there is to be tense about.Â
I want you to feel empowered to navigate social interactions. I want you to increase your ability to make a good impression and reduce anxiety over how youâre coming across. I also want you to know that you donât have to impress anyone. But if youâd like to, paying attention will. Do that and youâll find yourself feeling ease through creating it, and be relieved of the impossible task of performing it."
Ayesha Siddiqi, Advice: "I've been told I'm awkward. How can I relax around people?"
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