Let's talk about friendships.
Company matters. If your friends are out smoking during work, bunking classes and partying, you will either
a) break under peer pressure and follow them
b) be miserable if that isn't the lifestyle you want
I want to say I've never been in that situation, but I was. This is why I can empathize with you, and tell you that you need to leave friendships like these ASAP.
My "friends" did not respect me. Because I let them. They would talk over me, make plans without me, leave me behind at gatherings, had absolutely NO boundaries. It took me a painful experience to wake the fuck up and leave them.
In my room, I cried. I screamed. I raged about how unfair all of this was. But the issue wasn't them it was me. I was the one who didn't set the boundaries. I was the one who let them disrespect me over and over. The moment you do not stand up for yourself, it's over. Its hunting season, and people will tear you to shreds.
It took me a while to heal, but when I did end up making new, better friends, I realised the vast difference between my friend groups. When I was with my old friends, I was constantly stressed, I had incomplete assignments, I would go out all the time, and I'll be honest I was really bitchy. With my new friends, my god how things changed. New study habits, healthier choices, laughter, love.
I didn't realise how long I hadn't been myself. The people who you surround yourself with have a huge effect on you and your life. And trust me when I say if you feel the need to hide parts of yourself and fake shit to be around them, you will NEVER be happy around them. True friendship flourishes around authenticity and confidence.
Company matters. Know who your real friends are.
prguitarman
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