i am only an eel

30. she/her. wciff (but no promises). geek, family-oriented, and romantic.

[beebeesiims]

currently running

chrono (from the beginning) // current

gen 1 - Kaylynn Langerak [FOUNDER] gen 2 - Grace Thibodeaux gen 3 - Griffin Oaklow gen 4 - Felix Dimayuga

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[userilyarozanov]

hi guys. i honestly really hate doing this and hate having to keep asking for help but idk what else to do honestly. i hit another snag today in my disability case - i was denied for the third time now. i'm going to go through an appeal process, but this just means more waiting and more time that i don't make enough money to pay bills and essentially survive and more time that i have to continue working the limited hours that i can barely manage as is.

currently i'm dealing with fibromyalgia, rheumatoid arthritis, complex ptsd, autism, major depressive disorder, and generalized anxiety disorder amongst other things and it's really hard to stay afloat while dealing with so many physical and mental struggles on top of it all.

i know that things are tough for a lot of us right now and the rising cost of everything really isn't helping, but any donation or reblog is genuinely so so so appreciated. 🙏🤎

ko-fi / paypal / gofundme

i don't have a lot to offer but i can make edits and gifsets for commission, so i will put some prices down below:

$3 ...........................-> icon $5 ...........................-> gif header $5+ .........................-> $1 charge per add on / specified color, border, etc $6 ...........................-> icon pack which includes 5 icons $8 ...........................-> 5 header pack & above add on charges still apply $10 .........................-> basic gif request ( gif examples ) $15 .........................-> color based gif request ( gif examples )

[miseducatedmelanicmuse]

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[somethingusefulfromflorida]

[ryebreadgf]

once I snorted a fat line of nuance and everything started depending. watch out

[shinraalpha]

i do think lobbying for data centres over climate goals should be considered a crime against humanity btw

[lesvegas]

A few years ago while trying to find ways to commit suicide as painlessly as possible, I came across a PDF of Dr. Paul Quinnett's The Forever Decision. Thinking it might go into actual methods of suicide (I read an article once that actually did that and was trying to find it again) I started to read it, and I think I only got about two pages in before I was crying too much to actually see the words.

I downloaded the PDF to my hard drive and I open it again whenever I'm feeling too suicidal to do much else, but not enough to start booking a ride to the hospital. And every time without fail I only go up to a few pages before backing off and choosing to live another day just because suicide suddenly seems even more unbearable than whatever the hell upset me in the first place.

All the book really does is [I'm pulling a summary from GoodReads here as, again, I've read no more than 5 pages] "discusses the social aspects of suicide, the right to die, anger, loneliness, depression, stress, hopelessness, drug and alcohol abuse, the consequences of a suicide attempt, and how to get help."

But it also starts with the author kindly asking the reader to complete the book before going through with anything, and for some reason I'm compelled to really just try to read it all before finalizing everything. Despite not yet completing it (hopefully never will) I think I can safely say it's saved my life at least a few times now.

It's intentionally legal to copy and redistribute this book to keep it as accessible as possible, and it's very easy to find, but here's a link for it anyways.

[shamebats]

Emos & scene kids got this close to abolishing gender for real. I try not to think about it too much.

[shamebats]

The idea of a popular teenage subculture where girl & boys pretty much all dress the same feels impossible now but for a while it was reality and it was beautiful.

[abdulrahman-family22]

My little nephew is dying; I feel like he's taking his last breaths. I will never forgive anyone who ignores this.

[abdulrahman-family22]

Please, we urgently need 700€ for emergency surgery for my nephew. His health has deteriorated significantly; he is now in a coma and unconscious, suffering greatly. Time is running out, and every moment is crucial for him.

[abdulrahman-family22]

My nephew is his parents' only child. He lost his father in this genocide in the Gaza Strip and suffered multiple traumas during this war. He has already had one operation and now needs another. Please don't leave him alone. Donate towards his operation. I don't want to lose him like I lost my mother and brother. Please donate, donate!

Donate here - PayPal - Vetted#642

[abdulrahman-family22]

If anything happens to my nephew, please remember that I begged you to donate, even a small amount, or to share my post. I will not forgive anyone who sees this post and doesn't support me with a single word or a small donation, and ignores me.💔

[abdulrahman-family22]

Someone has donated €50, but we still need €650 to cover the cost of my nephew's surgery. I swear we need your help; my nephew is suffering terribly right now. Please, every moment of delay could cost him his life. This is a life-or-death surgery—please don't let him die. You are our only hope. Please, please donate.💔😭

[abdulrahman-family22]

Several people have donated a total of 90 euros, but we still need 560 euros to cover the cost of my nephew's surgery. We still need your help; my nephew is in a very critical condition. Please, every moment of delay could cost him his life. Please don't let him die. You are our only hope—please, please donate. We are getting very close to our goal; please donate. 💔

[abdulrahman-family22]

Someone has donated 10 euros, and we now need only 550 euros more for my nephew's surgery. I hope that anyone reading this will not ignore my plea; I am asking for your help today because I fear that tomorrow I might lose my nephew before the operation can take place. Please donate—do not let us down. Your contribution will help save my nephew's life. Please, please donate. 💔😭

[abdulrahman-family22]

If you care, we still need 500 euros for my nephew's surgery; he is in a very bad state. I have said this so many times, and I am terrified something terrible might happen to him. Please don't let us down—please, please donate. 😭💔

[abdulrahman-family22]

Everyone, tomorrow is the deadline for the surgery. Someone has donated €100, but we still need €400 to go ahead with it. Please, don't let us down—please donate. I don't want my nephew to die; I swear this is a life-or-death surgery. Please, please donate. 💔😭

[abdulrahman-family22]

No one has donated yet, and we still need 400 euros. I swear I will not forgive anyone who sees these words and ignores me; I don't want my nephew to die. Please donate. 😭😭😭💔

[abdulrahman-family22]

Someone has donated €50, but we still need €350 for my nephew's surgery. The deadline for the procedure is just 16 hours away. Please, don't let us down—please donate, please donate. 💔😭

[abdulrahman-family22]

Oh God, there are only 11 hours left, and we still need 300 euros for the surgery. Please, save us! I don't want my nephew to miss his appointment; if the surgery doesn't happen, his condition will become critical. Please donate—I will never forgive you if any harm comes to him. 💔😭

[abdulrahman-family22]

Oh God, oh God, there are only 9 hours left until the surgery, and we still need just 230 euros. Please, our goal is so close—don't let me down. Please donate, please donate. I can't sleep thinking about whether or not the surgery will happen. Please, please donate. 😭💔

[abdulrahman-family22]

We have only 7 hours left, and we need 200 euros. Please, please don't let us down. I can't sleep wondering if we'll be able to have the surgery today or not. Please donate—our goal is so close. Don't let me down; please donate. 💔😭

[thatdiabolicalfeminist]

are people talking about the labor conditions at Taylor Farms yet? like the fact they use enslaved prisoners in their facilities?

are we drawing the connection between worker safety and consumer safety & public health yet?

are people demanding to see the conditions in this place that keeps making us sick? why are the enslaved workers not having the time to use the bathroom or to rest when ill? very few people would shit in front of their coworkers given any choice at all.

[sinmonger]

Clown Connor w/ absolutely zero context

[jame7t]

I still think it’s objectively fucked how the world is built for morning people and if you wake up later than everyone else you’re seen as a malicious aberration of some sort. I am that but it’s not because I wake up at 11 fuck yourself

[duckdotcom]

would you put a discarded fruit sticker on my forehead in whimsical jest yes or no

[finleycannotdraw]

reblog to put a discarded fruit sticker on the forehead of the person you reblogged from in whimsical jest

[bethanydelleman]

I have been listening to this podcast called Betwixt the Sheets, The History of Sex, Scandal & Society, and it's really reminding me of the main reason that you should listen to experts. It's not because of the reason media usually shows, them having encyclopedic knowledge of their subject (though many do have that) it's their ability to sort.

This podcast demonstrates that ability really well because sex scandals tend to be used as propaganda, so it's difficult to tell if they are true or not. The host will ask the historian guest, "Did he have sex with men?" and the guest will say something like, "Well four sources say so, but three were written after his death and the one from his lifetime was from a dude who REALLY hated him, so I'm going to conclude no."

That is what an expert can do, that we've perhaps forgotten about because we have so much information at our fingertips, an expert can tell which information is good & valid vs. bad & unreliable. An expert can sort much faster than a layman because they've been doing it for years.

It's the same for my field. Some things I am absolutely sure are wrong, like if someone says "We only use 10% of our brains." No, we use all of it and I can even tell you what every part does. But other claims, if I see a news article claiming something that sounds fishy, I can read the research article behind it and judge the validity of the source. I can sort. I know which parameters to sort on. That was the entire point of my education and it was pounded into my head.

Knowledge isn't enough. Researching isn't enough because if you don't know how to sort you'll just be led astray down dangerous rabbit holes. That is why experts are so important.

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[helenvaughans]

[itsmistybitch-deactivated202605]

These posts are sisters

[lierdumoa]

[heartpdf]

hi there <3 i have an autoimmune disease (sjogren’s) that makes migraines and joint pain and inflammation really bad and affects my mobility, currently pretty sick and in treatment and recovery, even $1 will go a long way <3 c4$h4pp v3nm0 p4yp4l k0fi

[heartpdf]

really mean it when i say even $1 or a kind word will help <3

[heartpdf]

had an asthma attack yesterday bcs of the bad air quality, goal is still soup for meds, having a really hard time <3

[heartpdf]

goal is still soup, even $1 or a kind word will help <3