be curious

early 30s | she/her | fanfic lover, reader, writer | former English major, current overanalyzer of fiction | my ao3: beagoldfish

[bea-goldfish]

Hello!

I dove head-first into the Game Changers/Heated Rivalry fandom, so I figured it was time to update my pinned post. I'll keep it short and simple:

Bea, early 30s, she/her, queer

My ao3 can be found here

I write for pretty much any fandom that catches my eye and interest, but my account currently has Game Changers/HR, Daredevil, and Ted Lasso

I'm an inconsistent tagger when I am reblogging, but I try to keep up with my own posts, so here are some important tags: #bea's fanfic, #my writing, #fanfiction, #bea's bs (warning that I don't seem to be consistent here either, whoops, but MOVING FORWARD, I will try to get all my fics under one tag)

I will likely try to make a tag soon for writing updates, but it usually falls under my writing and/or bea's bs (but god, the accountability of a tag sort of hits, yknow?)

Anyway, nice to meet you!

[postarcadian]

the thing I love most about how tumblr users use tags is that it’s like what if a social media website had a footnotes system

[goddamnshinyrock]

the emotional stages of a hike:

beginning: wow, this is great! I love hiking! why don’t I do this more often?

halfway up: why did I do this? why does ANYONE do this? I hate this. this is pointless. how am I not even close to the summit yet? no view could possibly be worth this miserable, interminable slog. I need to do more cardio.

at the summit: wow, this is great! I love hiking! this view was totally worth it! what a beautiful thing it is to be alive and on top of a mountain right now. I am perfectly at peace, breeze blowing, birds singing, nice crunchy apple and delicious salty trail mix, all is right with the world.

halfway down: why did I do this? why does anyone do this? ow my knees. :( ow my ankles. :( ow my feet. :( how am I not back down yet? I don’t remember it being this long on the way up.

home and showered: wow, hiking is great! I love hiking! that was so nice, I should do it more often. (ow my knees)

[oknotgood]

reblog if i'm allowed to slide into your dms with an "i love you so much!!!" with no preamble or context

[oknotgood]

yes i am watching all the reblogs and yes i am rubbing my hands together gleefully and cackling about all the people i get to send love to. you won't see it coming...you'll never know exactly when it's gonna happen...but it Will happen. my love is inevitable.

[oknotgood]

never have i been more thankful to be a side blog. i'm shadowbanned here at oknotgood but my main can still send asks and DMs! (just gotta be careful not to get shadowbanned over there too lol). my quest continues!

[srdcovka]

sometimes u comment under a mutual's post and it's like god, this is it they're gonna kill me now

[kvothes]

yeah i’m a les mis fan (nonpracticing) but i do go on tumblr for barricade day

[creamsiclemelt]

AND ANOTHER THING

calling Nick Suzuki, a man with a non-white sounding name the "real Shane Hollander" or "straight Shane Hollander" or Shane Hollander at all is fucking crazy work. I'm sorry but even the fucking show touched on the way non-white names stand out and make life harder for players

So not only are freaks reducing Nick down to a fake character but are doing it in a way that is explicitly erasing his Japanese name, which isn't funny even as a #bit

[multifan-incorrect-quotes]

Shane: I don't know, I've just been feeling really nauseous lately...

Ilya: Maybe you are pregnant.

Shane: ...

Ilya: ...

Shane: I don't know who's the bigger idiot. You for suggesting that, or me for almost having a heart attack...

[probablily]

also its important to me that shane Knew he was gay the whole time, it was this Thing itches in the back of his brain, something he couldn't look at head on or really think about. bc admitting it was like giving up. but its not that he didn't Know. shane hollander didn't have to have rose tell him hes gay for him to be like "oh huh really i hadn't noticed" bc he Knew. and you can see it so clearly on his face in that scene how he knew. how thinking about it scares him, how Really looking at this part of himself feels impossible. but again shanes not just completely unselfaware, he knows this about himself he just Hopes he can make it work. that it doesnt really matter. he likes rose Enough, he likes girls Enough, it can be Enough

[doctorwhowatchesthewatchmen]

the circus is empty, all of the monkeys are here

[somepotatoes]

just so my mutuals know, some of the stuff I reblog is for you specifically. good luck figuring out what.

[bea-goldfish]

I always forget that the thing about doing fic exchanges is that you have to keep shit secret until the exchange happens

alas, I am Tinkerbelle

[estrogenesis-evangelion]

"when i was your age, netflix came to our house in the mail" never gets old. they don't believe you, because they can't, because they cannot conceive the apparatus by which this would be true. but it is true. they mailed me season 1 of the sopranos with stamps. with fucking stamps man

[bea-goldfish]

Ok so I know we’re talking shallergies (Shane allergies) but have we considered that Ilya is super allergic to peaches but sincerely does not believe it because “Russians do not have allergies. This is Western thing. Is not possible”

His tongue and throat get itchy every time he eats a peach, but he will happily munch on a whole carton of them, juices flowing down his arm, complaining about how his tongue feels numb and his mouth inexplicably has hives later while Shane loses his GODDAMN mind

[ilyapasta]

@summerscottkip just bookended a rant to me with “and now Shane’s got food allergies” and I’m still laughing

ON TOP OF EVERYTHING now we gotta carry an epi-pen for Shane

[darlingofdots]

you're laughing. shane hollander is breaking out in hives because his husband looked at a peanut butter cookie and you're laughing

[ilyapasta]

Something compelling with the shallergies (stupid ass meta incoming lmao)-

Shane's relationship to want and desire! If he grew up with life-threatening food allergies he would always be faced with delicious things that could kill him! And children with food allergies have to become responsible for their own well-being very quickly. Sure, adults are looking out for you but also the quicker you can gauge risks the safer you'll be. Something something physical risk developing into this aversion to things that are delicious and indulgent, as most allergens are!!!

[transformativeworks]

The TikTok Team is back again with a Tag Wrangler Hear Me Out Cake.

(YouTube link)

[shanyshko]

we need to discuss how in tampa shane hollander went to the pool just to lay on his deck chair and ogle ilya. this is shane hollander we're talking about. in february of a season. he's not even conceivably swimming laps or something he's literally just there to ogle. hedonist